♥Cassiopeia

I Love You

2012-01-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

Hello , 2nd week of school already ! It's Wednesday . Honestly , school has been stressing me out so badly , I'm gonna break down soon . Besides that , I'm falling ill . How great is that . Have been feeling really depress for the past few days , nothing much I can do . I don't know why my classmates likes to hide things from me , like seriously wtf? But , whatever . I don't wanna give a fuck about it anymore . It's awfully tiring and heartbreaking , anyway .

Though , I don't know what happened between us , I have officially gave up . I tired talking , I wanted to apologize for whatever shit that I did wrong . Instead of giving a few fucking seconds , all I got was a bitchy text message . Seriously . If that person isn't going to bother about it , I see no reasons why I should . If it's a end of a friendship then so be it . I don't want to hurt myself but doing stuff to save some fuckedup friendship . Screw .

I have a Maths Test next week , I'm gonna ace that test ! I MUST ! I WANT TO LEAVE MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIKE... AS SOON AS POSSIBLE , YO . I hate my class , my school and my classmates . Well , not 'hate' but yeah . I have no guy friends in class and have very little female friends . I like the guys from 312 better , like Ishak ! Ohmygodsun , my bestfriend you know ! I have great guy friends from other school , just not my school . Maybe in the past I used to have one . Valentine's Day is next month , should I confess ?

Have to go bank transfer $21 for my Teen Top album . I haven't order yet . Sad . Meeting Mama Lee and MrsChoi this Saturday and collecting my DGNA 'Lady' single ! Nothing much to blog about , I want to rant but I know I have stalkers here . Twitter it is !

Bye !

Before U Go

2012-01-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hello whoever-is-still-on-the-blog .

It has only been 5 days into 2012 and I'm already depressed . That's nice , isn't it . Honestly , who cares about it . 2011 is a completely messed up year for me . It's so horrible and if I could , I would go back in time and change everything . I did many things that I'm currently regretting . I'm not going to get over these mistakes so easily . Like duh , that wouldn't be me .

I'm regretting stuff , yeah . Cool . Nothing I can do about it . Reminisce the past and cry over it then . It'll be a secret between you and me . I know that why things ended up this way is my fault . Why else would I be regretting ? Ohwell . I'll just go emo on twitter .

Put that a side : TEEN TOP'S COMEBACK .

OHMYGOD!? LJOE IS THE MAIN LEAD . OHMYHEARTCANNOT . YOU KNOW HOW CUTE THAT BOY IS ? AND HOW HE IS CARRYING THAT BULKY BAG WHILE RUNNING AFTER THE BUS AND THEN CRYING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD IS SO DARN CUTE?! I LOVE THE START OF THE MV , IT'S HILARIOUS . TEEN TOP TROLLING ON LJOE WHEN HE GOT REJECTED . LOLOLOLOL . WHAT EVEN . MINSOO IS SO DARN SEXY , I'M GONNA DIE .

LJOE'S SMIRK . OHMYGOSSSSSSSSSSSSSH . I DIED EVERYTIME I REPLAY THE MV . CHANGJO IS ONE HELL OF A SEXY BEAST . SO FIERCE , SO RAWR . OHMYGOD . HNNNNG RICKY . OHMYGOD!? RICKY IS SO MATURE , SO EFFING SEXY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO . I LOVE THEIR BODYWAVE MOVE AND AND .... I LOVE EVERYTHING . LMAO NIEL IS OHMYFUCK HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG HIS HAIR COVER HIS FACE DURING 'GIRLFRIEND' PERFORMANCE ON MNET . OHMYOVARIES CHUNJI IS JUST FUCK . PLAIN SEX .

LJOE IS PERFECTION . SHORT BOY PLAYING JUBEAT . OVFOISDJAGOUNUOFSO SO CUTE OKAY!? THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE OF HIS . OHMYOVARIES . I CRIED AT THE ENDING . LMAO SOHYUN BACKHUGGED HIM AND LJOE KISSED HER FOREHEAD . YOU HOE , WAE YOU CHEAT ON ME ! LMAO I'M SO EFFING JEALOUS OS SOHYUN . PFFFT . SOHYUN AND LJOE LIKE ALMOST SAME HEIGHT . PAISEH ONLY . OTL

BECAUSE OF TEEN TOP'S COMEBACK : I got tweetjailed .

After spazzing over Teen Top , I WENT TO READ YUNJAE . HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG. YUNHO IS SO SEXY I WANT TO DIE . WHAT IS LIFE , SERIOUSLY . OHMYGOD . THEN JAEJOONG TWEETED . GDI , HE IS SO EFFING ADORABLE MY HEART CANNOT . OHMYGOD . WHAT EVEN . HOW CAN THEY BE SO PERFECT ?! JAEJOONG'S TWEETS IS SO ADORABLE , IT MAKES ME WANNA SQUISH HIM AND KEEP HIM IN MY POCKET FOREVER .

YUNJAE FANFICS , SO LITTLE CHIBI!YUNJAE OMG . YOU MAD PEOPLE !? CHIBI!YUNJAE IS THE CUTEST THING EVER . OHMYGOD . THEN WENT TUMBLR , SAW A FEW THINGS AND LOL-ED SO HARD . HUILIN WENT TO SLEEP ALREADY . RAINE SEEMS TO BE PMS-ING ? NOBODY SPAZZ WITH ME , LONELY OKAY ! YUNHO IS SEXGOD . YOOCHUN IS SO EFFING CUTE I WANNA DIE . OHMYCHUNTROLL . HIS CHUNFACE . WHAT EVEN . HE AND HIS BROTHER ARE SO CUTE .

YOOCHUN TROLLING ON YOOHWAN ON ... SBS DRAMA AWARDS , I THINK ? SO EFFING ADORABLE . AND YOOHWAN'S FACE WHEN CHUNNIE SAY HE IS GOING TO SLEEP WHILE HUGGING YOOHWAN . OTL I LOVE THE PARK BROTHER SO FUCKING MUCH . JUNSU IS SO CUTE . LOL I HAVEN'T BEEN SEEING MUCH SU STUFF ON MY TIMELINE AND DASHBOARD . SAD . CHANGMIN IS STILL AS WITTY AS EVER . FOREVER THE VOLDEMIN WE KNOW ! HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LOVE THIS EVIL MAKNAE ! WAITING FOR THE SELLER TO REPLY MY MESSAGE . MY JYJ CARDCOLLECTIONS AND MY TEEN TOP 'IT'S' 2ND MINI ALBUM . JYJ STILL COMES FIRST . I WANT TO BUY COME ON OVER . BUT SO EXPENSIVE .

School is stressful and it makes me even more depress . Could I be suffering depression ? Ohno...

Bye !

Balloons

2012-01-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

It's 2012 now! Now that 2011 is finally over, lets all focus on this new year!

I wish all my friends, family and everybody else a lovely 2012. May this new year be fulfilling and nice to all of us.

In this new year, I hope to learn more stuff, meet more people and become a better person like my 동방신기 오빠. Hopefully in 2012, they'll comeback as 5! No more heartaches and tears of sorrow.

Have a lovely 2012!

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#8yearswithtvxq

2011-12-26T02:09:00.001+08:00

Hello people!

It's 26th December 2011, Christmas is officially over. Besides that, the main point is that it's TVXQ'S 8TH ANNIVERSARY. So here is my letter to them and Cassiopeia.

My dearest TVXQ,

8 precious years have passed since your debut. Throughout these 8years, many memories were made. Many tears were shred. Many hearts got broken. Many of us still holding onto the faith.

Cassiopeia might not be the same like last time. Ever since 2009, we face difficulties. Life suddenly became so hard, reality slapped us. But we didn't give up, not even once. Because of the conflict, many of us got torn apart and chose sides. But only because I'm Cassiopeia, I love both.

Through the 8years, life has been though. You must be feeling tired recently. By seeing pictures and watching videos, many might not have notice but we, Cassiopeia, did. The tears behind those smiles, the sorrow behind those laughters, the.fragile you behind that strong front. It's okay to break down and cry, it's okay to ask for help. Cassiopeia will never leave you.

I might have been part of Cassiopeia. But it felt like forever. Cassiopeia feels like home, a place where I belong. TVXQ are my rolemodels. I admire you from afar and love you with all my heart. Because of you, I've learnt to never give up. We came this far and we'll not going to let anything separate us.

'Cassiopeia is TVXQ' - Shim Changmin (via twitter)

TVXQ is Cassiopeia. We're a family, a family that I love so much. Your smiles are so beautiful, your voices are like angels, you yourself is a gift from god. Because of TVXQ, there is the me from today.

26th December 2003, when Cassiopeia and TVXQ met for the first time. It was the start of a beautiful yet rough lovestory. The love Cassiopeia have for TVXQ is so beautiful, so pure. We still stand tall as people try to tear us apart. But because TVXQ and Cassiopeia are glued together, because this is where we belong, we'll find our way back.

'Cassiopeia exist because they love all five members, not indiviual.' -Changmin (via twitter)

'We are still members of TVXQ.' - JaeJoong (via twitter)

#8yearswithtvxq. Today belongs to Kim JaeJoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu and Shim Changmin. Because only when they're five, they are then the correct.,complete TVXQ.

I love you. Whether you're on-stage or off-stage. Because of you, I'll never give up.

'As you do so, our faith will become stronger.' -JaeJoong (via twitter)

Always Keep The Faith. I believe in TVXQ, so for once, believe in us too.

I love you.

______________________________________

That's the end for it. Blogging through phone is hard. Hope to post the long, full version of my letter soon.

Christmas is not fun. Seems like JaeJoong spent it alone.

Have a lovely day!

Byebye! #8yearswithtvxq

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Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T12:23:00.001+08:00

It's 25th December, marking it Christmas! Hello stalkers!

Attended midnight chruch for Christmas. It was.. Alright, i guess.

Anyway, since it's Christmas, do take some time to reflect what you have been doing in 2011. Think of ways to improve and change bad habits!

Though I have no Christmas spirit right now, I hope all of you have a lovely Christmas! Save me cookies! <--- Its a joke. ㅋㅋ

Tomorrow is TVXQ's 8th Anniversary. Happy Anniversary eve, Cassiopeia & TVXQ!

Okay. Bye.

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RETURN OF THE KINGS

2011-12-05T21:27:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.

CASSIOPEIA MODE KICKED IN BADLY. I CAN'T BELIEVE I SAW YUNHO AND CHANGMIN YESTERDAY. LIKE SERIOUSLY, OHGOSH. IT FELT LIKE A DREAM. I WAS PART OF THE BEAUTIFUL RED OCEAN. OHMYGOSH.

3rd December 2011 :

Went to the airport with Raine and Marianni. Was there since 9AM, tiring. Really. Had breakfast at Macdonalds and then at 10.30-10.45, went to find a place to sit. At 2.15-ish, THEY CAME OUT LOOKING FLAWLESS. LIKE OHMYGOSH. Though I won't saw they are very tall to me but THEY WERE FLAWLESS. THEY WERE LIKE GLOWING. SERIOUSLY. Both of them waved and then left the airport in a black mercs.

4th December 2011:

Went to sleep at like 1am and woke up at 3.30am. Met Raine at 4am and then left for the stadium. Met Lauren and joined Pen A queue. Wasn't official but it became official later. Was upset about the queueing system since some people cut into our queue. But whatever, since Im in the first 30 people in the queue. Did I mention that when they arrive at the stadium, i was walking back to my queue from the toilet and happened to see their car. I admit, I didn't know it was them. Silly thing happened, I tripped RIGHT BESIDE OF THEIR CAR. Fail max.

Went in at about 7 and the event started. They played Before U Go MV and like... WHY? ME NO SHIP YUNRA. First performance was I think How Can I if im not wrong. Nearly cried but didn't since the guards clockblock me. Seriously?! Changmin's singlish is ADORKABLE. He was 'No problem lah!' and say that the 'Chilli crab was siok!' . He also say 'Alamak, so many fans' ADORABLE. SERIOUSLY. Yunho is just OHMYGOSH. HE CROSSED HIS LEGS. HEHEHE. They showed us fanvids and I cried. Raine cried, too. Surprise, surprise. They performed 3 old songs from OT5 period. Mirotic's fanchant was great, 대 TO THE 박! They performed Before U Go, I DIED. THE WAY THEY DO THE SLOW MOTION TOUCHING/RUBBING THEMSELVES. OHMYFUCKINGOVARIES. Halfway through the event, i felt cold. Raine was beside me and I told her and held her hand since she was so effing warm. According to her, she happened to look up and saw Yunho looking at us and smiling slightly. I HOPE HE DOESN'T THINK OF HER AS LESBIANS. Raine was saying how maybe he was thinking of JaeJoong and I agreed. The event ended at 9pm. It felt so short. THEY WERE SO FLAWLESS, I CRIED. I bought their merchandise as a Christmas present FROM ME TO ME. I hope they'll come back next second half of the year.

5th December 2011:

Nothing happened. I went to the airport but they went through CIP. I nearly cried, okay!

That's pretty much all i can remember. Ciao for now.

I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT. THERE WAS SO MANY YUNJAE AND OT5 BOARDS. AWESOMENESS OKAY. OHGOSH. YUNHO'S SMILE IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. CHANGMIN IS A DORK. I SWEAR. OHMYGOD. WITHDRAWAL IS HEAVY NOW.

Bye!

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Supa Luv ~

2011-11-28T10:22:00.001+08:00

HI TO PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY READS MY BLOG!

24-26November are like... The best days of my fangirl life so far. SERIOUSLY. OHMYGODSUN. FANACCOUNT! SHORT ONE. I THINK. LOL.

24November - Arrival

Stayed over at Joy's house. Went to the airport. That stupid chicken didnt give me fanservice. At least maknae did! Was being stupid at ts airport with Sebrina. She was pedoing over small kids and I was like wriggling around. And... Teen Top saw us. Okay.. Fail. OTL. Ricky made a heartshape.

25November- Sundown Fanmeet

Didn't manage to get autograph passes. Sad. Damn effing sad. But its okay. Vivid was awesome. Really. I love how they are so friendly and casual. All of them highfived me! Shin scared me though, suddenly grab my hand, shake and smilesmile. Like... Woaaaaah.... Zhang YunJing is pretty, very pretty. Teentop came last. LJOE... OMFG. SO FLAWLESS, I DIDNT KNOW TO DO. OMFG. SO FLAWLESS, YOU KNOW. Teentop actually arent very tall... BUT STILL.. SO FLAWLESS. They all walk so fast... I cried after they left. Stupid chicken made me panic attack so badly.

26November- Sundown Festival

Damn tiring. Went to queue, they weather is like.... It was being a complete bitch. It was so effing hot and it was raining! Basically it was SUN-RAIN-SUN-RAIN-SUN-RAIN-SUN-HEAVY RAIN-SUN- RAIN-SUN-HEAVY RAIN-RAIN-SUN. I got darker. Like a lot a lot more darker. My 6TOT shirt was wet from the rain, so I changed it! To a domo shirt that Sebrina help me buy. Raine have one,too. ViVid performed first. I was... Crazy. Plain crazy. Jumping and grabbing Raine while spazzing and screaming. Vivid is just WOAH. SO SEXY. TOO SEXY. I sweat like wodkwpsklskdowmx. Second to perform was Zhang Yun Jing. Was just commenting about how she is more seme then Raine and how she is so pretty. THEN, TEEN FUCKING TOP PERFORMED. LIKE YES. OHMYGODSUN. YES. FIRST WAS SUPA LUV. SCREAMING AND GOING CRAZY. LJOE IS SO FLAWLESS. OHMYGODSUN. THEN THEY PERFORM BRUSHING. OWNDPWOXKWOMDX LJOE IS FLAWLESS. THIRD SONG WAS ANGEL. I DONT KNOW WHICH SONG BUT LJOE SAW MY BOARD AND MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME. I LOOK SO CUI. OTL. HE SAW MY BOARD. ACCORDING GO RAINE, HE SAW MY BOARD. READ MY BOARD AND SMILED. HE FUCKING SMILED AT MY BOARD. OHMYGODSUN. I BET HE SAW THE CHICKEN KEYCHAIN. LOL. HE KEEP LOOKING AT MY DIRECTION. OHMYGODSUN. DYING. OTL OTL. SEBRINA APPARENTLY HAS A PHOTO OF HIM LOOKING AT MY DIRECTION. OTL. Some people behind keep hitting me with their lightstick. BISH, ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU ARE ALL SO STUPIDLY SHORT, OKAY? L O L. JUDGING FOR LIFE. LAST SONG WAS NO MORE PERFUME ON YOU. RAINE WENT CRAZY. NOT MY FAULT, EVEN THOUGH SHE CLAIMS THAT IT IS... ENCORE SONG WAS CLAP. THE TEEN TOP BAKSU PART WAS DAE TO THE BAK. D A E B A K. BUT WHY NOBODY SAY BAKSU BAKSU?! THATS LIKE THE HOTTEST PART. THEY ENDED THEIR PERFORMANCE. I was doing stupid stuff for the rest... I have no idea why. ENDING, THEY ALL CAME OUT. INCLUDING TEEN TOP. SOME ASSES BLOCKED LJOE FROM MY VIEW. HE WAS TRYING TO LOOK AT MY BOARD. GOSH. I SWEAR. HE WAS TRYING TO LOOK AT MY BOARD. YAH. LJOE OPPA, REMEMBER MY BOARD KAY. NEXT TIME EVENT COME AGAIN, I WILL USE IT.

NEXT WEEK! YAY! 4DECEMBER. TVXQ!FANPARTY. Cannot wait to meet my Cassie Family ~ Cant wait to see Yunho and Changmin! Yunho gained weight,OTL. SO CUTE CAN. Not very obvious though. Heheheh. Shall go make my fanboard soon ^^ if possible, ask them sign. JIA YOU!

Byebye!

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사랑해 ~

2011-11-23T01:51:00.001+08:00

Hi stalkers!

Its 23rd November which marks my husband birthday! Lee Byunghun of Teentop turns 19today. 18internationally. Happy Birthday, babyboy!

Anyway, I want to cry so badly but i have got no tears. Seriously. Ohgod. I don't even know why I want to cry, its not like anything bad happened. Other than the news of JaeJoong might be enlisting...

I'm looking at the bright side! He goes to army, he'll come back as a better and more mature person. I believe he will overcome everything. Afterall, he isn't Kim Youngwoong JaeJoong for nothing. Even though I'm gonna miss him like crazy. Really, really crazy. Imagine 2 years without seeing him performing live. 2years without having him producing a new single or album. Ah, life is sad. I'll miss JaeJoong a lot if he really is going. Heard a rumor that Yunho will be enlisting also but at the end of the year. Rumors, they're all rumors right now.

Yoochun might not have to serve the army. Something about grade7. Another 2 more tests before knowing whether he needs to go. Can't DB5K just enlist together, come out together, comeback stage together? Gosh. Most likely feeling down because of this.

3more days to Sundown! Teentop's arrival is tomorrow 23:59, but they'll most likely come out at 12.30AM. Staying over at Joy's house with Sebrina for a heart to heart talk! We're all having boys problem. Excluding me.

My LEDboard hasn't arrived yet. Aaaahhh,i feel so nervous.

TVXQ!Fanparty in a week! Have to post the message on the fanpage soon. I want to see Yunho so badly.

Its 1.49AM, goodnight!

Or good morning.. ! Bye!

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The Boy's Letter

2011-11-21T14:35:00.001+08:00

Hello stalkers.

SUNDOWN IN ANOTHER 5DAYS. SEEING TEENTOP IN 4DAYS. BUT MY LEDBOARD NOT HERE YET. FMLFML. OHMYGOD. HOW. OMFG. Staying over at Joy's house after Teentop arrival. Meeting Sebrina & Joy soon!

1 week after Sundown is Fanparty. omfg. IM GONNA DIE. I CANT WAIT. OMFG. GONNA SEE YUNHO AND CHANGMIN. OHMYGOSH. OWDLWPNCKWOIDKKWMDLXLOWKE CANT WAIT. TEEHEE! Then there is this contest for meet and greet. I dont know what to do! ): ottokae!

I like gays. As in Yunjae. THEY ARE REAL, YOU CANNOT DENY IT. Shippers have sharp eyes and great minds. Bleh.

Okay, byebye

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I'll protect you

2011-11-14T00:25:00.001+08:00

HI STALKERS. I don't know why you still read my blog, its so dead! I'm here to rant about fake OT5 cassies & stans. Here to rant out everything I'm feeling depress about. If you're not a Cassiopeia, you'll find it hard to understand. Go talk to a Cassie before reading.

Firstly, fake ot5 Cassies. WHY YOU CALL YOURSELF CASSIOPEIA? Don't claim yourself as a OT5Cassie when you think JYJ as no rights to use Cassiopeia as their fanclub name. JYJ is part of TVXQ. EVERYONE KNOWS THAT. JAEJOONG SAY IT HIMSELF. AND BITCH, DON'T YOU DARE GO AGAINST HIS WORDS. From what I read, Changmin thought of the name because it has 5 stars. 5 STARS, OKAY. What are you fags trying to do to the beautiful red ocean that exist for them? Please get the fuck out of the fandom. Simply saying that you want them back as 5 but doing the total opposite, you're crazy. CASSIOPEIA EXIST FOR ALL 5 MEMBERS. NOT 2, NOT 3. If you're a stan, stfu.

Second, Stans. So many stans bashing on JYJ/Homin. You people are so lowlife. I believe that DB5K WILL BE BACK. AND WHEN THEY DO, I'LL FUCKING SHOVE INTO YOUR FACE. If you are a Homin stan, DO NOT BE SO THICKSKIN AND CALL YOURSELF A CASSIOPEIA. Stans, you have no idea how much Cassiopeias have to go through to keep the faith. And by bashing on Homin/JYJ, you're just making life even harder. JYJ stans should know how depress JaeJoong is. JUST LOOK AT HIM, HE IS COMPLETELY BROKEN. I wonder how he feels knowing that JYJ stans are bashing on his other half, his brothers. Homin stans can go ahead and deny that Yunho looks so... Currently do not have the right word. Yunho is the leader for DB5K, all 5 and not just Changmin alone. Remember the first Balloon performance after the lawsuit started? YOU BETTER REMEMBER. SEE THOSE EYES? THEY AREN'T SHINING LIKE LAST TIME. How will he feel knowing that you bash on JYJ? You fags think about yourselves, who thinks for them? Those any of you think about their feelings when you bash? You wanna be a stan, go ahead. LEAVE THE BOYS & MY FANDOM ALONE. SUPPORT THEM AND STFU. NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR YOUR COMPLAINTS.

Third, DB5K. FUCKYOU. OMFG. CAN I KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO YOUR HEAD OR SOMETHING? YOU LOVE EACH OTHER, YOU KNOW IT, WE KNOW IT. STOP FORCING A STRONG FRONT WHEN YOU'RE DYING INSIDE. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TELL CASSIOPEIA HOW YOU FEEL & WHAT YOU WANT. WE ARE A FAMILY AFTERALL, RIGHT? WE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. ALL 800,000+++ OF US. JUNG YUNHO, JUST CRY ALREADY. IT'S FUCKING KILLING ME TO SEE YOU SO FUCKEDUP. SHIM CHANGMIN, YOU'RE A REALLY STRONG PERSON. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT. PLEASE, JUST TELL US. YUNHO & CHANGMIN, STOP BEING IMMUNE TO OT5 CASSIES. IT MAKES US FEEL AS IF IT'S REALLY OVER WHEN NOTHING STARTED. KIM JAEJOONG, CHEER UP. I KNOW YOU LOVE YUNHO&CHANGMIN. WE ALL KNOW. YUNHO IS YOUR OTHERHALF, AFTERALL. IT KILLS TO SEE YOU SO.. BROKEN. PARK YOOCHUN, you seem crazy as usual... I REALLY WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR TEARS. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOBS. I JUST HAVE THIS STRONG FEELING ABOUT YOU CRYING TO SLEEP EVERYNIGHT. KIM JUNSU. OMFG. YOU'RE NOT THE SAME ANYMORE. I MISS HEARING THAT CHEERFUL DORKY EUNKYANGKYANG LAUGHTER. I MISS SEEING THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE. I JUST HOPE THAT ALL OF YOU WILL STOP ACTING AND SHOW YOURSELF NOW. QUIT LYING TO YOURSELF. IF IT'S THE COMPANY BEING A BITCH (Yes,SM is a bitch) QUIT. I HOPE YUNHO & CHANGMIN WILL GET THEIR ASS OUT OF THERE. I BELIEVE IN 5 AND I WILL DO WHATEVER I CAN TO BRING OUT THOSE SMILES THAT I MISS. DB5K TAUGHT ME TO BE HUMBLE, TAUGHT ME FRIENDSHIP, HARDSHIP & EVERYTHING ELSE. NO OTHER GROUP CAN DO ACCAPELLA AS PERFECT AS YOU. YOU'RE EVERYTHING I BELIEVE IN.

Fourth, I've been crying a lot these days and it's all because of DB5K. I miss DB5K so much, you have no idea. Cassiopeia is my very first fandom. I have no intention of leaving it. I really want to have this heart-to-heart conversation with Yunho & Changmin. Seeing them smile now, it's almost convincing enough to make me believe that they are happy. Bish, I couldn't listen to Balloons without tearing up. I hate how SMent is a such a bitch. I will not support SM, only Yunho&Changmin.

I've been lying to myself, trying to convince myself that nothing is wrong. What a lie. I can rant on and on but nevermind.

Always Keep The Faith, Cassiopeias!

Stans, fuck off.

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Beautiful Boy , Baby ~ ♥

2011-08-26T17:31:00.002+08:00

Stalked B1A4 on 7thAugust & 8thAugust . Tiring max . HEHEHEH , BUT WORTH IT . CAUSE CNU GAVE ME HELL LOT OF FANSERIVCE , IN YOUR FACE . MEH .

Anyway , ABOUT TEEN TOP ♥

NOVEMBER 26 , WAITING OH-SO-NOT-PATIENTLY . TEEN TOP IS COMING , FUCKYESH . Joined stalking van already , with Sebrina , Amelia & Meiling . That van ! THAT VAN ♥ Awesome fangirls with a hardcore ljjang . Kekeke .

Stay away cause I'm obsessed with LJoe . Can't be helped .Pre-ordered my Roman Album . Just waiting for it to arrive . Keke , excited . CAUSE TEEN TOP IS LIKE .. HOT STUFF ♥ ♥ LJOE IS PERFECTION . OHMYGOD .

Have to go work already . Need to make LED board for LJoe , fangifts , polariod , if possible DSLR , stalking money & more . Aigoo , Teen Top .. WHY YOU CANNOT COME FOR OWN EVENT ? LIKE SHOWCASE OR SOMETHING . PFFT . Don't come for Korean Pop Night 2011 , please . I WILL BE BROKE LIKE HOSAUFSJADG .

Gonna move on from suckers in my life and devote COMPLETELY to LJoe . ♥ Okay , maybe maybe 90% is Ljoe , 10% TVXQ . TVXQ is important too .

Can't wait to see LJoe , confirm will cry like maaaadddd . Sundown announced that Teen Top confirm coming , immediately : Scream & cry . Epic-much .

Korean Music Wave , Haven't hardcore until like today .. Already cried . Sundown : TEENTOP = CRYING , SHAKING , SCREAMING . My life ♥

Okay ,

bye .

There's a angel in my heart ♥

2011-07-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

HI GHEYS ! I'M FREAKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW :3

15th July 2011 , KOREAN MUSIC WAVE
FUCK YES . OHMYGODSUN . I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT DAY . OHMYFUCKINGODSUN . I SAW LJOE LIVE . OHHHHHHHMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYFUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKINGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOD . TAT I CRIED . That stupid boy didn't give me any fanservice ! HOW COULD HE NOT ! Maybe I didn't scream loud enough , WHY DIDN'T I TAKE MY FANBOARD OUT . WHY . TAT REGRETTED SO MUCH THINGS . I WANT HIS ATTENTION . WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY . I lead a sad life , okay !

But other than LJOE NOT GIVING ME FANSERVICE , CAP & Changjo did ! THEY SAW ME . FUCK YES , THEY SAW ME . GIUSAGAODJGOJFDSO YES , THEY SAW ME . THEY NOTICE ME . CAP GAVE ME FANSERVICE . HIS FACE SO FUCKING PURE AND INNOCENT . HOLYFUCK . NGKUHFASOUJGOADF OHMYYYGODSUN . TAT OHHMYFUCK , CAP AND ME HAD A ABOUT FEW SECONDS EYE CONTACT . HE LOOKED AWAY . OHHHMYYYYYYYYYGODSUN . WHY , YOU DUMBBOY ! WHY YOU LOOK AWAY TAT

CHANGJO LOOKED AT ME ALSO . FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK . IUGHDUOAFO OTL , OTL . WAS LIKE WAVING THE FANSTICK LIKE MAD INFRONT OF THEM . IS LIKE 'FUCKFUCKFUCK . ANDROMEDA HERE ! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK .' GOSUFGNOSJGOIJ SCREAMING LIKE MAD . SO HIGH PITCH , I CAN'T BELIEVE MYSELF . OTL .

THEY SANG ANGEL AND I NEARLY CRIED . GOUFIJGASOJGOA MY FANCAM IS LIKE LJOE LJOE LJOE . BABY,ILOVEYOU . HOLYFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK ,YOU NO GIMME FANSERVICE TAT

Good thing I didn't stalk . TEENTOP LEAVE TO THE AIRPORT WHEN BIGBANG WAS PERFORMING . WHATTHEFUCK . THEY GAVE A LOT OF FANSERVICE SOMEMORE . FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK . MY LIFE MAN . WHYWHYWHY . YOU BOYS BETTER COME BACK SOON . MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH .

I CRIED LIKE 4 TIMES BECAUSE OF THEM . TAT I'M GONNA CRY AGAIN . CANNOT SEE FANCAMS OR WHATTSOEVER . I MISS THEM LIKE CRAZY . DIDN'T EVEN GET TO SEE LJOE IN THOSE ADORABLE GEEK SPECS . FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK TAT . I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE CAMP OUTSIDE THE HOTEL WHEN THEY ARRIVE . FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK . REGRETTED SO MUCH . UGH

TEENTOP COME BACKSOON TAT

16th July ,

IT'SMYBIRTHDAY ! Yay , and it's patheticly boring . :3
The end .

IUHIGUOSDFAIO BYE .

Don't Stop Believing

2011-07-04T15:41:00.003+08:00

HI , FAGGOTS !

I'm sleepy . Fuck this , pff . Saturday went to stalk BEAST . Reached home like .. 2AM . JUNHYUNG'S FANSERVICE , DOOJOON'S EYE CONTACT . OTLOTL , FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK . Junhyung smiled and waved so adorably . Ohmyfuck . DooJoon's eyecontact , even if it's just a short while . Still , HOLYFUCK . OHMYGODSUN . HE HAVE SUCH PRETTY EYES ! OHMYYYFUCK .

Sunday , epic . Sleep the whole day . Wake up at night , watched Slumdog Millionaire cause IT'S HOMEWORK . FUCK YOU , MRBEN . YOU STUPID BLACK . Watched half of it , i think . Ending is hilarious shit . So dumb .

Today , was suppose to go Vivo to buy books . Same thing meet that stupid carrot , but .. I'm lazy . So decided not to go . OTL ! Such a pig . Day haven't end yet . I HAVE HOME ECONS THIS TUESDAY . FHOSHNFAOI FUUUUCK . Cooking ~ Cooking ~ SUPERJUNIOR-H ! I think . LOLOL ! Got Shindong inside one .

I'm bored . Needs to go find container . LALALA ~ Went to IMM with Manballs , LB , Zhiyu , Daniel and that stupid carrot . WENT DAISO . OHMYGOD , THEY SELL THOSE CUTE PLASTICS FOR COOKIES THINGS ONE . YOU KNOW , YOU KNOW ?!

Saw Yoseob & Dongwoon . /nods/ Didn't see Hyunseung and Gikwang though . IT'S OKAY , MY BOTH BIAS GIMME FANSERVICE . I'M SO HAPPPYYY . lmao . Okay , NEXT !

BOUGHFDOSUAGJOJ 11 MORE DAYS TO KOREANMUSICWAVE . OHHHMYYGODSUN . CAN'T WAIT . FNSUAHFOUHGOHDSIUAGHIUHEROA NO FANBOARDS , NOTHING ! JUST 1 LIGHTSTICK . TEENTOP ONE , SOMEMORE ! I WANN A LEDBOARD . Should have make one . Damnnit . LJOE-AH .

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE LJOE . OHMYFUCKINGGODSUN . SO EXCITED . HFOSHDOA LJOE ! YAYYY . Is gonna have hell lot of fancams . TEEHEE . Hopefully my camera won't die on me again uh . I SHALL GO BUY A NEW MEMORY CARD . IDC . MUST BUY BEFORE KMW ! Probably gonna spam fancams of LJoe like mad .

I WANT A DSLR . FHOISHADO MAMA , BUY ONE FOR ME . Wannts HD LJoe pictures . WEEEEEEEEEH , SUPA LUV ~ HUOSHDAOGIJOGHOSAH LJOE . SO HOT . OTLOTL , SO FUCKING HOT . I'm mad .

Gonna end here , bye .

Queen of the Damned

2011-06-27T18:20:00.002+08:00

:P Gays . HI ! HEHEEHEHEHEHE

Watched Queen of the Damned after so many years . SO MANY YEARS , I TELL YOU . Lastat is hot . :3 HOT VAMPIRE . *O* Edward is a sparkle fairy . So gay . The Queen so creepy but so skinny . Tsk , crazy . She set people on fire and just watch them burned . Horrible .

The soundtracks is nice though . :3 Like 'Changed' , 'Not Meant To Me' , 'Slept so long' , 'Forsaken' & 'System' . I like them all . DID I MENTION HOW HOT LASTAT IS ? Shall go buy the book . Published even before I was born . Epic .

Does not like it when people say I'm emo . Pff , obviously they're jealous that they aren't as happy as me . Losers , get a life ! I'M NOT EMO !

First day of school sucks . To the fucking max . I got punished for not bring worksheet which I didn't know existed one month ago . And got yelled at for saying 'Lime water is used to test for carbon dioxide . IT'S ACID .' CORRECT WHAT ! Stupid mole bitch . Should just die .

History lesson was .. weird . Had an epic conversation with Elaine about slimming & Swimming . Talking quite loudly , bet the teacher infront of us heard us . LOL !

RECESS IS HILARIOUS . Was talking to Aida about something secret . Then this secondary 1 boy who was sitting beside us , kept turning to us and give us small smiles . HE HEARD US ! GODDAMN . We left the table and he yelled 'GOOD LUCK' . Okay , so I screamed and ran away . :x Remembered that he is from Class 111 , I called him chubby cheeks . :x

Slept through after of Mother Lesson . :3 I know I'm awesome .

Dentist appointment tomorrow . Wednesday meeting Sebrina for movie . Thursday , I'm free . Friday , I'm free . Saturday , depends . Might be stalking BEAST if the van charge is cheap . :x With Sebrina ! Sunday , I'm free . Oh , wait . Might be going snowcity with Sebrina soon also . LOL !

Airport also . CAN MEET MY CLONEY ! Wants to know BEAST arrival . Shall go check later . KoreanMusicWave , aigoo . Shall continue to plan with Sebrina . Most probably not stalking . Cause I'm lazy . Depends ~

Okay , bye .

LASTAT IS HOT ! XD

Tied together with a smile

2011-06-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hello , faggots . It's about 12:40KST right now . Aida went to bed already , damn girl ! Why do you sleep so early ?

School is starting in a few days time and I have seriously a lot of things to do . Oh , wow . Needs a new school bag , my old one is tearing apart . My mom agrees to it . I miss school , at least it manages to somewhat push away stress about other shit from my brain for awhile .

Seriously feel that I'm being a stupid depressed kid , scratch that . I am a stupid depressed kid . Screw all this . SCREW THIS !

Don't know why everything have to go by your decisions , I'm not happy with that . Obviously . So many things about you that I disliked , but still , I kept it in and just obey every shit . What a sad life .

Envy is stupid , the person you're envy of have to go through so much and you just don't know it . You know how much it pisses me off when someone says that I'm rich in front of me ? I seriously feel like slapping them . Me ? Rich ? Oh , please . You don't even know the story behind everything you see .

Seriously being damn emo right now , wants to cry so badly . I'm gonna cry myself to sleep , man . Fuck this shit .

I miss my Cassiopeia fandom so badly , so much things in life I want and miss . But , nevermind . Screw all this shit .

Bye .

If I have a lover

2011-06-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

Blogging again ~ :3 Hi .

Got Joshua to call me tomorrow morning at 7AM ! Yey , awesome . He going lan with Nigel & LB . 8AM-8PM , crazy boy . Anyway , he told me about his dream and I laughed like mad . He said he dream that he is the police inside the Channel 8 , 9PM drama . I laughed like mad when he say he killed 3 criminals that he wasn't suppose to . FAIL POLICE FOR LIFE .

Is feeling horribly sad today , don't know why . Okay , so , Reer Media is being a bitch . Showcase $118 , FanMeet&Greeet $68 . I think . The 'package' isn't really good also . I can buy the ticket tomorrow , I think I do have enough . Then , what about KoreanMusicWave ? Life without money sucks . Oh , deargod .

Going to EastCoastPark tomorrow , meeting GayPear & Lemon at 8.30AM at Jurong East . I'm lazy , so lazy . I have homework to do . Goddamn , my life ..

Listening to G.NA's If I have a lover . Such a nice song ~ Darn , if I had a lover , I WOULD WANT TO DO ALL THAT ALSO . But , too bad . I don't .

My primary school friend wanted to hook me up with her friend , seriously , she is so cute ! But rejected the offer , I need time to study not boyfriend . Not that I mind having one .. as long as my studies doesn't get infected and that can help me with studies . HELL , I DON'T MIND . Okay , so anyway ~

I'm going to sleep soon .

I MISS TV5XQ A LOT . Read a Sleeping Beauty TVXQ version fanfic just now . It's hilarious , serious . Can't believe that the author could think of something like that ! GOD , I LOVE YOU !

Found my source to LJoe's photo . /evillaughs/ He is such a cute hottie <3 HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HIM ! So , yea .. He said he doesn't want anyone to cheat on TeenTop . OH , COME ON . BABY , HOW CAN I CHEAT ON YOU . SERIOUSLY ? I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH .

Sebrina wants to stalk BEAST , am thinking about it .

Okay , I'll end here .

이병훈 , 사랑해 ♥

California King Bed

2011-06-21T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hi , blogwalkers .

It's about 3AMKST and I'm still awake . Okay , so ... I've been thinking about someone . I'm not in love , at least , I don't think so . Well , I guess I might like that person just this tiny tiny bit . Okay , whatever . I don't know .

Was on Tokyohive just now and found out that Ouran High School Host Club is gonna be filmed into a drama . Oh god , I'm so happy right now . Dream come true , I tell you ! And then You're Beautiful will be having a Japan Version with Yuta & Hikaru in it . OHMYGODSUN , I nearly screamed .

Hikaru is blonde , GODDAMN BLONDE . He is my Hey!Say!JUMP bias . IT'S ABOUT TIME TO BE BLONDE , HONEY !

Anyway , I'm patiently waiting for TeenTop's comeback . Scratch that , I'm dying for their comeback . They'll be in Singapore in 23 DAYS . HOLYSHYT , YES . I'm gonna see them ~ Well , OBVIOUSLY I WILL ! I mean , COME ON ! IT'S LJOE HERE , WE'RE TALKING ABOUT . OF COURSE , I WOULD GO AND SEE MY DEAREST HUSBAND ! Has not find a stalking van yet , aish . Oh , whatever . I'll just camp outside their hotel . Or probably save up a hell load of money for cabs .

We'll see about that later .

Needs to raise money for B1A4's event also . I'M GOING FOR SURE , WITH SEBRINA . I want to see CNU ~ Okay , time for me to do a massive save . Sebrina will confirm drag me go stalk B1A4 with her and I'll confirm said Ok ! This year , my money really fly . Ohhmygodsun .

Does not like to see people bashing on my poor JaeJoong Eomma . Bitches , TVXQ5 is under so much pressure , they mean so much to each other . And just because JaeJoong tweets about losing Cassiopeias , you bash on him ? Get a life , seriously . My Red Ocean Fandom is slowly breaking apart . And it fucking hurts , okay ? JaeJoong is sick right now , Yunho injured his leg . That's not nice at all . As a Cassiopeia , why can't all of you just shut the fuck up and just support them as TV2XQ and JYJ ? Support them and continue to Keep The Faith for them to be back as 5 .

There are tons and tons of Cassies out there that can't fucking accept the fact that they are currently not together . But they didn't disband , just think of them as having a big fight . Both parties are too hard-headed to give in . Call me delusional but that's how I think of it . I believe that they'll be back as 5 and all they need right now , all 5 , is love and support from the Red Ocean .

SO EVERYONE , SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SUPPORT THEM . I'll fucking skin you alive if you ever bash on them . They are not overrated , they work so much harder than others to reach the top . You want to know who is overrate ? BEAST , yea . YOU FUCKING HEARD ME . NOW , IF YOU HAVE ANY HATE COMMENTS , KEEP IT TO YOURSELF . I'M NOT INTERESTED TO KNOW .

Cassiopeias , once again . I'm disappointed . Buck up and become that one Red Ocean I deeply love .

I'm gonna sleep now , Nights .

Picture of You

2011-06-15T02:03:00.002+08:00

Okay , so apparently blogger isn't really save . Feels like making this private . Otl , such a small creepy world isn't it ?

Anyway , in Hongkong right now . It's 3.05KST and I'm awake . Holygodsun , it's miracle . Nothing Kpop here , soooo fuck this . Everything here is so goddamn expensive ! GEEE , I BOUGHT A BAG ! My mom is like a pervert , no wonder I'm weird .

So .. Yea , I miss TVXQ . YunJae 4th Anniversary wasn't too long ago . Aww , how I miss those days when they were all smiling together as 5 . Now , I don't even know the hell is going to happen next .

Seriously wonder the fuck is happening to my beautiful fandom , really . Everyone is like supporting either Homin or JYJ . What happened to all those 'faithful & loyal who supports all 5 till the end' Cassiopeias ? I'm disappointed in you . At times like this , I seriously feel like quitting the RedOcean fandom . But I choose to believe that DB5K will be back .

Thus , to all those bitches out there . SUPPORT ALL 5 , OKAY ?

Yunho is clearly in pain , his smiles seems so fake . JaeJoong seems to be wanting to cry and needs someone there for him . Otl , cannot think about them . I'll cry . Sigh .

Picture of You is one of my favourite song from them . Such soft melody with those happy smiles . How I miss it so much . Bolero is another song I love . Scratch that , I love all their songs . Hi-ya-yah is so awesome , wonder why hardly anybody knows about it . Anywayy , time to save up money and continue buying their albums .

Hope to see them as 5 together soon . Whether they come back as TVXQ or not , doesn't matter . As long as they are together , they are smiling happily together , I'm good . I choose to support all 5 , I'm proud to call myself a Cassiopeia .

OHH YEA , I'm crazy . I have officially settled down on a ultimate bias . And that's no other than Lee Byunghun , LJoe . I'm crazy over him so badly , I'm delusional . I'M MAD , OKAY ! MAD . Each time I pass by shops that sells clothes and things for guys . I would be so tempted to buy them for him . Everytime & everything , it would happen .

But of course , if he decides to have a girlfriend or a wife , I won't be some crazy ass bitch that go bash on the poor girl . I'll support them . Unless that woman makes him sad or cry or something like that . I'll seriously fly over and murder him with my bare hands . Lol , I'm weird & crazy .

Officially a Cassiopeia & Andromeda .

BOYFRIEND IS GODDAMN CUTE . YOUNGMIN IS MINE . Cause he's blonde and he is one of the twins . I love Jeongmin too & Hyunseong also ! Anyway , I'm going off .

:3 Bye .

Isn't loving life

2011-05-27T14:52:00.002+08:00

Yea , got that right . I'm not loving life as it is . Like whatthefuck ? All i said to you was focus and you call me a bitch ? Whatthefuck , you have something to said then just fucking said it . No need to go home and bitch about me , I'm not dumb you know .

Fuck those people that says you'll find true friendsd during Secondary School . Just fuckingly die , it's not like I'll fucking care whether you fucking die or not . Seriously , sometimes -scratch that- most of the times , I don't know if you're even a friend . Jeez , damn . Bitch , if you're reading this . Good .

Had a soccer match and got injuries . (Y) Wow . Muscle aches and my toe still hurts ! GODDAMNIT . -.- Today was the funfair & interhouse competitions . Funfair like boring only . Class boys used nerf guns and shot . War room :3 Have some pictures , shall upload later . Anyway , overall . It's stupid . Lol .

Shall watch Titanic later , again . I'm loving that movie . It's so awesome . Anyway , today is also last day of school . Nyahahah , yay . Don't have to see some fucking bitches that will piss the fucking crap out of me .

Waiting for JE8R's outing . I wanna meet my fruits . This holiday , I'm going to do nothing but sleep . Okay , maybe find a job also . -nods- Needs a job badly ! Will miss a few people , just a few . But made plans to meet already . Lol , fast I know . :x

Okay , I think I can officially said that LeeByungHun , LJoe is my ultimate bias . Finally , I found one ! 5 months already . In another 6 days , it's gonna be my 6th month loving him . Well , he is my bias since CLAP period . Ohh , not surprising .

Ohh yea , got a new boyband that I like a lot . They're call BOYFRIEND . Thus , this makes me their GIRLFRIEND . I like Youngmin , he is the younger twin and he is blonde ! So awesome ! Apple wants to pedo him . Horrible pedo . Lol .

Anyway , shall stop here . Since I forgot what I want to write . Lol . Bye .

♥Still In Love

2011-05-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming . Ohmygod , I'm so-not-really-nervous-yet-nervous right now . Will be chionging study on Thursday . For Geography . I have a bunch of notes but they seem too long thus I'll be shortening them .

After Geography , I'll be going crazy over Maths for a period of ... 4 Days . :D Yes , 4 Days . I'll only be online for like ... At night ? To catch up about some news and other shits and then back to studying . Yea , I'm not that hardworking . Why ? My mind can't concentrate properly right now . AND THAT SUCKS .

Went to the doctors with Aida and Guiyi . Some Pedo dude I met . Aish , creepy much . I mean , I won't mind if that pedo was someone that I like . EhemYunhoEhem . And he is creepy . LOL , whatever .

YUNJAE ! Have been spazzing over YUNJAE a lot these days . I mean , who wouldn't love YUNJAE ? I ship YUNJAE , YOOSU , MINFOOD , SOULMATE , SOULFIGHTER , 2U , JAESU , HOMIN . Main point ; I ship all of them but I SHIP YUNJAE HARDCORE DIEDIE .

After YUNJAE , comes 2MIN , CHUNJOE and JAYRAM . But of course , none of them can beat the YUNJAE fandom . I believe YUNJAE is real .

Was saying about getting a tattoo . The same one that JaeJoong have on his chest . I don't know ..

Shall think about it next time .
Going to sleep .

NIGHTS

Stand by YOU ♥

2011-04-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hello . ♥ Ah , scratch that heart shape . I'm so goddamn depressed right now , I'm afraid I might fall back into depression . Exams are nearing and I can't help but think of TVXQ . How long has it been since I fell in love with them ? 3 years ? Maybe even 4 . Of course , I don't show it .

Not that I'm embarrassed of my fandom . I just don't want to hear hurtful words from the other fandom . Oh , I forever remember that time when I was listening to TVXQ's songs on the train with a TVXQ phonestrap and my wallpaper is TVXQ . I think Shawols ? I think . They were like commenting about it .

Like what the fuck ? I could have screamed at them in their face . I don't care . If I wasn't wearing my school uniform , I would have probably fight with them . Fuck them , I don't care whether shawols are scary . A single Cassiopeia can easily handle them . Fuckers .

Anyway , was on tumblr and saw this video . My heart broke . Not only did it broke , that fatass stepped on it also . Now , I don't know how to fix it back .

That fat ass , I think he is Lee SooMan ? Made Yunho and Changmin sing 'Balloons' , on of my all time favourite songs from TVXQ with SHINee . Like seriously ? With SHINee ? Fine , fine . I cried . As soon as the song started , I cried . Really really badly . Then Minho and Key chanted 'Shim Changmin ! Shim Changmin !' I cried even harder . Then they chanted 'Jung Yunho ! Jung Yunho !' I nearly died .

Then Taemin sang JaeJoong's part . Minho sang Junsu's lines . My face was like 'What the fuck was that ? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ?! WHAT THE FUCK !?' Can't take it . As soon as Yunho step onto the stage , tears formed in his eyes .

Yunho oppa ,

You're the strongest among all five of them . But please , don't fake a smile to hide your pain and suffering . We , Cassiopeias , read you like a book .

Oppa , it's really no use . Stop faking smiles . Just hurry up , grab Changmin and leave SME ! It really kills me to see you like this .

Really cried , really really badly . Can't take it . I can't believe SMEnt would go to this extend . I'm fucking piss alright .

I used to love SME , because of TVXQ . Now , I'm just hating it more and more . I fucking hate you SME . I hate SME so much , I swear I'll burn the whole company burn one day . I'll kill every single fucking person inside the company . I'll turn into a lunatic and kill you . LSM , I swear I'll make you suffer before you die .

So fucking pissed .

Then this 'Cassiopeia' isn't helping at all . Not a single bit . I wonder how you can call yourself a Cassiopeia when you don't care about how my Dongbang boys are feeling . All you care about it SuperJunior . Why don't you call yourself a ELF and stay away from my fandom .

I know I'm being a bitch right now , but I seriously can't help it . I have exams tomorrow and if I don't let it all out . I'll probably die halfway through the exams . I'm screwed up . Totally screwed up .

I hate this .

TVXQ , don't worry .

This Cassiopeia will forever Stand by YOU ♥

Always Keep The Faith♥

I'm just invisible .

2011-04-19T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hello ~ Hello ~ It's me , yo . Well , obviously . It's my blog afterall . lmao .

Feels like crying but also feel like laughing at the same time . Ohmygee , I'm abnormal . Anywayy , I'm so so sad ! Teentop came online , twitter , and replied to their fans when I was like .. I don't know , busy burning the fuck out of my finger ? I was baking , okay ! Aww , its so sad ! Cry , man . Cry !

And I was listening to Taylor Swift's Invisible . Totally relates to me , alright . L.Joe ahh ! Ohmygod , please don't pair L.Joe with HyunAh up . It's like pissing me off the max . HyunAh is a bitch , thank you very much . Yes , I don't like her . I don't like her at all ! L.Joe is mine .

Anyway , I feel like laughing . And it's because of Teentop . Why ? Their awesomely cute interviews and pictures and videos and MVs . L.Joe is the main cause of it . Ohmygod , I'm obsessed . Most probably one of the worst obsession ever . Ohmygod , even Aida got tired , like really tired , of hearing my spazzism over him . More than 4 months already . ;x Okay , fine . I liked L.Joe since pre-debut days . Though Ricky is so cute , I still liked L.Joe best . Then he became blonde , I'm crazy . Then he dyed his hair Pink , Wow . I died . Then blonde again , I'm in heaven . Yes , I'm crazy .

Ohmyygodsun , Korean Music Wave pricing is out . And its so freaking expensive ! Its like 318$ for mosh pit , which is really really near the stage . Which means , I can see L.Joe clearly . Ohmygod . But its so expensive . And they are like selling tickets at the end of the month which is like next week ! Ohmyglee , how can you do this to me ?! I want to see L.Joe so very badly .

And then , TheBoss and X-5 coming also . Jay and Haewon . Ohmygod . Then 2NE1 , CL . BigBang , TOP . FTI , Jonghun . UKISS , Kiseop . Ohmyshit . How ! What am I going to do ?!

Byebye , let me go spam twitter .
Follow me ! :D @QRINISM_

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 ...

2011-04-06T20:51:00.002+08:00

Haish , I'm sad . D:

You know , everyone can find a ultimate bias . I mean , Cloney have Mika , Sebrina have Minhwan , Elaine have Onew , Alethea(SP?) have Dongho , Germaine have Yoseob , Shermaine have Key , Syu and Dya have Kibum .

WHY DON'T I HAVE ONE ! I mean , I have a ultimate band - TVXQ . But there isn't a ultimate bias from it . Sucks like shit , you know ! I mean , sure I have Jay . But I know that he isn't the one . He isn't the ultimate bias . I believe that every idol have ONE ultimate fan . The super hardcore one that forever never change . Okay , or a few .

You know , I feel like crying each time I find out -by myself- that my current obsession isn't my ultimate bias . It sucks big time . It really does . At least , I know I'm forever faithful to TVXQ and GazettE .

Maybe my ultimate bias will be from the upcoming debuting soon boyband ! I don't know but I hope so . Really really badly . I really hope so . Gaaah , the more fans I see that have ultimate bias . I feel like crying .

Cause :

1. They're also my bias that I LOVE
2. I don't have a ultimate bias
3. I know that this person isn't my ultimate bias .

Aish . I don't mind for it to be L.Joe . I'm serious , I don't mind at all . I mean , its L.Joe baby . I love L.Joe a lot .

Ohhhh well , Piggy behind me is being a complete bitch just now . I'M FUCKING TRYING TO STUDY MATHS HERE . GODDAMN !

Killing Me ...

2011-03-26T22:20:00.002+08:00

Fuck , I hate crying . Fucking tears won't stop rolling .

Fuck this shit . I don't like it . Someone , make it stop . Make me laugh . Anything . Or just kill me .

How long has it been since I controlled all the tears and feelings ? Probably a year or more .

Why now , why breakdown now ? Finally , I got the courage to ask you that fucking question . Not for stead , Oh please .

And what , fucker broke me down . Thanks a lot . All you needed to do was to answer honestly either a yes or no . I know you like her , no need to lie . But no , instead you want to lie .

Even my mother can tell your feelings . Jerkface , you can't ? You dumb or something ? Oh wait , I forgot you are retarded .

Till the day I die , I doubt you'll even mourn over that . Fucker , just die .

Just because I don't complain doesn't mean I don't have problems . I'M NO GOD , BITCH . You like him , do I care ? What the fuck do you want me to do ? CRY FOR YOU ? You people piss me off . Annoy me and irritate the fuck out of me .

Each time , you bloody fucker ask me for help and shit . I feel like crying . Why ? Cause have no one thought about me ? I have troubles , who's there to help me ? To give me advice ? Nobody . You have trouble and you look for me .

Oh and by the way , your troubles are so easy to handle . You must be dumb not to know how to .

I don't give a fuck anymore , kays ? Leave me alone . Goddamn .

I can't even tell anyone about my troubles cause I'm worried that others will know . I don't like drama yet you assholes are bring them into my life .

Fuck you .

아직 내 맘이 널 보낼 수가 없어 ....

2011-03-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

Helloooo ~ Feeling about up and down today .

Went to school with Elaine today , daughter-mother moment . Darn , it was boring . She was telling me about LingWei . China dog face . That dog is noisy , like seriously damn noisy . So , yea . Anyway , we went to school . Went to class . Just the usual shit .

I failed Art . 9/20 . I know I'm awesome . I can even fail art . Ohh well , can't be help . I don't do art . But that's not why I'm sad though . Moving on ~ Okay , totally boring . Science , MissWong came and nagged at us again . Crazy bitch .

Then , maths . I learned something new during maths ! It wasn't that hard . As long as you pay full attention to the teacher , you'll understand it . God , can't believe I actually learn something in maths lesson !

I love Chinese lesson . I don't know why , its as if its the long time I can be me . I can scream and go crazy without anyone caring . I'm not being racist but I love MT lessons because there aren't any Malays or Indians there . Its as if the world time is mine . I can said what I want , do what i want . Of course , there are things that I am desperate to do but will not do .

Then Level Contact . I hate it . Notice the missing 'd' behind ? I hate it and I still do . I have my reasons , please , don't ask for them . I won't cry but I'll feel hurt .

Anyway , I'm starting to feel that I can't trust in guys . Not with secrets , not with love and definitely not with my heart . I'm scared to talk to guys , I'm scared to tell them my secrets . I'm even more afraid of them breaking my heart . I know that not all guys will do it but it just seems that its getting harder and harder for me to trust one .

Its as if every single guy that talks to me or is close to me is using me . Its as if they're trying to get the one they like to get jealous and confess to them . Like hell , if you like someone , just goddam tell them ! What are you using me ? Maybe I'm wrong , maybe . But I don't like this feeling . And there isn't a single soul I can tell this about .

Why ? Cause I'm afraid . Afraid that they'll tell others . To others , it seems as if I trust people easily . But I don't . I'm afraid , afraid to fall and to cry . I know , nobody gives a shit . Even if I fall , I have to stand alone . Even if I cry , only I can wipe those tears away . Nobody gives a shit , its not as if they're suppose to . But it hurts . I don't like this feeling .

Even by having this 'family tree' . I'm not feeling any better . Instead , its getting worst . I want to avoid everyone . To hide away from the world and die in loneliness . I feel free when I'm alone .

There are times when I feel like crying so badly . But what shit can I do ? Cry ? It won't make things any better . I may be sad , but I won't tell .

SIDE NOTE ;

To guys . Please stop acting as if you care when you don't . It only shows that you're using me . Using me so much , its as if you're born to do so . Stop asking me stupid questions . And please , stop using me . Don't lie to me , anymore . I really have had enough of lies . Its sickening .

Really don't know how to trust . Can I withdraw from society ? I just want to lock myself up in my room and be alone .

Whoever that says that I don't have much friends , I don't hang out much , I don't mix around much , I don't talk much . Thank you , you're right . I don't enjoy having too many friends . I don't enjoy hanging out . I don't enjoy mixing around . I don't enjoy talking .

I prefer to have a few close friends than have a million of fake friends . I prefer to stay home and chat through phone or MSN rather than spending money , hanging out . I prefer to stick to myself and keep things to myself than doing anything . I rather be the listener than the talker . I rather be the anti-social bitch that everybody hates than be the bitch that everybody hates cause she is a total bitch .

Make it sounds as if its a fanfic , I don't care .

Never dare show people the real me . And thus , I'll continue to hide it . Until the day I break down and cry .

LAST NOTE : FUCKING BOYS , STOP LYING AND USING ME BEFORE I FUCKING SLAP YOU IN YOUR FUCKING DISGUSTING LOOKING FACE .

I go crazy because of you ~

2011-03-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

Nomnomnom , I'm obsessed with 'nomnomnom' all of a sudden .
Anyway , went out with Namiko . Didn't go for ELDDS and got kicked out of SYF . Jeez , they could at least inform me . But , no ! They didn't . Heard that they called Serene's parents . That means , they must have called mine also . But , who cares . Seriously , its not as if my parents understand a single shit he is talking about .

Like really , my mom hardly answer phone calls from numbers she doesn't know either that or her phone is off . My father doesn't answer to numbers he doesn't know ~ So , whatever . There's ELDDS on Wednesday . And I'm very sure that I'll get scolded for not going and get threaten to call my parents . Know what , so be it . Call then .

My mom said if the teacher finds trouble with me . Ask them to call her , as easy as that .

Anyway , went to bugis with Namiko . Went to sing and then , went to buy some food to eat , took neoprints which are so pretty and then went to buy koi . Took a few pictures . People were staring at me cause I was wearing a super short dress . Like just 2cm below my female-part . Yes , that short . I wore jeans shorts beneath it . Look so awesome .

Took neoprints with Namiko . They're so pretty ! There is one that I love a lot . Hehe . Sms-ed Namiko and Tree branch on the way home . The train was surprisingly empty .

Anyway , got home and went on msn to chat with my 7th husband , my daughter and son . A complete family tree .

Anyway here's my family tree :

ReitaSama - 1st husband
Jay - 2nd husband
L.Joe - 3rd husband
Changjo - 4th husband
Chunji - 5th husband
Namiko - 6th husband
Tree branch - 7th husband

Johwan - Jay's kid
Jisoo - L.Joe's kid
Soohyung - Changjo's kid
Taehee - Chunji's kid
Elaine - Tree branch's
Luan Bing - Tree branch's

And apparently , I love johwan the most . Namiko doesn't have any kids . But she is the grandmother of Changjo's kid . Don't ask , I don't get it either . But it's just like this . My happy family tree .

I have CAP's kid , Niel's , Ricky's , Kiseop's and Taemin's . Yes , I'm crazy . But oh well .

I go crazy because of you , Lee Byunghun ! Why are you doing this to me . Kill me so hard but I still come back to lift and let you kill me over and over again . Ohh , I love you ! Love you lots , okay . Baby , why don't you just be mine . Isn't that the easiest . I can take care of you , cook for you . I can do everything for you . I'll carry your kids of you ! Of course , I can't die for you . Sorry , baby . But I do love you !

I'm madly obsessed with L.Joe for a long time . Of course , that obsession doesn't beat ReitaSama's and Jay's . But still , its long alright . Maybe Yamapi's one is the longest .

Ohh , I know that TVXQ's will be the most loyal . Cause I'm faithful to them . I promise to love them till the end and even more . Can't wait for JYJ's concert . Can't get into Faith & D's FB page . I'm so nervous , you know . Ohmygee ! Really really need to see them before I break down and cry . Geee , love them so much .

The awesome-ness of Cassiopeia . I'mma buy their concert package . The one from 'Smile! JYJ' I support JYJ and Homin under the name TVXQ . I'm a loyal and faithful fan and promise to keep the faith not matter how hard it is .

Thank you , TVXQ . For all the teachings . You're my gods . Love ya !

7th husband and Daughter ask me go church with them . Ohmygodsun , so early you know . This week go with daughter . Next week go with 7th husband . Geee , when can I have my sleep . Hah , crazy shit .

Anywayyy , thats all for today . Waiting for people to reply me . Thats all .

Baksu Baksu ~

2011-03-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

HEYO , I'm bored . La ~

Went to Kovan to collect my stuff and meet Namiko . Namiko was so late , I was practically starving in the train station . Anyway , collected my 'Keep Your Head Down' normal and Special version and 'Hug' single . I got 2 Changmin photocards ! Though , I was hoping for 1 Changmin and 1 Yunho . But oh well , at least I got my photocards .

After Namiko came , like finally . We went to Bishan . First thing we did when we got there was : EAT . Went to 'Let's Sweet' and had buffet . Darn , I gain 0.5Kg . I'm so gonna lose weight . Don't give a damn , man . Shall go swimming soon . Like really really soon . Shall ask Elaine to go with me . Ate cakes , sweets and all sort of sweets . Of course , we had our 'main course' before that .

After lunch , we went to the arcaded . Played the basketball and throw the balls at the thing game . Then , we raced cars . It was hilarious . Was screaming crazily like 'OHMYGODSUN , HOW TO USE THIS ?' Went to meet Yuukiko to collect my wig . Its so super long ! Until my waist or lower ! Uvwah , and its wavy !

Okay , so ... WE WENT TO CHEEENATOWN . I mean , Chinatown . Went to the tailor and had our measurements . 'Order' our costumes . The Ciel and Alois in wonderland version . Need to find Alois Wig . T-T Or , I'll just order it from taobao . Not sure if it'll come on time . So effing worried , you know .

Then , slack somewhere . Its so boring and we went home .

Came home and admired my Kpop stuff . And I'm chatting with Tree Branch right now . We're planning some stuff . Hehe . But anyway , My KYHD poster is huge . Its like .. 1 Meter long ? WOW !

Oh yea , I didn't collect my JYJ and Teentop stuffs . Aigoo , Teentop ~

Teentop is seriously making me love them more and more each day . I'm seriously going crazy over them . Ohh dear god . But of course , TVXQ will always be first . Anyway , feel like changing my Facebook name . But to what , I don't know . Maybe , RascalLJoe'S Joeyy . Hmm . Not bad . Or , DancingChangjo's Joeyy . OR OR , PowerVoice's JoeyyChunji . :DDDDD

Oh , whatever . I'll just leave it as 'ObsessiveJihwan's Joeyy.' Did somethings for fun yesterday . Gosh , its hilarious . Made some 'baby' photos . Kyah , Changjo+Me's is so cute . Jay+Me's is so cute also ! Well , all of them are cute ! Even CAP !

Anywayyyyyyy , I'll just write till here .

Picture to burn ~

2011-03-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

Burn burn burn ~ Buwahahah . -shot- Okay , being a random bitch right now .
I'm having the Monday blues , alright ! Such a screwed up day .
Horribly depressed right now . Okay , fine . Not that bad but I'm still sad !
I mean , like hellooooo ? Its the Monday Blues ! I'm suppose to be on Holidays right now . Just 1 week . But it still counts ! And guess what , I have to go back to school for CCA .

But at least , we manage to finish the whole play . Not proud of it , but I'm proud of finishing it .

Miss.Marvel is being a total bitch . Like seriously , whats with yelling at people for like the dumbest reason . But whatever , she didn't yell at me . If she did , I'll be so fucken pissed with her . I think I might have just walk out of the room and not go back .

Laughs , assholes .

Just realized that I'm caught in a Love Square . Bliss , man . I mean like (I'mma call them weird names . ) Rabbit likes me , hamster likes me , Branchie likes me . Rabbit and Hamster are friends . Rabbit and branchie are friends . And I'm friends with all of them . How sad uh .

Anyway , today is White Day ! You can also call it the 'boys-version-of-Valentine's-Day' . So yea , but nobody gave me anything . Well , they gave me things on Valentine's day ~ Hehe . So , Teentop have a 'surprise' for Andromedas .

And me , being a not-sure-am-I-a-andromeda person , I was really excited . I swear , man . I was whining to Serene about coming to school and not being about to camp at TeenTop's homepage .

After CCA , came home and went to their homepage . They released 'Angel' MV . I won't said that its nice . But its cute . Really really cute . Then , they tweeted some pictures . Gosh , my heart flutter so badly . Though , I wasn't really in the mood for it . Since QUEST literally broke my heart .

They delayed the announcements and then tell us that the groups that were suppose to come for a Concert were : Teentop , Infinite , UKISS and Orange Carmel . Then , they said its cancelled . Like hello ? You delayed like so goddamn long and now you tell me its cancelled . Builds my hopes high and crashed it down . Like what the hell . Might as well tell us its all a joke , please hate me for it . -.- Jeez .

But what cheered me up was the one and only , Chunji . The picture he tweeted . Ohmygodsun , its my wallpaper right now . Its so effing cute . The picture shows him and he was holding his board thing with 'Marry Me ?' on it . Like hell , yes ! A million times yes , I'll married you . A proposal on White Day , its so effing romantic . Ohmyy , my heart can't handle this . Jokes .

Then , the next one was Changjo . A photo of him holding a bouquet of flowers . So romantic , kyaah ~ Such a lovely white day . Haha !

Love Chunji for his board thing , serious !

Oh , I was on a Teentop spam just now but got tired of saving photos so , I stopped . I want to read fanfictions ! Shall go look for some later . Fanfictions bring me into my own world , yo !

Okay , last few things . I guess . A confession I have to make . I'm liking CAP more and more these days . Thats a good thing and of course , L.Joe will always be my first bias . Thats besides the point right now , the point is that . I like CAP a lot . And I want to hold his hand and watch that beautiful angel sleep . Awww , how cute . I bet his hand is rough .

L.Joe's fingers are so pretty , his hair is so fluffy . L.Joe is a effing perfectionist . But of course , the only five people that are perfect to me it TVXQ . Oh , I'll never miss saying them in any of my post . Heh .

Looking forward to JYJ's first concert in Singapore . Its hell exciting , alright .

Anyway , thats all for today . I'mma go now . Ciao , yo ladys !

2011-03-12T00:39:00.003+08:00

Hellloooo , peeps .
Seriously don't remember the last time I blogged . But whenever it is , its okay ! Since I'm back now ! :D
Skipped school for 2 days straight . Came back from camp and the next two days , I'm on MC . :D That's just plain awesome . Yeaa , I skipped school twice ! :D Ohh god , I feel like a bad girl right now .
Anyway , I'm sure everyone single soul knows about the earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan . Gosh , its so heartbreaking . Heard that Hikaru , Chinen and Yamapi's house were destroy . Yuto and Daiki are in the hospital right now . Few hundred people died and many went missing . Major heartbreak . 2NE1 is safe , Junsu just landed in Korea : Flight KE2710 . Heard that JaeJoong cried while waiting for Junsu .

Power of TVXQ . I wonder how Yunho and Changmin are doing . Are they worrying about Junsu ? Major heartbreak again . You can totally hear my heart breaking into pieces right now .

Teentop's goodbye stage started yesterday at MNET!Countdown . They performed at MusicBank today . Heard that Chunji's voice cracked . Poor baby must be feeling guilty because of it . Aww , heart break again . Gosh , I seriously need to stop all this heartbreaking thing . I'm gonna miss Teentop a lot . Like seriously a lot !

And I have this feeling that TeenTop have officially push UKISS down the list , currently on third position and is pulling DaeGukNamAh down also . This little asses , they make my heart beat so fast and make me scream for practically no reason . And like TVXQ , I'm slowly liking the members more and more .

I can tell you right now , truthfully . That I'm crazy for L.Joe . Sure , I don't show it . But I somehow am crazy for this pink haired boy . Chunji and Changjo are adorable ! And I absolutely love them a lot . Then comes CAP . A charismatic rapper and leader . Very good . Niel and Ricky are simply too adorable for words . Didn't understand why people liked Niel at first , but now , I can understand it . Perfectly .

Anyway , hope that the people in Japan and the affected countries around it are safe . Hope that the death troll won't go up anymore . 300 singaporeans in Japan are safe . Thank god . But seriously , I don't understand what have come upon this world . Why the hell is it in such a horrible mess .

Good news now , JYJ is coming . That's awesomeness to the extend that it can't be extended anymore ! I'm totally going , like fuck ! I didn't see them the last time they came and I regretted it like shit . This time , I'm definitely going . Have to ask Sebrina about the tickets things soon . Can't wait !

And Elaine told me who she likes . Not surprising though , I mean she liked him before now . So , yea ~ No biggie right ?

Was talking to tree branch before he went to sleep . Aww , that cute stick ! He told me somethings that are seriously really cute and sweet . I was telling him that I was going to do a Makeup test soon . And then he told me about his mom being a Makeup artist . So , I was like 'SO AWESOME' and he just somewhat told me 'Be me wife . LOL' Didn't really get it but he is just so cute !

We made a deal ! That I get to hug him everyday when school reopens . He promise not to be angry , so tada ! He is really funny but his chinese sucks ttvm .

Anyway , Delph made my day . Well , yesterday at least . Today is too worrying ! She told me some good news and I practically went mad . So awesome , I tell you ! God , I love her so much ! <3

Read some fanfics today , not too bad . Entertained myself for a few hours . Oh , read 2 yaoi fanfics of Teentop . ChuNiel couple is cute . But I totally ship ChunJoe couple . Like really badly ! But of course , it isn't as bad as my shipping for YunJae couple .

Like seriously , YunJae is legend ! It'll continue living like forever . Listened to 'Mirotic' by TVXQ today . There is this part that goes 'I got you , under my skin .' Well , TVXQ . I got you , engraved onto my heart . Gosh , if only you knew how much Cassopeias loves you .

Just come back as 5 soon , yea ? Missing you boys as 5 so much that I can cry every single night . Of course , I didn't . I have to hold them back right ?

Ohh well , thats all for today . Not a very long post .
But see tea ~ :D

Let's dance the sickness away ! :D

2011-02-24T16:53:00.002+08:00

I'm sick . D: Caught flu and sore throat . I think I'm gonna have a fever soon . Ohmygodsun . Wrong timing ! D: I have like Common tests next week and than 2 days of rest - Weekends - and than 3 days of Camp !

I need to study ! D: I can't afford to fall sick . But too bad , I already did . -.- Currently am sick . Been quite some time since I blogged . Missing my blog SO MUCH , yea know ? Hehe ~ Wanted to blog but always end up forgetting what I want to blog . XD Hahah . I'm epic .

Got 'married' to Aida last Friday , I think . Damn , my PE teacher is hilarious . Not only he is gay-like . Me and Aida was walking towards him to get rackets to play badminton and he asked 'So , whose the husband and whose the wife ?' Yes , Aida is a female . Aida is the husband and I'm the wife . We're the SMITH family . :D Joshua is Brother Smith , Serene is Grandma Smith . We 'adopted' 2 kids . Not sure if they know though . Will tell them tomorrow . Tommy and Michael is the two kids .

Love pairing them up as GAY . So its kind of like a Buy one , get one free thing . XD
Baked cookies and muffins for Valentine's . They said it was nice , but what do I know ? I hardly got to ate them . LOL .

Anyway , that dude is being so distant with me ever since Rejection number 3 . I think . I mean , COME ON . I have a life and I don't want to share my love with other people . He asked Aida to asked me on a date but I said no .

Me and Aida went crazy yesterday . We were talking about raping . -.- LOL . Someone raping someone . So , it went like this :

Me : Its not call rape ! Its call -
Aida : Touching ? YEAAA . Ohh , he is just grabbing my boobies .
Me : WTH ? HAHAH . NO . Its call 'PASSIONATE SEX' .
Aida : YEA RIGHT . The girl would be like screaming 'NO . Don't touch me ! I'ma tell my mommy !'
Me : HAHAHAHA . Its passionate sex alright !
Aida : The girl would be screaming and the guy would be like 'Yeaaa . I'm having passionate sex' .
Me : LOLOOLLOLOL . Its called making passionate love . YOU GET IT ? XD

Lame conversation . And then , we talked about it again just now . LOL XD I think my secondary 1 juniors think I'm crazy .

1 . I roll on the Music room hall .
2 . I scream for no reason .
3 . I'll go like 'OMGSUN . Mr.Taylor SO HANDSOME !' XD

Random shit . XDD

Ohh yeaa , AN ANT BIT ME ! D: ITS SO PAINFUL . The ant is like BIG . And IT BIT ME ! D: Aida said I should be a little boyish . I mean like HELLO ? The ant could be poisonous ! You'll never know , kays !

Took this photo yesterday morning . :D So nice right ? XD Haha . I look so fair . So awesomeeeeee *u* I like this photo . But there is another one that I like a lot but Aida said it looks geeky and gay . D: Meanie , ain't she ? Tsk ! XD

This one is from yesterday afternoon . I was in the music room , camwhoring away . Cause I'm bored and my head hurts from all the rolling . My chubby cheeks ~ :D -rolls-

JYJ is coming on April 23th . :D And I'm so excited about it . I'm totally going . The last time I couldn't go since it was my final term exams . Didn't do a good job but hey ! I tried !

We had a maths test today . It was .. okay I guess . I wouldn't said that it's easy but its okay . :D There were some confusing one but yea ~ :D

I wonder who else is coming to singapore . QUEST delayed it and will tell us next week . Like HELLO ? I'm having tests ! D: Its like 10% of my final term results ! Its important like *($!(@($)!@&$*)!@)( IMPORTANT .

My mom should have transferred the money by now . Let me ask her ~ I got her to transfer money for me cause I don't know how to ~ I'm a dumbass . LOL . Ordered JYJ's Music Essay , JYJ's concert in Seoul edition & TeenTop's transformed . :D

Shall collect everything during the march Holidays . -squeal- Can't wait to get my hands on my KYHD album . Hehe , I know I'm slow . But they missed out my album so ~ Yeaaa . :D They missed out my Normal Version .

Anywayy , I'mm go take a nap and then study maths . :D -waves- BYEBYE !

formspring.me

2011-02-19T00:46:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/ObsessiveJihwan

A fucked up life will always remind fucked up .

2011-02-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

Weeh , I 'LOVE' my life so much . Yea ? YEA , SO FUCKING MUCH . God , I fucking hate you . Nahh , I don't mean it . Still , FUCKED UP KAYS . -.-

Why is it ALWAYS my bias that have a girlfriend or scandal ? Jeez . Sucker . Always you know . And I , as a fangirl , is having a hard time getting all this shit into my brain . I'm like stressed up enough . Stop giving me problems . GOD .

School work , relationship shit , Kpop fuck . What else ? Ohh yea , Swimming ? Cross-country . WTH . Give me a break , seriously . Fuck this shit okay .

First , why i don't support relationship in Kpop .
Said me selfish , whatever . I don't give a fuck . You're a fucking idol for god-sake ! Trained so hard , went through auditions , had hard time gaining fans . Like HELLO ? You want to lose all this in a night ? All because of a girl ? Okay , maybe only my opinion , but if you think its worth it . You're dumb . :D Yes , SO FUCKING DUMB .

Disagree ? I don't care .

Second , You'll have trouble concentration on your schedules . Bliss , nobody is able to help you with that . The difference between Chunji's relationship (Don'tknow real or fake) and JaeJoong's . Is this : Chunji , before debut , now ? JaeJoong : Before debut till - nearing debut . The girl wants him back cause he is famous , thus the girl should just die . :D

Third , HELLO ? Which fangirl will want her bias to date some other girl . Jonghyun case ? They accepted it , but hearts are still broken . -.- Serene is like 'HE BROKE MY HEART BUT .. I STILL LOVE HIM . HOW ?!' Yeaa . Get my point ? Broken hearts aren't mend easily .

Forth , I'M RACIST ENOUGH . I'm like kind enough to Thai people . The 2 that I know . Other than that , I don't know any Thai . DON'T MAKE ME GO AGAINST THESE TWO FUCKERS . I'M A SADISTIC RACIST OKAY . FUCK YOU .

Yeaa ,, I can rant on and on but I'm sleepy .

Soooo , fuck you .

Even if I'm hurt , life still moves on .

2011-02-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

#()!@$*@)! So freaking pissed off . This few days , I've been doing nothing but school work . SCHOOL WORK SCHOOL WORK AND MORE SCHOOL WORK .

Started on Tuesday , went to buy things for the notice board . What's next , went back home at around 5 pm - 6pm ? Then , homework .

Wednesday , CCA till I don't know ~ 6pm , 6.30pm ? -.- Went to Jurong Point , met my mom then went to Kovan for dinner and then went back home and I start to go crazy . Why ? MATHS HOMEWORK , ENGLISH HOMEWORK , NOTICE BOARD STUFF , HOME ECONS PROJECT ALL NOT DONE . Slept at nearly 2AM .

Today , went to buy some things for CCA - SYF . -.- Pay me back my money , bitch . Reach home about 5pm , nearly 6pm . Start to look prepare for homework . Bought dinner , ate . And TA~DA , homework . Working my ass off .

Didn't even do maths homework , cause there isn't any maths tomorrow ! LOL . I'll fucking die if there is maths tomorrow . Did my Home Econs project , not finished . Finished with the Task Analysis and the recipe thingy - halfway done with the Recipe - . But WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO RESEARCH ON ? SERIOUSLY ! Teachers never explain things clearly . So irritated . GOD !

My head hurts so much okay ! D: Wrote down a lot of things . Then , I need to write a proposal for this project . Like , HELLO ? I'M ONLY SECONDARY 2 ! ONLY 14 (International) / 15 (KOREAN) YEARS OLD . FREAK YOU . And PS . My birthday isn't here yet . So I'm only 13 (International) / 14 (Korean) years old . :D

Asking me to write a PROPOSAL AT THE AGE OF WHAT ? A 97-ER ? FREAK YOU . Wrote a lot of the details down , printed out some recipe and notes . And guess what ? I'm nearly done with it . After I'm done with it , I can start OFFICIALLY writing the PROPOSAL .

Dear Teacher , IF YOU FUCKING FAIL ME .I'LL SERIOUSLY BURN YOUR HOUSE DOWN . BITCH . ITS NOT EASY TO WRITE A GODDAMN PROPOSAL OKAY .

Ignore Kpop for nearly a week , other than songs , JUST FOR SCHOOL . WOW . JUST WOW . I just sacrificed Kpop for studies .

ANYWAY , why the HELL am I stressing over HOME ECONS ? Yeaa , anyway . I NEED THOSE POINTS . THATS ALL .

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Happy news is ~ :DDDD

TEEN_TOP_JAPAN FOLLOWED ME ON TWITTER ~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHH . Felt so gay okay . On Tuesday , even though I WAS BUSY LIKE SHIT . I still found time for TWITTER ! :D I love Twitter ttvm okay .

I was like , 'Ohhh SO SLEEPY . I'mma take a nap after checking my e-mails ~' Yawned and log in . AND TA~DA ~

'Twitter
TEEN_TOP_JAPAN requested to follow you ..... ' ME : -blinks- TeenTop ? Japan ? O.O TEENTOP ? JAPAN ? WHUUUUUT ? -hurries and log on Twitter-

'One new follower request ' . ME : -blinks , click , squeal , accept and regret- . LOL .

TEENTOP FOLLOWED ME ! YAY ! BUT BUT ! Thats sucks too . I can't spam . -.- But guess what , I PREDICT THAT THEY WON'T HAVE TIME FOR TWITTER CAUSE OF THEIR SCHEDULE ! :D DEBUTING IN JAPAN WHERE GOT TIME FOR TWITTER RIGHT ? ;D

Did a little spam just now . Bitching about how much this Home Econs project is killing me . LOL . My brain cells . T_T

My Yunho badge broke ! DDD: -cries- My INFINITE badge broke ALSO -cries- MYYY YUNHO BADGE ! DDDD: MIANHAE , YUNHO OPPA ! DDDD: I'M SO SORRY ! D: -cries forever-

Bought a new TVXQ badge ! :D And a TeenTop badge ~ :DDDDD Wanted to buy individuals names but Aida was like 'NO ! DON'T WASTE YOUR MONEY ON THESE THINGS !' . I was like ' BUT BUT !!! ' LOL . SUCKA .

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I swear Aida , she isn't the bestest friend you can have . Why ? She doesn't give a fuck about you . She only cares about express kids . And everytime she is with them , NA and NT kids are like invisible or dead .

Thats why every morning , see her with Express kids . Ignore and walk away . I ain't gonna interrupt in their 'oh-so-awesome' conversation . LOL .

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YEAAAAAA ~ I'mm go sleep .

CHINESE NEW YEAR ~ Where my angbao ? D:

2011-01-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hohohoooo , Chinese new year in 3 days time ! :D -screams- Bank is gonna fill with moneyyyy ~ Muwahahah . I love you ,CNY . How I wish it was CNY EVERYDAY ! I'll get money everydayyyyyyy ! So awesome . LOL

Mom just told me I have $52 angbao already ! :DDDD Woots , awesome . I love it ttvm ! :D SOOOOO AWESOMMMEEEEE .

>Liking Taeyeon , Sooyoung and Hyoyeon ! Maybe Yuri also . Hmmmm , SNSD ! LOL . TVXQ , ALL THE WAY .

Regret like shit for not going to SS3 . Nabei , I wanna cry liao lah . D<

Went shopping with Elaine (CHHHESSSEEEEE) today ! :D Go bugis then go Jurong Point . She pierce her ear . Add 3 holes ! O.O Should have pierce helix , but then .. Mr.Ben confirm catch me de . WAAAHHHHH . Heng , never pierce .

Brought new earrings , necklace and sunglasses ! And bracelets ! :DDDD All for CNY . Wearing my earring now . ITS SO CHIO . LOL , okay fine . Its just black circles . LMAO . They look like L.Joe's one . The clap period one , the black one . Button earrings . LOL . Mine is slightly different ~

Was thinking of buying couple tee shirts for Teentop . XD Ricky x L.Joe , Chunji x Changjo , Niel x C.A.P . Good good . -nods- Shall buy them then ! Who girl , who boy . I don't know lah . But I know Ricky is girl . :X -shot- AB blood , jeez ! ABs are scary people ! -run away-

Anyyyyyyyway . My necklace is SUPER CHIO . I like it a lot a lot ! :DD Its a key and crown ~ :DD So pretty ! Then , brought red framed sunglasses . *u*

Didn't buy much today . Ohh and , I went to CC and brought 2 Teentop badges ! :D Shall pin them onto my pencil case ! :D I NEED SUPER GLUE ! D: My changmin came off . -cries- Almost cry in school because of it .

Didn't wear specs to school , wore contacts . Told people I have a date . LOL . Yea , a date with Elaine . LOLOLOLOL .

I'mma learn to dance Soshi's Hoot , Gee , Oh! and Run Devil Run . After that , Teentop's clap , supa luv . SHINee's RingDingDong , Lucifer . BEAST's Shock , bad girl , Beautiful ___ Something . SuperJunior's SuperGirl . And a long list ~ :DDDDDDDD

You know uhh , there is this bunch of bitches . SIBEI ANNOYING CAN . D: SMTBIF's admins plan to open a SNCJIF long time already . The former members know , fast go make one then laugh at us , said we copy . Like , WHAT THE SHIT ?

HELLLOOOO ? We told you informations about Jino debuting in a new band ! Gosh , feel like slapping them . Somemore , founder is a Andromeda . -shake head- DAMN HEARTPAIN CAN . GEEEEEEEEL .

Piss of with a few things , but don't really care . I don't wanna age faster , yea ? XDDDD

Teentop , WHY YOU GO THAILAND NO COME SINGAPORE ? YOU KNOW I SIAO UNTIL LIKE WHAT LIAO MAH ?

Aida and Elaine got annoyed with me since all i said is ' Chunji ' . LOL . In class , 'CHUNJI IS SO HANDSOME . SO PRETTY' . Shopping 'Feel like buying this of Chunji' . At home ' Chunji ~ Chunji ~' In dream '.... chunji ?' LOLOL .

Today , I can only think about CHUNJI AS A GIRL . SO CHIO , OHMYGODSUN . I WANNA TOUCH YOUR HAIR ! -shot-

Okayy , I super sleepy . Think I'mma take a nap , or just sleep uhh . LOL .

Obsessing with TeenTop

2011-01-22T15:31:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed . -.- So frigging piss off . All thanks to one person . Sucker , loser . Just die ! D<

Watch out , you fucking assholes out there . Karma is going to get you back . If it doesn't , I WILL . I frigging hate guys like that . I don't want to believe in you , even if its the truth .
Anywayy , I'm obsessed with TeenTop currently . LMAO . It started about a few weeks before their comeback . I think 1 or 2 weeks before . I was like suddenly ' L.Joe ~ ' XD LMAO . And became obsessed . Then , I think few hours later .... I became obsessed with Changjo . And then few days later I'm obsessed with Chunji . -slap self-

BUT , HEY . L.JOE IS STILL MY FIRST BIAS . CHANGJO IS SECOND AND CHUNJI IS THIRD . At least , I think so . :X Aida likes to make fun of me . Everytime said/scream/whisper Chunji name at me . Everytime she'll go like this :

Me : -nagging at Aida-
Aida : CHUNJI
Me : -pause , stare and giggle-

She is so mean isn't she . LOL . She was like 'CHUNJI CHUNJI CHUNJI CHUNJI' at me in front of my senior . And I was like '-giggling like crazy with my head on the table and covering my face- . LOL . Ohh and that happen once when we were in the CANTEEN . LMAO . That horrible woman . -cries- LOL

Aida remembers Chunji , Ricky (even though I didn't mention about him before) and CAP . She likes CAP . For ONE reason . Cause he likes Eminem . <-- Or something . :X Cap is shuai de . -nods nods-

Serene likes Niel . Ahn Daniel ~ My 'brother' is named ' Daniel Tan' . KARHOR . XDDD Anyway anyway , CHANGJO PHONE IS BLING BLING !!! RICKY ALSO ! -screams and run around- I'm in love ~ With their phone ! *u* I want to 'bling' my phone also . But blings don't go well with BB phones . -sigh and cries forever-

Changjo is scared of heights and ? Oceans ? SO CUTE . TTVM . I'm okay with heights but I hate oceans . Not scare but HATE THEM . They are so disgusting ! -insert disgusted face- LOL . Imagine swimming with the sea animals . -gross out- Swim halfway got fish bite you . LMAO .

Found out that L.Joe's first love is a Chinese girl who happen to be a Cassiopeian . CASSIE FOR LIFEEEEEEEEEEE ! That girl can be my best friend . -nods nods- Cassiopeians are all my friends ~ :D TVXQ ~ DONGBANGSHINKI !

Teentop is so hateful . Always tweeting when I'm not around

Ricky dancing Rainism , umm . WHY SO CUTE ? I know cute isn't suppose to be in Rainism dance but CAN'T HELP IT ! :X Ohhh well . He looks like a 4 years old kid ! Ohmygodsun , I feel so horribly old . He acts younger than me also ! DDDDD: -cries forever-

Aiggo , I feel so old . LOL . They are all so loud ! Especially Niel and Ricky ! GAHHHH . Changjo like cannot do PE de . :X And is so very quiet .

Anyway , I'm obsessed okay ! OBSESSED !

Teentop have officially become one of my top 4s . :D Not sure third or fourth .

Ultimate is TVXQ , don't need to think about defeating them . Its more or less useless . Almost cried in school because of them . :X Then , DGNA is second . But ~ Ohhh well , the feeling is like getting softer and softer . D: Then UKISS or TeenTop . Seems to like underrated groups a lot . At least they are real talent .

Obsessed with this song ; 'My Love' Kim Dongwan ft . Eric Mun . ITS SHINHWA , YO BABE ! Not a fan , but I just love this song ~ They're coming back ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD Not said very handsome lah , but I LOVE THEIR VOCALS ! Ohmygodsun ! *u*

Warning note : (Just a joke ~ I think XD)

Whoever that touches any of my bias , I'll kill you . I'mma skin you alive and torture you for 197days then set you on fire , not killing you just yet . I'm then going to continue torturing you and then kill you . D<

Bias list :
-TVXQ (all 5)
-Teentop : L.Joe , Chunji , Changjo
-DGNA : Jay
-UKISS : Kiseop
>-GazettE (Jrock) : Reita .

I SWEAR YO , TOUCH THEM AND I'LL KILL YOU ! D<

Okayy , Maybe I'll hate you but not kill you .... Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

DDDDDOOOOODLES !

Awfully pissed and irritated .

2011-01-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

I know , only half the day has gone passed only . But guess what ? I'm awfully pissed and irritated .

Gosh , and I thought older boys have some maturity in them . But , NOOOOO . I was wrong . So fucking wrong .

Dude , listen up . I'm NOT a toy or a tool for you to play with . If you want to do that , FIND SOMEONE ELSE . YOU HAVE GOT THE WRONG PERSON . I don't have patience with you fuckers .

What am I ? A TOY ? You used me in a bet . A GODDAMN FUCKING BET . Seriously , what is wrong with you ? Trying to get back at me for rejecting you ? You might not be the one that started this bet . But you didn't reject it . How dumb . Don't push the blame all to the other kid , you are responsible for it too .

Damn , it was a good choice to reject you . Imagine what I had to go through if I accepted you . God , what a sad life I'm leading .

You were someone I thought I can trust . And i did trust you and treated you like my brother . You just had to take that trust for granted . Well , too bad then . I'm not gonna trust you shitty person anymore .

Do you know how irritating it is to be used by someone that you trust ? FUCK YOU . And to think I actually felt guilty about the rejection . So shitty piss .

At least I'm glad that I finally know what kind of person you are . If chairman didn't come and ask me and then tell me about it . I think you'll just continue using me in a bet , wouldn't you ?

Guys that use girls as toys and tools are filthy disgusting . And just because I don't show people how I truly feel , doesn't mind I'm fine with it . Neither does it means that I'm dead and doesn't have emotions .

Mind you , I'm a female . And once you hurt a female's feelings . A female like me , you're in deep shit . Getting me involve in such shit is one of the lowest thing that a person can do . You fucking use me .

Are you dumb or something ? Do you not know what 'rejection' means ? Or are you simply so dumb and retarded that you don't even know that that word existed ? Are you so dumb that you can't reject them ?

People like you are so irritating . You made everyone side you . Have anyone of you thought about my feelings before using me in a bet ? HAVE YOU ? Fuck no . If you did , I highly doubt that you will do this shit .

As much as I feel like crying because of this shit , I won't . Cause my tears are too precious to be waste on you fucking people and your bet . You're so fucked up . And I hope you know that .

Imagine , if I accepted you without thinking . And then this shit happen , I'll probably feel even more annoyed and irritated right now . I'm so glad you know . SO GLAD .

And by the way , thanks a lot . Thanks for showing me what kind of person you are . I don't give a fuck whether you're depress or whatever shit anymore . People like you are so low . The lowest being ever .

Get a life would you ? Filthy disgusting person .

If you're read this , I hope that you're not that dumb that you don't even know that I'm ranting about you .

I'mma get the fuck out of here .

I'm seriously sick and tired of this .

2011-01-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

I'mma use proper english . <--- Shall try my best ! :D If I get pisser and pisser while trying to blog , I'mma just stop the nice language and go back to the vulgar one .

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Gosh , you're seriously disgusting . Not by your actions but its by the way you act towards people and how you change in a flash . You're like a two-faced dog , you know ? I believe that I knew you longer than them , and I believe that I've never done anything bad to you . Backstabbing , betraying ect . And I'm not some idiots that thinks that you're so awesome that you're so innocent . I know you backstab me , I'm not stupid . But I can actually cover one eye .

But you are seriously getting on my nerves . Have you ever thought of my feelings before ? I don't think so . I hate people like you a lot .

What am I ? A tool for you to use ? A toy for you to play with ? Get this in your head . I'm not someone nice to play with . I don't have any patience with people like you . I've been keeping my feelings in and trying to stop this temptation to scream at you . Why ? Cause you get on my nerves so much that I feel like killing you .

I'm not like you people okay . You finished your O'levels . You have got plenty of time in hand . You can work and slack and do anything you want . Well , hello ! I'm in school . I'm still schooling and I'm also working . I know you like being surrounded by people around your age . If thats the case , why do you even bother befriending me ? Its so annoying , its frustrating .

You two faced dog . In front of me , you choose to ignore everyone and just tend to my needs . And behind me ? You're acting as if I've never existed in your life and all you do in backstab me . You think you know everything about me . From what I like to what annoys me . You're not smart at all okay . Don't assume things by yourself . You never did care for me . Not even once . What makes you think I have to tend to your needs and care about your feelings ? Sure , you did care for me last time . And I'm gladly to said that , I've return those 'care-ness' already .

You're seriously disgusting . Who I wish I wasn't friends with you . I'm actually so disgusted with myself . Why ? Because I'm actually friends with a two-faced dog like you . You're grossing me out and that is horribly disgusting .

Besides , you always said that 'I'm in love' and 'Its not normal fangirl love . I've never felt this way before .' How sure can you be ? Its not fangirl love ? Let me tell you this , for once . I'm very sure , it is fangirl love . True love don't just walk into your life like this . Besides , a true love that everyone is fighting for ? Don't be dumb . Its not like that idol will ever notice you .

Jay ? Obviously its fangirl love . And I know that . Maybe its just me . Either that or you're so dumb and retarded that you don't even know that what you're feeling is just fangirl love . Crying over some idols like him isn't going to make him notice you . Get a life , woman .

I cry because I feel like crying . Nothing else .

Whoever you are , I hope you're smart enough to know that .

Lameness strike so those laziness .

2011-01-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'M SOOOOO TIRED . YOU KNOW TIRED ? T.I.R.E.D . LOL . Just got home about 2 hours ago ? FML , SO TIRING I TELL YOU ! XD And I only earned like 1.90$ IN THE WHOLE FRIGGING DAY ! !@#$%^&*(#$%^&*

The person uhh , whats his name ? Lucas ? SOMETHING LIKE THAT LAH OKAY . Asked me to meet him at the hawker center . FML , DUDE . Later ask me find him at Table 173 . Elaine laugh like mad . -.-

Can't find hawker center ask me find table . (Y)SO AWESOME . LMAO .

I went to work for the first time ! :DDD YAYYYY . With Elaine ! :D Damn funny , go door to door ask people to buy the 'Glow-in-the-dark' nails thingy . LMAO . SO FUNNY .

Anywayy , Not sure Elaine working on Thursday with me not . Shall ask Sebrina . Weekend , this Saturday also got work . HMMMMM , who going with me ? I working 2 different de . I know next week Emmelia going with me . :DDDDD SO AWESOME !

Shall ask Delphina and Sebrina to come along . Same time ask Elaine come . :DDDD MORE THE BETTER ! :D

Today , reaching home that time uhh . The guy , IDK what his name is , called me . LOL . He talked a lot like nearly 5 minutes and I don't even understand a single thing . XD He sound like he is going to cry . Maybe just me , uhh . XD

Whats so frustrating is this : I call the person , person ask me call another one , another one ask me call the other person AND FINALLY the last person DIDN'T ask me to call anyone le . HAHAH .

Have like 4 or 5 numbers , UNKNOWN DE OKAY ! XD I got Elaine addicted to Supa Luv . Keep singing the 'I got Supa Luv' and the 'Supa Luv luv luv luv luv' <-- Something like that , STM IN PROGRESS . -bang wall-

Got people said my school uniform nice . I'm like '.... Thats so ... amazing . First person . (y) -claps- ' . LOL . LAME TTVM CANS . HAHAHAAHAHAHA

I'm irritated with a few people in my class , like GOSH . What the shit is wrong with them siyah . AM I A TOOL ? FREAK YOU . <-- Being nice to not scold you that '4 letters word' .

Feel like crying ohh . Don't know why , just feel like it . TVXQ + Teentop = I WANT TO EFFING CRY .

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Ohhh , some asshole just pissed me off on 10.28PM . -.- Like WTH . Dude , seriously . If you want to be a Anti of someone , could you at least learn some proper english before you actually start bashing ? Its annoying . Besides that , FUCK YOU . You must be one dumb and retarded person without a brain . Being a Anti of TVXQ , and bashing them on twitter is only going to cause you trouble .

TVXQ have like - what ? THE BIGGEST FANCLUB IN THE WORLD . And the amount 800,000 is just in KOREA . The whole effing earth is so BIG . I bet they have more than Gayber !

TVXQ can't sing and is overrated ? They screw up every performance ? Blind , deaf and STUPID . They can't sing then who can ? THOSE FAKE BITCHES AND DOGS THAT LIP-SYNC ? Gayber can sing ? FUCK NO . There isn't a group that can sing better then them , so its pretty much clear that you're DEAF . Screw up every performance ? Awww , poor thing must be BLIND also . They give it their ALL in EVERY performance . Even if they're sick or whatever , they still put in 100% . And you're saying they screw up every performance ? THEY PRACTICALLY SHOW US THE BEST . NOTHING BUT THE BEST . BLIND BITCH , YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS .

And overrated ? Like fuck ? I seriously don't think so . They deserve it . They worked so hard and came these far .They always do their best , they try their best to keep promises . They show their real self both in front and behind camera . They can sing , they can dance and they are so FUCKING HANDSOME . They gain respect from everyone and never likes seeing someone as their enemy -among artist- . FUCK YOU , OVERRATED ? Let me tell you a few people that I FEEL IS OVERRATED .

1 . Justin Bieber .
2 . BEAST - My opinion okay .-

Gayber shouldn't even be a singer . He can't sing , HE IS UGLY and his voice is disgusting .

Gosh , fucker piss me off . -.-

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Shall go spam my 'TeenTop' folder with L.Joe's pictures .

Bye , gonna rot on tumblr . -.-

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Getting things off my mind .

2011-01-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Overly stressed and is suffering from depression . Ohh , I know . I'm so awesome . Only a epic girl like me will suffer from depression . WTH .

I'm not giving up on the ideal of working . HELL NO , I'M NOT . I think I'll be going to Jurong Point to do a simple job hunt . Awesomeness . Hope they are hiring part-timers . Or else , I'm so fucking dead . And fuck no , I'm not giving in to that bitch .

Said me unfilial , I don't care . I have a mind of my own thus I make my decisions . Unhappy then fuck off .

The only 2 person that is keeping me away from Suicide is my dearest Namiko and my awesome lady , Aida . If not , I would early be dead . LMAO . No idea how long this shit is going to last , but no matter how long it is , I don't give a shit .

Anyway , I'm just going to study my ass off and work like fuck . Join Namiko for Sony Japan auditions . No idea why , but whatever . And continue to study like mad .

Tsk . Main point about this post . LMAO . Finally getting to topic . FTW .

Jeez , Teentop is getting more and more popular after Supa Luv is released . LMAO . Its suppose to be a good thing , BUT . I see a lot of fake fans . And what i HATE most is fake fans . Not like I'm really a Andromeda . Ain't gonna call myself one unless my obsession can last more than 2 - 3 months . LOL .

Currently , I'm only a Cassiopeia . And thats all . DGNA should have a FC name soon . Its so pissy to call myself a DGNA fangirl . GIMME A NAME , BITCH . D< LOL . Anywayyy , I'm ignoring calls from that bitch . Since I don't want to talk to her neither to I want to see her annoying face .

FML .

Changjo is getting more and more popular these days . Thats a good thing , but ohh well . I'm a selfish woman . LMAO . I'm aggressive , admitted . LOL .

But seriously , where did all the Niel Stan went to ? Clap period all 'NIEL BIAS' . Supa Luv 'CHANGJO BIAS' . Next single ? 'RICKY BIAS' . WTF , can't stick to one .

Top bias in TeenTop of me is ; L.Joe .

Second , slow climbing up to first ; Changjo

Third , sweet and awesome ; Chunji

REST COMES IN FOURTH . LMAO . I'm a bitch , yea . It seems like I like Changjo more . So confusing . FML . Shall just stick to being a Cassiopeia .

Seriously have no idea whose my first bias in TeenTop , you know . Ofc , its L.Joe . But somehow , I pay more attention to Changjo . -.- Urge to murder myself and bang the wall and die . LOL .

Changjo's name is always the first one I start to write on my textbooks . Ofc , Jay is first . Not my ultimate bias , but is nearing that stage I guess .

But L.Joe makes me laugh and giggle and hyper and crazy more often then Changjo . FML , Should i just put 2 first bias ? CANNOT . Thats so horrible . LOL .

Ricky is so flexible , can bend so much . I think uh , my bones will break if i do that . LMAO .

Going to sleep , its 10.30 .

Got work and school tomorrow . FML .

Irritated .

2011-01-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

So fucking irritated . -.- GOSH , FUCK MY LIFE . SERIOUSLY .
In the whole of 14 (international) / 15 (Korean) years , I'VE NEVER FELT SO FUCKED UP BEFORE .

Seriously feel like going suicide . -.- FML .
Mom , as I like to call Bitch , is being so irritating . You don't want to pay , FINE . I'll work my ass off and pay for things myself . SO LEAVE ME ALONE . Studies ? I'm doing my best in it .

What about you ? Keep blaming all the shit that i've never done to me . You never think for me before and all you do is TALK . -.- You make the whole fucking family turn the against . Well , guess what ? I DON'T CARE .

I'll earn enough money and rent a room . -.- Fucked up life . Gosh , I hate you so seriously much ! By telling me that 'You can't hate her ! She's your mom' isn't going to work . -.- I'm working 2 jobs okay . Going to start a blogshop , get one more job and study . So it'll be a total of like 4 jobs at one time .

I'm not complaining though . And to people who think your life is worst . GET A FUCKING LIFE . YOU'RE AREN'T HAPPY WITH YOUR PARENTS , THEN WORK AND RENT A ROOM . GOSH . GROW UP INSTEAD OF BITCHING ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU HATE THEM WOULD YOU ?!

I seriously don't mind going into Entertainment Industry . LOL . FML , I didn't use a fucking cent on KPOP , you know . Now , I'm working for 3 reasons .

1 . Support my living expenses .
2 . Feed my kpop , jrock addiction .
3 . To prove people wrong .

I might be 14 , or 15 in Korea . But I don't have a brain of a 3 years old okay . I'm mature enough to choose the path I want . Parents and adults are fucking annoying when they said 'I've been your age . I know everything better than you .' Like WTH ?

We have a FUCKING GENERATION GAP , IN CASE YOU'RE TOO STUPID TO KNOW .

Fucking people are just trying to push me to the dead end where I commit suicide and die . -.- Well , FUCK YOU . I AIN'T THAT DUMB TO DO THAT !

And which part of 'I HAVE SCHOOL AND CCA AND IS WORKING' DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND ? FUCK YOU PEOPLE , SERIOUSLY . Gosh .

Why can't it be the June Holidays now ? I can work everyday . Can do 3 to 4 jobs . Can earn enough to support myself . Fuck uhh .

Start of the year only and I'm fucking piss . Fucker , I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU . LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE !This urge to kill you know . And today , I was actually laughing and giggling . <-- when I'm talking to Aida .

Fucking shit .

Of course there are times feel like crying my eyes out and cutting myself . But , HAH . I won't be that weak . I'm not going to go down on my kneels and beg for forgiveness or whatever shit . JUST DIE . Hmpf .

That was the 12/13 In korea years old me . I'm like 14/15(in korea) already . I have my own brain . So shit you , and fuck off .

Shall go spam myself with happy thoughts . -.- FML .

To those that actually read my blog , well good for you . LOL .
Thanks for reading .

Ohh and , I'm starting work tomorrow . Giving it my best shot . -rolls-

Rolling Around ; A idea lost in mind . XD

2011-01-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Title : RANDOM SHIT OKAY ! XDD HAHAHAHAH . LOL . Its sooo funny . I got a idea for a story and then .. Guess what ! :D I FORGOT ! :DDDD -slap self- So irritating . UGHHHH . -.- FML . -bang wall-

Went out with Namiko and Yui just now . Suppose to be this 'Syncronize -Reforming ' outing . :DDDD Band name from Syncronize change to RedAlice . DON'T ASK , I have no idea why also . XD LMAO .

Namiko : LETS ALL IT RED !
Yui : ALICE !
NAMIKO : RED RED RED RED RED
Yui : ALICE !
Apple : Just call RedAlice .

LOL . And thats what happen . LMAO , HAHAHAHAHAH . So now , we are RedAlice instead of Syncronize . Aigoo . Anyway , today's outing ? FAIL . MAJOR FAIL , I TELL YOU ! SUPA DUPA FAIL !

Yui got piss and went home . Ohhh well , me and Namiko continue looking for CNY clothes . This girl uhh , show her so many and she end up buying only one ! XDD LOL . We bought the same thing , a leopard print dress . ITS SO CHIO OKAY . XDD AHAHAHAH .

My eyes are so irritated just now . Now supa pain . -.- UGHH , all thanks to the makeup . Finally took it off . My face feel so 'VWAH-LA' fresh . LMAO . HAHAHAHAHA .

Took Neoprints with Namiko and Yui just now . Super funny . Then , took again with Namiko only . Got one I like so much . VERY VERY MUCH ! But uhh , it look so lesbian . XDD HAHAHAH . LEMME SHOW YOU .

I'm the one with the black jacket . XDD The other girl is Namiko . SO LESBIAN-ISH RIGHT ? XDDD HAHAHAHA . But I like ehhh . Some pictures make my eyes so SUPER BIG and so ugly . LOL . Others look very normal . :DDDD Overall , not bad . XDDD HAHAHAHAAH

Drank Koi for the FIRST TIME ! :D Peach Green Tea , but to me it taste like Milk tea . LOL . Namiko's Icecream milk tea <-- I think , taste like Coffee . XDD LOL . She said I taste-bud got problem . LOL . I DON'T OKAY ! D<

Came home , almost miss my stop . XDD Talk to Namiko until want sleep le. ZZZzzz . Then watch MusicCore performances for today .

TVXQ'sHomin , CHANGMIN . CAN YOU JUST FREAKING UNBUTTON THAT LAST BUTTON ?! OHMYGODSUN , I'M DYING TO SEE THOSE ABS . UGHHHHH , YOU KNOW HOW HIGH I AM WATCHING THE GODDAMN PERFORMANCE ? I'M LIKE 'CHANGMIN CHANGMIN CHANGMIN CHANGMIN CHANGMIN CHANGMIN . I WANNA SEE THOSE ABS ' . XDDD YUNHO IS SO AWESOMELY SEXY . OHMYGODSUN , SOOOO AWESOME . THATS WHAT YOU GET FROM THE FOREVER SO AWESOME TVXQ'S LEADER ! ;DDD YUNHO , SARANGHAE ~ ;DDD

Then , TEENTOP ! :DDDD Was spamming Chunji , Changjo and L.Joe's name on twitter . XDD HAHAHA . Chunji is so handsome , he is climbing up to third place . :DDDD Changjo's part ; Spamming twitter with this 'CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO CHANGJO ' . XDDD HAHAAHAHA . Yes , I'm crazy . XDD Then L.Joe , SO HOT UHH . HIS SEEM-TO-BE-SMIRK IS HELLA SEXY ! XDDD Ending is so hawt ~

Lastly , POPSICLE . I SAW A FREAKING JAYRAM MOMENT . HOLYSHYT , SO CUTTTEEEEEE . JAYRAM FOREVER ! -SUPPORTS- I swear you know , Karam can be YunJae's long lost child . XDD AHAHA . He met Yunho and Changmin yesterday . SO AWESOME , I'm jealous yea ! Today's performance is like SUPER CUTE CAN . THEN , GOT ANOTHER MIKARAM MOMENT ! OHMYGODSUN ! Mika is so hot today . Joy was like 'EHEM' . XDD HAHAHAHAH

Then , I went to see Mika's Billionaire cover . SUPER CUTE CAN ! XDDD HAHAHAHA . Hyunmin was like 'I want to be a billionaire so ...... Pfffs' . XDD HAHAHAHA . Mika's english so awesome ! But can hear quite a lot of mistake . Those that didn't hear it can die or go clean your ear properly . -.- LOL . Sorry , being in Mr.Ben's english class . English will just somehow become so easy . LOL . What talking me ! ? -slap self-

Almost finish 2 albums . XDD LOL . I think this year , I'll confirm have a lot of albums . WHAT TO DO ? I'm a freaking camwhore ! XDDDD LOL .

Anywayyyyyyy , I hope that TeenTop will come to Singapore soon ! I wanna see them so freaking badly ! D: -cries forever- Come for both Fanmeeta & Fansign & Showcase . AWESOME TTVM OKAY ! XDDDD -screams- Like that will even happen . -rolls eyes- PFFFFFF , I can only dream uh ! TSK ! -cries forever-

But one day if they seriously come to singapore . I SWEAR I'LL STALK THEM ! XD I'm a part-time stalker that doesn't get pay , ya know ? XDD LOL . Looking for job . -rolls- SIAAAAAN .

Anyway , finish uploading my pictures . :DDDDDDD

Shall continue rotting on Twitter now ! :DDDDDDDDDDDD MISS ME ! XDD

Supa Luv !

2011-01-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

Let me spam like mad here . XDD Super high right now . XDD 3 things made me so happy like CRAZYY .

Cannot listen to 'Supa Luv' anymore . Not that I don't want to or not allow to , but its just that whenever Changjo's part come out . I'm like practically melting inside out ! XD I'm having breathing difficulties , you know ! XD

'La la la la la tell me that u love me, too
Deo chaja boassja ileon nyeoseog eobseo' No idea what it means , since I don't speak nor read korean . Scratch that , i don't understand Korean ! LOL . Anyway , ITS CHANGJO'S LINE . @#$%^&*()!@#$%&*(!@#$%&*( SO SEXY , I TELL YOU .

I watched the MV and scream . LOL . HAHAHAA . I KNEW TEENTOP IS GONNA MAKE MY DAY ! XD
Changjo have 17 words , both English and Korean included . XD HAHA . YES , I COUNTED ! :DDD My index number is 16 leh . Hmpf . LOL . Pauline is 17 . -jealous- WHOSE 22 ?!

Changjo is so sexy , like PLEASEEEEE . DENY IT , AND I'LL KILL YOU . AND I MEAN IT . HAH . I mean like , HOW CAN PEOPLE NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS BOY ? -screams-

Next ! :DDD L.JOE ! :D Aida remembers his name and him by this 'Blonde baby' . XD HAHAHA . I was like , 'L,JOE ! OHMYGODSUN . My blonde baby so hot .' XD LOL . He have 22 words , FULLY IN ENGLISH ! HELL , SO SEXYYYY . -screams and bang wall- Found some gifs , HOT TTVM ! -screams- SO HANDSOME .

HIS SMIRK AT THE ENDING . OHMYGODSUN , TRYING TO KILL ME IS IT ?! He might have pink hair but who cares . I'm still in love with him . Everytime I see him smirk , I feel that I JUST BETRAYED JAY ! DDDDD:

I'm loyal ! I'M LOYAL ! -chants-

Chunji wink twice okay . I SWEAR ! I SWEAR OKAY . I watch the MV like .. i think almost 5 times already . I SWEAR HE WINKED ! SO SEXY . Chunji is making me fall in love with him ! DDD: Cannot have too many bias , later I GG SIYAHHHH ! DDD: -cries forever- LOL . HAHAHAHAH

Changjo looked like he smirked . Not sure . HMMMMMMMMM . Still , hot ttvm ! :DDDD RICKY IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEE ! I feel like pinching his cheeks . LMAO . Even though I'm younger . But you know , ITS JUST THIS URGE ! URGHHHHH !

'Yeah, see what I’m trying to say baby, is your love ?
Plus my love, supa luv
You know you want it, how that sound ?' I SWEAR HE SMIRK ! I would love to show you a gif but HAH , I don't have one ! XD LOL . -slap self-

-rolls- Lemme continue this post to what happen today . LOL

I WENT FOR ELDDS ! :DDD First time ! :D So boring . But overall , still not bad bahs . All preparing for SYF . After march , ELDDS only once a week . Aigoo . The teacher ask me read louder . Apparently , I CAN'T ! DDD: I read very softly but can scream very loudly . LOL . -dies laughing-

The teacher called Serene my name . -.- LOL . Aida was like 'She's over there.' and point at me . LMAO . The teacher remembers my name , yo ! XDDD So proud ! XD I starved myself until I reach home . LOL , cooked maggie . -rolls-

Came home and watch videos . TVXQ's Homin performance . Ohmygodsunnnnnn . -cries forever- ILYTTVM . Forever my ultimate ! :D TVXQ FOR LIFE ! :D CASSIOPEIA JJANG ! TVXQ JJANG ! :DDDDDD

Then , watch Popsicle's live . WAAAHHHH , JAY ! *u* SOOOOOOOO AWEEESOMMMEEEE . (Y) (Y) (Y) I saw a Yaoi moment ! XDDD MIKARAM MOMENT ! CUTE TTVM ! XD

Then TeenTop , Uwalalala ~ Changjo killed me . XD L.Joe killed me . XD -rolls-

I'mmmaaa go rot on FB . XDD HAHAHAHAAH .

Tomorrow got Syncronize - now RedAlice - outing . Why they change name , I don't know also . LOL . Anywayy , TeenTop slow moving up my list . Fighting with UKISS for third . 1st will ALWAYS BE TVXQ -all 5- . :DDD Second is DGNA , will change or not - I DON'T KNOW ! Third is currently UKISS and TeenTop fighting . XD LOL

If TeenTop comes to Singapore . Maybe they will become third . UKISS become fourth . :D

Okayy , anyway . Time to go rot . XD

Mad-ness , a obsessed queen is a person with a hundred and one feeling .

2011-01-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so happy , depress and piss at the same time . I know , weird . I don't get it myself either ! UGHHH . Its so irritating !

Why am I piss ? I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA ! I just am piss ! @#$%^&*#&!$^!* So freaking irritating , can I just fucking die . -.- LOL , joking . Don't murder me . I'm such a nice kiddie ! XDD LOL .

Happy cause , lots of happy things happen . So I am suppose to feel happy right ? Teentop's comeback ! :D WOOTS ! L.JOE HAVE PINK HAIR ! -rolls and squeal- Still got what uhh ... Saw a few TVXQ articles . Broke my heart a little but there are still a few of it is happy ! :D THEN , KARAM ! :D CASSIOPEIA ! -screams- Karam , I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU . Simply because , he likes TVXQ ! :D HE LIKES YUNHO ! :D So , of course , i love him . :D

And then , Popsicle 'I'll love you until it snow in summer' MV . CUTE TTVM CAN !

Not sure , why depress lah . XD HAHHAAHAHHAHA . Noobshit . -slap self- Just feel like crying . Ohhh well .

Anywayy anwayy .

GUESS WHAT . L.JOE IS PINK ! XD HAHAHAHAHAHHA .

He look so AWESOME with pink hair , so handsome ~ *u* Muwahhahah ~ -flies to heaven- But I like his blonde hair better . Ehem , I love blondes . Ehem .

Changjo's hair is black with blonde highlights . WHICH I STRONGLY DISAGREE ! D< I love blondes but , Changjo looks so chubby ! D: Not that its a bad thing but it doesn't suit him very well . DDDD: I like it better when he have his 'Clap' period hair . So innocent uh ! XD

Niel's hair is . OMGSUN , SO SMEXY CAN !? I love the colour and the layering ! SO AWESOME ! NIEL , I LOVE YOUR HAIR ! -screams- The colour is so WOW , perfect ! Black with greyish-blonde ! :DDDD SO AWESOME , LIKE PLEASE !

Ricky's hair like .. SAME SAME LEH . No change de . Still , he look so shuai ! XDDD Handsome ttvm ! :D

Chunji's hair . -facepalm- I don't like . It shows his eyebrows . And makes it look very thick . Not a very good thing . I like the 'Clap' period one better . -nods nods- . But whatever , he is still good-looking . DON'Y YOU DARE DENY , I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU ! XD

C.A.P's hair . OMGSUN , kill me . It looks , simply HORRIBLE . GOSH , WHATS WITH ALL THE STYLIST THESE DAYS ?! DDDD; CAP DOESN'T SUIT THAT HAIR ! I mean , if you want to give him that hairstyle , AT LEAST MAKE IT BLONDE AND LOOK NICER RIGHT . D< Whats with blue and black bangs ? -.- Reminds me of LuanBing , that china dog . LOL . The 'Clap' period hair nicer . -nods nods- Anyway , he also very shuai . He gives off the 'cool' aura . :D Like i said , Deny anything . And I'll fucking kill you . ARGHHHH !

I'M A PIRATE YO ! XDD LOL . Tomorrow , MUSICBANK ! FUCK YES , POPSICLE , TVXQ'sHOMIN and TEENTOP . -screams and die- Jay + L.Joe + Changjo + TVXQ'sHomin = I'M IN HEAVEN . But if its Jay + L.Joe + Changjo + TVXQ (All 5) + UKISS = -melts- I'M IN HEAVEN WITH GOD RIGHT NOW ! XD

LOL , random shit . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . I'm cra-cra-crazy ~

L.Joe in Supa Luv have 22 words, all in english ! ! :D
Changjo have more than 10 words ! :DDDDDD FINALLY ! :D

L.Joe's smirk at the nearing the end of the performance is so hot ! Can die ! XDDD Ohh , I hope that Teentop will come singapore . I WANNA SEE THEM ! :D

DGNA , Teentop and TVXQ ! :D Come singapore ! :DDDDD But cannot all come at the same time , I'll die . You try , I confirm will stay at home and cry . LOL . XD

Anywayyy , tomorrow . I'm going for my FIRST session of ELDDS ! :D with Aida ! :D XDD That bitch keeps saying that L.Joe and Changjo look alike .

Well , FUCK NO THEY DON'T ! CHANGJO IS SLIGHTLY MORE CHUBBIER ! AND L.JOE LOOKS SO MUCH BETTER WITH BLONDE HAIR ! XDDD CHANGJO IS THE GUY WITH THE AWESOMELY CUTE AND INNOCENT FACE ! -screams- L.Joe looks more like a bad boy . Whatever it it , I STILL LOVE IT ! WOOTS .

And PS . I am NOT a Andromeda . :D I'm a CASSIOPEIA ! :D

Okkayy , BYE ! XDD

WITH LOVE AND COOKIES -like hell , I'm giving you -

ME . The obsessive queen with many emotions . XDD LOL . JK

BOOO-YEEEEAAAAAA

2011-01-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so random today . XDD LOLOL . DON'T ASK . XDDD I'm gonna post shit here anywayyy . HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA . Feeling random yet lazy . -rolls- SOOO LAZY , I don't feel like moving at all . -.- Yayyy , THATS ME . YOU GOT A FRIGGING PROBLEM WITH IT ? EVEN IF YOU DO , HAH . I DON'T GIVE A DAMN . -shot-

Okayy , I'm out of my mind . :D Myyy beautiful mind currently filled with L.Joe , Changjo , Chunji , Jay and TVXQ . -.- XDD AHAHAHAHAHAH . SOOO BEAUTIFUL . Why am I thinking about Changjo , L.Joe and Chunji ? Cause their SupaLuv teaser 3 . KAO , BLONDE SIYAH . -dies thinking about it -

Apparently , I LOVE BLONDES TO THE MAX ! XDD Let me tell you what happen today . The most stupidest thing ever . LOL . TRUST ME , YO ! XDDDD

(Time : 6.50-7.00AM , Location : School .)

Class door lock . What to do ? Stone outside . LOL . Few minutes later , Aida came .
Me : -stares- Aida .
Aida : Whut ?
Me : -starts screaming- OHMYGODSUN , L.JOE IS BLONDE !
Aida : Who ? O.O??
Me : TeenTop member . CHANGJO ALSO ! CHUNJI ALSO ! NIEL ALSO !
Aida : Whose TeenTop ?
Me : Band . Korea de .
Aida : Okayyy ....
Me : THEY'RE BLONDE YOU KNOW . 6 MEMBERS , 4 ARE BLONDES . OHMYGODSUN .
Aida : HAHAHAH . You're gonna die !
Me : SHUT UP , BLONDES I TELL YOU . BLONDES !

Perfect came and open the door for us , we lost the key okay . LOL .

Me : I need go water cooler .
Aida : Okay , -look at clock- Eh , 7.15 already . Must ask Mr.Ben
Me : -Throw bottle under the table- UGHHHH
Me : -continue talking about blondes while hitting Aida's thighs -
Aida : Okay , I get it . You love blondes .

LOL . EPIC RANDOMNESS . XDDDDDD

Was asked to be the Narrator just now . -.- Okay , too soft . Aida couldn't hear me . FML . OHHH and , I'M THE CARING CHIPMUNK ! ;DDDDD Which sounds so wrong , what me and Aida said . LOL .

Let me show you my favourite picture from yesterday's makeup try-out ! :DDDDD

SO AWESOME RIGHT ? XD My FB profile picture . But edit , darker and brighter colours and weirder . LOL .

Another one ! :D

NICE NICE ? XDDD Spend nearly an hour doing it . My eyes become outer double wor ! SOOOO AMAZING ! Cause mine is always Inner double .

SO AWESOME ! -screams- Shall do this makeup for Chinese new year ! :D BOOMZ ! XDDDDD LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL . So random . XDD WAKAKAKKAKA .

Anywayy , I need to go find TeenTop's photos . Esp , L.Joe . Told Aida I'll show her the blonde I'm talking about . XDDDD

Okayyy thennn , shall leave now ! :DDDD Miss me , yea ? XDDDD

LAST PHOTO !

BYE ! :D

The urge to bitch . LOL

2011-01-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

LOLOLOL , felt like bitching . Don't ask , I'm somehow pissed and I feel like bitching . And since my eyes are irritating me because of the makeup I applied . WHICH IS FREAKING AWESOME , KAYS .

My eyes turn -VERY Auto> into OUTER DOUBLE ! OHMYGODSUN , SCREAM ! My eyes are always inner double . MY EYES SO FREAKING BIG , I TELL YOU . HOLYSHIT ! XDDD -shot- Let me get random here . Tsk , its my blog after all . PUWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH .

Some morontic assholes are trending stupid stuff on twitter . -.- Like , WTH ? COME ON , GET A LIFE . HAH .

Ohhh yeaaaa , AIDA DIRTIED MY SHOES ! D; FUCK YOU , BITCH ! JUST DIE BEFORE I FUCKING MURDER YOU . LOL , joking . Its not like my shoes were clean in the first place . I think I never wash it for like at least HALF a year liao . <6 months> XDDD AHAHAHAHAAHHA .

Yes , fucking dirty . Fucking smelly . <--- NOT ! IT DOESN'T SMELL OKAY ! TSK . Should I wear my new shoe tomorrow ? NAHHHHH , later Aida dirty it . I'll seriously fucking murder a ant ! LOL

Regretted a poor boy . AT LEAST , MY REASON IS NICE OKAY . Its better than the 'I KNOW I'M SINGLE BUT I'M MARRIED/UNVAILABLE . SO FUCK OFF .' RIGHT ?! TSSSSK . MEAN ASSHOLES .

LOL , I DID MAKEUPPPPPPP . Forget about that bitching shit . Let me spam my makeup first , Waookao . SIBEI CHIO OKAY . MY MAKEUP , NOT ME . AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA .

Before I talk shit about makeup , YOU KNOW WHAT ? MATHS KILLED SO MANY OF MY BRAIN CELLS , MY BRAIN ISN'T WORKING PROPERLY ANYMORE . ;D

Almost fell asleep during maths class . Boring like fuck uh . Tomorrow got , LIT . Kao eh , Mr.Bald head again ! D: GOT MUSIC ! -screams- But who the hell is the teacher ? I DON'T KNOW . Hopefully is someone that knows Kpop . LOL . Or jrock ! REITASAMA ! *u* -spazz-

Waahhh , you know . Cloney , Syu , Danica and Delphina took their O'levels results . This year O'level like SIBEI hard can . Cloney and Delphina cannot go Poly ! D: -cries-

Super stress about O'levels RIGHT NOW . Before that , worries about N'level first . KAO EH , IF FAIL . I COMMIT SUICIDE AND DIE LAH . Joking Joking . Must study hard wor , FIGHTING !

Aigoo , listening to Hikaru Yaotome . Don't know what song . LOL . Needa take my makeup off soon . SIAAAAAAANNNNN . I TAKE 1 HOUR DO DE LEHHHH . NASAI . D<

Let me camwhore more and more then come back with picture spam . XDDD ON FB . LOLOLOL . Random shit . -slap self-

Finally a random post after all those 'emotional breakdown' post . HAHAHAHHAHAHAAH .

I decided to ignore everything , buy albums , watch MVs and everything . :D I believe in Junsu , I believe in TVXQ ! :D COME BACK UHHHH .

Waaaahhhhh , Tomorrow wake up what time lehhh . 5.30am again ? Okay , can ! :DDD Then , shall sleep early today ! :D Cause everyday only got like 4hour plus of sleep nia . SIAN LIKE SHIT OKAY . Tsk .

I know Idols more worst , but . EH , I GROWING OKAY . DON'T LIKE THAT COMPARE HOR ! -shot- Talking rubbish again .

Tomorrow got PE , DIE DIE MUST REMEMBER TO BRING PE . Shall pack it before I sleep ! :DDDDDDDDD YESSSH , I NEVER DO HOMEWORK ! :D

Tomorrow no maths , shall do tomorrow . And do revision tomorrow . Cannot change plan leh , OR NOT I GG LEHHHHH . -cries forever- LOL .

OWEnt , where's my calender ? DDD: DGNAsg , WHERE MY FUCKING CALENDER ? DDDD; -cries- So shitty , LOL .

Currently on a Jpop/rock spam ! :DDDD JASMINE YOU IS SO CHIO ! D: -cries forever- COME BACK TO LIVE , PLEASSSEEEEEE .

I show youu uhh .

SEEEEEEE , ALL JASMINE YOU . AND HE IS A GUY ! D; I MISS YOU SO MUCH . First picture is him with light make up .

Second one if WITHOUT makeup . Last one is with THICK makeup . Sibei chio uh , can .

Waokao , I miss him a lot ! DDDD: JASMINE ! D: My beautiful beloved bassist ! I LOVE LOVE LOOOOVVVEEEE YOUUUUU SO FUCKING MUCH . And he is only like 32Y.O this year ! D: SO YOUNG !

Aigoo , shall be back later . I go camwhore . XDD AHAHAHHAHAHA

Keep Your Head Down , even better , FUCK OFF .

2011-01-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm practically pissed off to the max . SO FUCKING PISS OKAY . Tsk .

What happen from Somewhere around 10AM to 4.50pm .
1 . Woke up
2 . Saw the article on Allkpop
3 . So freaking piss I went to watch Shota Yaoi , which i admit is AWESOME .
4 . Think about Jasmine You , my beloved bassist . T_T
5 . Cried a little . Because of Jasmine You .
6 . Went back to my yaoi . LOL
7 . Watch Homin's performance , AWESOME SHIT ! Just that the suits are weird . LOL
8 . Search the web cause I'm bored .
9 . Saw something about the article i read .
10 . I'm piss again while listening to KYHD . -.-

WARNING : BITCHY-NESS ALERT . OBVIOUSLY RIGHT . THIS TIME , I'M SERIOUSLY SO BITCHY , I CAN KILL SOME ONE .

Tsk , Eunhyuk . TSK . Whats wrong with you . I posted a fucking long post yesterday to show my disappointment about ShinDong and Sungmin , BoA and that Jungmo guy . <-- Who the hell is he anyway ? LOL .

Now , this shit . Eunhyuk , are you like .. stupid or something ? Is it really necessary to tell THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD WHICH SIDE YOU'RE TAKING ? Its pretty obvious even if you didn't tell us .

SMEnt artist DO NOT take JYJ as 'Family' anymore . Its so clear and for those who can't see it , you're dumb . Seriously DUMB . Tsk .

I hate bashing SJ members , WHY ? CAUSE I HAVE 4 FUCKING BIAS IN THERE . Tsk . Maybe I'll minimize it to 1 . The awesomely cute guy . AND FUCK , HE IS NOT FROM MAIN GROUP .

All of a sudden , I feel that its a good thing that I DO NOT support SJ . Never did , never will . I'm not a goddamn ELF . I admit it okay , I'M NOT A ELF . AND I'M NOT PART OF YOUR FUCKING FAMILY THAT YOU MENTION . LeeTeuk and JaeJoong ' Elfs and Cassies are a family . Just like how DBSK and SJ are brothers ' . <--- WTF ? .

Sorry , But I'M FUCKING TURNING MY BACK ON ELFS AND SJ . Brothers ? JaeJoong-ah , don't be naive . The only brothers you can have is those that are with you through the tough times . The only people that you show your weak side to , the only people that never left you . AND NOT PEOPLE WHO TAKE SIDES OF THOSE UNDER THE SAME COMPANY AS THEM WHEN TROUBLES ARISE .

Why can't Eunhyuk , Shindong and Sungmin be like Kyuhyun , Heechul and whoever else that have twitter ? MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND FUCK OFF .

If this is a fight , ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR . Junsu , ALONE , to fight against how many ? 3 Members of SJ , BoA and that trax guy . And than the other guy . AND ANOTHER GUY . There another one also . 8

LIKE WTH ? 8 AGAINST 1 . FUCK YOU PEOPLE , ESP BOA . JUST DIE . You said their your family . DON'T MAKE ME FUCKING LAUGH . BOA SHOULD JUST DIE IN REPLACEMENT OF JASMINE YOU . OHH , THAT WILL BE SO AWESOME . AT LEAST , I'LL HAVE MY AWESOME BASSIST BACK RATHER TO SEE THAT FUCKING BITCH FACE .

As you know , a lot of you , I dislike Justin Bieber . Gross maxs . EEEEWWWWW . The plastic bottle accident , I'LL DO IT TO YOU , BOA . BUT INSTEAD OF PLASTIC BOTTLES , I'LL USE ROCKS AND BREAK THAT PLASTIC FACE OF YOUR'S .

Shindong , lose some weight . LOL . Sungmin , quit that cute act . Eunhyuk , just go back being gay with Donghae . -.- I actually took the FUCKING TIME TO GO MEMORIZE THE MEMBERS KNOW . DARN YOU .

LEAVE MY POOR JUNSU ALONE , YOU SHITTY PEOPLE . YOU SAID HE DIDN'T THINK ABOUT YUNHO'S FEELINGS . 8 AGAINST 1 , YOU FUCKING PEOPLE DIDN'T THINK ABOUT HIS ! If Junsu is heartbroken , in depression and other negative stuff . I swear , SJ . I SWEAR I'LL THROW ROCKS AND EVERYTHING ELSE AT YOU WHEN YOU COME TO SINGAPORE . 30TH JANUARY , BITCH . FUCK YOU .

Why do I care about Junsu so much ? Thats cause , how many of you people are siding him ? Thinking about his feelings ? NONE . AND YOU CALL YOURSELF FAMILY . HAH , FUCK YOU . I know how it feels to be in depression . OHH , I KNOW .

If anything happens to Junsu , just him , I think I'll be in depression . And if you tell me that its official that TVXQ continue without the 3 , I SWEAR I NEED A DOCTOR FOR MEDICATIONS .

I'm like crazily studying because of TVXQ . JaeJoong stop his studies in High School right ? I'M CRAZILY STUDYING LIKE FUCK .

And also , I'm disappointed with TVXQ .

You taught me to love , keep the faith , believe , forgive and forget and everything . Then , WHAT SHIT IS THIS ? YOU'RE NOT BEING A EXAMPLE .

WHAT EXAMPLE YOUR SHOWING IS THIS : 'OH , I HATE YOU SO MUCH . JUST DIE . I DON'T BELIEVE YOU AND I WON'T FORGIVE YOU NEITHER WILL I FORGET WHAT YOU CAUSE ME .' WTH .

If you want me to learn from you , SET AN EXAMPLE FOR ME THEN . IF THIS CONTINUE , I'LL SLOWLY START TO LOSE THE FAITH THAT I'VE BEEN KEEPING FOR A GODDAMN LONG TIME .

WAS I WRONG IN TAKING YOU GUYS FOR THE GROUP I LOVE MOST ? WAS I WRONG TO TAKE YOU AS A GOOD EXAMPLE ?

YUNHO , CHANGMIN . I'M SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU . JUNSU IS BEING ATTACK BY THESE CRAZY DOGS YET YOU ARE SAYING NOTHING . Are you mute ? Open your mouths and speak up .

I want the fucking truth and nothing else .

AND JYJ , are you willing to go back if SMEnt change their contract ? Speak up , STOP BEING BABIES . Cassiopeia will be there , BUT FOR HOW LONG ? We have our lives to live also .

AND I SERIOUSLY THINK ITS TIME FOR ME TO STOP CRYING AND GO OUT AND PLAY . -.- FUCK THIS SHIT .

SMENT , WHATEVER PLAN YOU HAVE , STOP IT . I SERIOUSLY HAVE THIS URGE TO SET THE WHOLE FUCKING BUILDING ON FIRE . KILLING YOU AND YOUR ARTIST , EXPECT HOMIN . BURNING YOU ALIVE , THAT WILL BE SO FUCKING AWESOME .

HEAR YOU SCREAM AND YELL TO GOD TO BE FORGIVE , FUCK YOU . EVEN IF GOD FORGIVES YOU SHITTY PEOPLE , I FUCKING WON'T . YOU MADE MY DEAR BOYS GO THROUGH ALL THIS SHITTY STUFF . FUCK YOU , SMENT .

FUCKINGLY DIE AND DISAPPEAR FROM THEIR LIVES .

AND TO THE OTHER IDOLS , GET A LIFE WILL YOU ? STOP STICKING YOUR NOSE INTO TVXQ'S ISSUE . FUCK YOU .

When the fuck will I be able to post happy shit on the blog instead of all this ? SHIT YOU . JUST FUCKING HELL DIE .

Fuck off , bitch .

Fucked Up . -.-

2011-01-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

Warning : Anti-ness towards SUPER JUNIOR and BoA . And obviously , SMENT . You got a problem with it , then FUCK OFF . SCRAM . YOU'RE NOT FUCKING NEEDED HERE .

Warning : Bitchy-ness , rude-ness . Anything that applies to being a damn fucked up pissed woman . Bias-ness towards both parties might show .

Was reading articles on Allkpop and I'm fucking piss . And prepare ELFs , ESP SHINDONG BIAS . I'm GOING TO FUCKING BASH LIKE FUCK . NOT HAPPY , FUCK OFF .

Junsu tweeted . GOSH , WILL YOU JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET THE BOY HAVE HIS FREEDOM TO TWEET !? ARE YOU FUCKING PEOPLE TRYING TO STOP HIM FROM TWEETING ? LET ME TELL YOU , IF THAT EVER HAPPEN . AND I FIND OUT WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE , I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF YOUR A IDOL OR WHATEVER SHIT , I SWEAR TO MY SOUL . I'LL BASH YOU LIKE FUCK .

Junsu tweeted . A series of emotional tweets , at least thats what they said , in responds to Yunho's 'Thanks to' Message . Not sure if YOU'RE BLIND OR PLAIN STUPID . I don't see the name 'Yunho' in the GODDAMN TWEETS . Maybe he is indirectly saying Yunho , but he might ALSO BE SAYING SOMEONE ELSE RIGHT ? STUPID OR WHAT .

I'm no trying to side JYJ . But seeing that so many people is siding Homin and is like indirectly commenting on Junsu . MAJOR HEARTACHE YOU KNOW .

ShinDong's tweet : Enemy (敵): An opponent who wants to fight or hurt another.

Ingratitude (背恩忘德): An attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to someone and betraying them.

In other words, saying that my family wants to fight or hurt another is an attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to them and betraying them!”

^^^^ STUPID . Enemy : Someone you fucking hate so much you want to kill them .

Ingratitude : Not grateful .

In other words : Shindong is trying to said that Junsu is a enemy and is ungrateful . -.- In other words , Shindong doesn't like Junsu . Jeez , seriously need to write until so much not ? STUPID OR WHAT .

YOU SURE FAMILY ? IF ITS FAMILY , WHY THE FUCKING HELL ARE YOU DOING THIS ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF HOW JYJ FEEL ABOUT LEAVING ? DO YOU ? FUCK HELL , NO . SUPER JUNIOR DIDN'T EVEN GO THROUGH THIS FUCKING PAINFUL MOMENT OKAY . FUCK YOU , SHINDONG .

Family . DON'T MAKE ME FUCKING LAUGH . THE ONE FUCKING FAMILY YOU HAVE IS ONCE YOU GET FUCKING MARRIED . GET FUCKING MARRIED AND LEAVE SUPER JUNIOR .

What my mom said : Super Junior disbanding what . The fat one getting married mah .

I ACTUALLY DEFENDED YOU FUCKERS . NOW , I'M FUCKING HELL REGRETTING IT . I don't care how good of a husband you can be . I DON'T GIVE A FUCK .

From Sungmin : “After keeping it in after sometime, I’m leaving this message because I feel this has gone too far. Does (he) not remember the old days when we said we’d work hard together? We were happy even when we were practicing. Did (he) really forget the times when we thought going on broadcast even just once felt like a dream? I’d like it if (he) could look in the mirror once again and think whether (he) has forgotten his rookie mindset~ I understood and forgave them for leaving us without a single word so they could find their own paths, but I don’t know why they are making fools out of people who are quietly doing well by saying all kinds of these absurd lies and hurtful sayings.”

ANOTHER FUCKING PASSAGE I FEEL LIKE LAUGHING AT . Gone too far ? Fucker , I think you're the one that have gone too far . Junsu didn't mention names . He could be talking about somebody else . HOW THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW THAT HE IS TALKING ABOUT YUNHO ? HUH ? FUCKER , TELL ME ARH . Junsu didn't - at least , i think- forget the rookie mindset and whatever shit you stated up there . For some reason , I THINK YOU DID .

1 . You said you LOVE your fans SO MUCH . And I wonder how many percent is that . 50% ? Or IS IT LESSER ? Sungmin , YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING FUCKER THAT ONLY KNOWS HOW TO GO AEGYO . FUCKING DISGUSTING . YOU THINK IT SUITS YOU . YOU THINK EVERYBODY LOVES YOU FOR IT . WELL , YOU'RE FUCKING WRONG . ITS SO FUCKING DISGUSTING I CAN PUKE SEEING YOUR FACE .

And Sungmin . WHAT THE FUCKING HELL SHIT DO YOU MEAN BY ' but I don’t know why they are making fools out of people who are quietly doing well by saying all kinds of these absurd lies and hurtful sayings.' ?! WHO THE HELL IS MAKING A FOOL OF THEMSELVES . I'LL TELL YOU WHO . YOU ARE MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF . YOU'RE BEING SO STUPID FOR POSTING THIS .

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK OF HOW MANY ELFS READ THIS . BUT I'M FUCKING PISS AND I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING CARE .

YOU SAID PEOPLE WHO ARE QUIETLY DOING WELL . WELL , LET ME REMIND YOU . JYJ CAN'T DO ANY FUCKING PROMOTING , THEY DON'T GET TO GO ON VARIETY SHOWS AND THEY FUCKING PAY FOR THEIR OWN CONCERTS IN US . CAN YOU DO THAT ? YOU HAVE FUCKING 13 MEMBERS -or less- WELL , THEY ONLY HAVE 3 .

GET YOUR FUCKING MIND STRAIGHT BEFORE I SERIOUSLY TURN ANTI AGAINST YOU .

and LIES ? WHAT LIES ? I don't see them telling any lies . Junsu didn't even answer to the question asked in the Interview . HE SIMPLY SAID 'TIME UP ' AND LEFT . YOU SAID LIES ? FUCK YOU . And hurtful stuffs ? WHO HURT WHO FIRST ? THEY MADE THEIR DECISION TO LEAVE . OH , AND YOU THINK ITS EASY ? I'M SURE HANGENG TOOK A WHOLE FUCKING LONG TIME TO DECIDE IT . AND YOU PEOPLE DEBUTED ONLY FOR 5 YEARS . TVXQ HAVE TO HELD EVEYTHING THEY FEEL FOR A WHOLE GODDAMN 7 YEARS .

HURTFUL STUFF ? I'M PRETTY SURE , TVXQ IS HURT . AND SUNGMIN , YOU ARE IN NO FUCKING RIGHT TO SAID STUFF LIKE THAT . SHIT YOU . SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE .

AND THAN , BOA . I ALWAYS HATED YOU . FOR SOME REASON . AND WHEN MY IMPRESSION OF YOU STARTED TO CHANGE , YOU DESTROY IT AGAIN . THANKS A FUCKING LOT . SHIT YOU , BITCH . I GOT THIS GODDAMN FEELING THAT YOU NEVER LIKED TVXQ . FUCKING BITCH . YOU'RE NOT PRETTY . TAEYEON IS SO MUCH BETTER . FUCK YOU .

I'm not going to said anything about Homin or JYJ . So , get over with my post .

Unhappy , I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN . PEOPLE HAVE BEING SIDING HOMIN . AND NOBODY THINKS FOR JYJ . I DON'T KNOW WHY HOMIN WANTS TO STAY THERE BUT I KNOW THAT JYJ HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG .

AND TO THOSE FREAKING CASSIOPEIANS . GOSH , YOU ACTUALLY CALL YOURSELF CASSIES ? JUST DIE . SERIOUSLY . WHATS WITH THE 'JYJ FANS , GET OUT . THIS IS ONLY FOR HOMIN FANS' . WTH . -.- SERIOUSLY , GET A LIFE WOULD YOU .

IF YOU LOVE THEM AS TVXQ . THAN GET ALONG AND WE CAN FIX THIS . BUT NO , YOU'RE GIVING SMENT A FUCKING CHANCE TO ATTACK ON JYJ . THANKS A LOT , FUCKERS .

I don't know what happen to the 'Always Keep The Faith' . and 'I love you and support you as 5 even until I die .' WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN TO IT . TELL ME , YOU BLOODY FUCKERS .

Jeez , SO FUCKING PISS .

I'M GOING TO GO BACK TO TWITTER AND ROT THERE .

SEE YA , FUCKERS .

Annyeong ~

2010-12-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

Ehelloooooo ~ Have been a long long time since I blog something ~
Aww , Blogger . I MISS CHUUUUU .

WARNING : GAYNESS ALERT ~

Anyway , was busy reading my Yaoi Manga . Hot max .

Can never forget my belove blonde Kajimoto Takato-Sama ! :D LOLOLOLOLOL . Anyway , I'm crazy in love with blonde . Of course , HOT BLONDE ASIA GUYS ! :D MOST BE ASIA . Why ? Cause blonde asia are SEXXXYYYYYY ~

Example ? JAEJOONG ! :D HELL YESH , HE IS SEXY LIKE HELL ! In Balloons MV . Ohmygodsun , I almost died ~ HAHAHAHAHHAHAH . I'm serious .

Anyway , was watching Gravitation a few days ago . And , OHMYGODSUN . TOHMA-SAMA ! That hot sexy blonde ~ *u* -Souls fly away-

Read A LOT of Yaoi Manga . Since my holidays are ending -which sucks like ttvm- I'm gonna rot away in my room reading manga until I'm happy . :D Ofc , I'll keep myself update on Kpop .

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ! GazettE ISH COMING BACK WITH A 'BEST-OF' ALBUM ! HELL YES , REITA-SAMA ! :DDDDDDDDD I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU . Ohmygodsun , I love you Reita-Sama !

Okay , back to whatever I'm talking about . LOL ! Can't wait for JYJ to release the Korean Album ~ -Squeal- Heard the teasers for the songs . Can't wait to hear the full song of NINE !

Ordered HoMin's Keep Your Head Down special and normal version ~ :D Next year is going to be a hard one . Ugh ...

BigBang's Top and GD VS TVXQ's HoMin . I already know what will happen to me . I'll cry like fuck . -.- Yes , I'LL CRY LIKE CRAZY AND THAN GO TO SCHOOL WITH MY EYES RED AND SWOLLEN . :D Sorry , TOP and GD . But I support TVXQ .

Afterall , they are my love . <3 Like seriously , I've been in love with them longer than I've been liking BigBang . In fact , I don't really like them . I'm only bias to TOP . LOLOLOLOLOLOOLOLLOLOOLLO .

Anyways , TVXQ's fan are AWESOME . They donated 2,000,000+ won to charity under the name of 'TVXQ's International fans' . And than , YooChun's fanclub filled with womans age about 30+ to 50+ ? donated money to charity under YooChun's name . Awww , ain't that awesome !

Cassiopeia , JJANG ! :D

Aish , Seriously miss the boys a lot . D: TVXQ , please come back . Right now , everything about me is TVXQ . My laptop wallpaper is TVXQ . My phone wallpaper is TVXQ . My pencil case have badges of their names , I'm missing one D: . And my phone strap is DONGBANGSHINKI in Kranji . :D My MSN name have TVXQ . The layout is TVXQ . My DP is JaeJoong . My LJ dp is Junsu ~ My blog is TVXQ ~ HAHAHAHAH Can't remember anymore . -shot-

Anywayyy , I have a exam this friday ~ Awwww . A Korean exam . Shitty . And I'm not sure if I can even continue taking Korean . Since my father said school reopening soon . T_T And I don't have enough money to pay for it my own . D: I NEED A JOB ! HOLYSHIT , SERIOUSLY NEED ONE .

And , nobody wants to buy my SHINee albums . T_T SUCKERS . I ONLY PLAYED THEM LIKE ONCE . Juliette album is neatly keep inside the plastic . Tsk , SUCKERS . BUY FROM ME . They are all at $17SGD ONLY ! D:

TSK . I have got no more Yaoi manga to read . Love Rental ISH SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE . I still like Junk!Boys best . CAUSE KAJIMOTO-SEMPAI ISH IN IT . THAT FREAKING HOT BLONDE BABY GUY . KYAHHHHHHHHHH .

Okay , shall stop here before I start ranting on rubbish . LOLOLOLOLOL .

I miss Syncronize band practice . LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL . Can't wait to get my wigs ~ :D

Oh well , BYYEEE .

Oh wait , before I end this post .

Is it only me or is everyone the same ? Everytime I listen to 'Go Away' by 2NE1 I'll feel like crying . D: Suck balls . I'm serious . I'll feel like crying and sometimes I REALLY CRY ! D:

And , OHMYGODSUN . I GOT A NEW PHONE ! :DDDDD Its a blackberry Curve . I WANT A BLACKBERRY BOLD 9700 ! D; Tsk , better than nothing .

Okay , BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
Miss me , yea ? XDDDD LOL

TVXQ's 7th Anniversary .

2010-12-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

A special post for the boyband I love the most . :D

It has already been 7 years since they debut . On this special day , 26 December . Fate and destiny bought them together . God made them real . Parents raised them up , trainers trained them throughly .

With their debut song 'Hug' , they capture hearts of many people which as known as Cassiopeia . I might them have been a Cassiopeia for a very long time . Its probably only a year or 2 . I'm not sure , it also feels like it was just yesterday I've become a Cassiopeia .

I had to overcome many things as a Cassiopeia . I had to argue with close one over them . I cried countless time because of them . I every thought of suicide , thinking that 'What if they really won't come back as 5 ?' . Many things went through my mind as I think of all this . My heart hurts , it hurts a lot .

While writing this , I just want you to know . I'm crying at the same time . As a Cassiopeia , I shed many tears . Of both Joy and pain .

On Christmas , my cousin told/asked me this 'They wouldn't even remember you . So why spend so much money on them ?' I replied her 'Thats .. true .' I couldn't be bother to reply her and explain every single thing .

She wouldn't understand my feelings . Afterall , she isn't a Cassiopeia .

At times when I'm sick or having a hard time , I would think of TVXQ . Thoughts like 'I wonder if they are okay . ' , 'Hope they are eating on time . ' , 'Hope they get enough sleep ' , 'They better not work-over themselves' . Things like this run through my mind .

TVXQ means a lot to me and of course , I love them a lot .

Of course , they did made me hate them for a few moment . Why ? They made me cry so much my eyes are red and swollen . I won't be pretty anymore ! D: LOL , okay . I'm joking . But no matter how much I told my heart that I have to forget them . I can't do that . Because whatever that happens in my life will somehow , one way or another , relate to them .

I'm obsessed , I admit . Cassiopeia is the longest fandom I've been involved . I'm proud to be a Cassiopeia .

As long as you keep singing and dancing , I'll forever be your Cassiopeia . This doesn't sound really right .

As long as you believe in us , Cassiopeia . And continue to reach towards your dreams , I'll continue to be your Cassiopeia . I'll continue to be your Red Ocean , I'll continue to love you .

TVXQ is important to me , they taught me a lot of things about life .

They taught me how to LOVE

They taught me how to BELIEVE

They taught me how to LAUGH

They taught me how to SMILE

They taught me how to FORGIVE

They taught me how to NEVER GIVE UP

and most importantly ,

They taught me how to ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH .

I don't know why SMEnt wants to break up these perfect guys .

Thank you , God . Thank you for sending this beautiful perfect angels down to earth , for us . Thank you for making this real .

This journey that TVXQ and Cassiopeia is walking is a long one . But we will continue walking forward together . You'll always have my support . I'm proud to be part of the red Ocean .

Dear TVXQ ,

I know that you won't read this or what so ever . But I'm still going to write it . Thank you for being part of my life . Thank you for teaching me things about life . Please continue believing in us , Cassiopeia . Don't be afraid to fall for we will be here to catch you and push you forward .

We will hold up our red light sticks and wave it towards the sky , we will continue to support you no matter what happen . We will continue to love you no matter how much tears we shed .

Oppa , to us . You're perfect . I know that there is not such thing as 'perfect' in this world . But you simply are perfect . Or at least 99% perfect . Others might use your flaws to irritate you or turn against you . But I will accept both your flaws and talents . Because I love you .

You guys are amazing . You're beautiful , you can sing , You're so handsome , you're so humble , so caring , so kind , so friendly , so nice , so hardworking . The list can go on forever and ever . You're simly GOD-LIKE .

You make my heart beat so fast in my chest , its so hard to breathe . I cried at the slightest thing , my heart ache at the 'seems-to-be-stupid' things . But its because of you that I'm having all this feelings .

Back than , I still remember that ... I was a heartless girl . I don't show expression expect for pissed and upset . I was the kind of girl that everybody fear . But after knowing TVXQ , i changed completely . Of course , i sometime can be mean and heartless . But its a total different story now .

I love you and don't want to let you go . I might be selfish but thats just because I'm so crazy in love with you I'm going crazy .

Oppa , come back as 5 and make my sky look brighter . Please ?

You're the sunlight of my life , the brightest stars in the night sky .

Oppa , I love you .

With love ,

From : A Cassiopeia of this blog .

Happy 7th Anniversary , TVXQ ! :D I love you .

I'll always keep the faith , just like how you taught me .

Always Keep The Faith ,
Cassiopeia .

(PS. this Cassiopeia IS THE BLOG OWNER . :D Which is ME !)

Merry Christmas ! :D

2010-12-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

Christmas is ending soon ~ In another few hours and it'll be ALL over ! Haish .

I got like ..5 presents ? LOL !

My aunt - that i called mom- bought me headphones . AND ITS RED ! OHMYGODSUN ! YES , RED HEADPHONES ! Love it so much that I'm already using it . XDD HAHAHAHA . But yea , seriously love it .

My second aunt bough me a Jumpsuit . LMAO . Those flowery flowery one's . Hell , I don't wear those kind of clothes . Maybe I will . For Chinese new year ! XD Since my grandma likes to see us wearing clothes like this . I'll consider about it . LOL ! HAHAHHAHA

My third aunt bough me ...... EYE SHADOW ! :DDDDD Awesommeeeeeee . I got a new eye shadow ! The colour is niceee ! :DDD

My uncle's wife bought me a hairband . Black with small pink roses . LOL . Wearing it now . Ohh well , it suits me quite well I guess ? Shall wear it to Korean Class ! :DDDD HEHEHHEEHEHEHEH .

One of my cousin bought me .... EYELINER FROM KOREA . YAYYYYYYYYYY . :DDDDDD -shot- LOOLOLOLOLLOLOLOOL .

ANNNDDDD , i got this small blue Santa hat that is BLUE in colour . HAHAHAHHAHA . Okayy , weird . IT LIGHTS UP ALSOOOOOOOO . TAHA .

HMMM , nothing else .

BYEBYE !
MICKY CHRISTMAS ! :DDDDDDD

Merry Christmas ? Not for me .

2010-12-25T14:59:00.000+08:00

Helloooooooo . My blog ! So of course I'll be posting shit here .

WARNING : BITCHYNESS AND SHIT WILL BE POSTED IN THIS POST .

Tsk , I know its only afternoon . But I SERIOUSLY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE . Early in the afternoon 12PM , I'm already fucked up piss . Now , its getting worst .

Such a Christmas . Fucking shit . If it wasn't Christmas , I would probably be outside with some other people . Better yet , ask Aida out to the library and rot there . Tsk , fucking shit .

Why am I so piss ?

1. I greeted my uncle - who is so fuckingly fucked up that he should seriously get a life - . And he ignored me , giving me that fucked up face . FINE . You don't answer me . I won't bother greeting you anymore . I DID THAT BEFORE AND I CAN DO IT AGAIN . Fucking asshole . Last time said I rude , never call you . I call you , you ignore me . WHAT FUCKING SHIT IS THIS ? NABEI , GO DIE LAH .

2. They took my fan away . GOSH , MY AIR-CON SPOIL ALREADY LEH . The windows are close cause its raining . AND THEY TOOK MY FAN AWAY . WTF ? How can I be happy like this ? ALREADY FEELING SO EMO SINCE 12PM . YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST MAKING IT WORST .

Had to make myself happy by watching the 'hahaha song' video by DBSK . Then , THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT WORST . SHIT THIS CHRISTMAS . FUCKING SHIT . EVERYBODY SHOULD JUST DIE . They should really learn to leave me alone .

Hah , FUCK YESH . My attitude is getting worst by the years , months , weeks , days , minutes , seconds . They said people change . AND I'M CHANGING FOR THE BETTER . FUCK YESH . If you don't know what I mean , its okay also . LOL

Anyway , shall continue bitching later at night .

Have a Micky Christmas ! :D

REMEMBER TO TAG ME BEFORE LEAVING OR I'LL BITE YOU !

Christmas ~

2010-12-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

Its CHRISTMAS ! YESHHH . Sorry for the late Christmas morning post ~ Tsk , I mean .. its 2.17AM ! LMAO ! HAHAH !

Anyway ~ I'm so bored ! D: No warning for this one . Maybe just some crazy fangirling shit . XDD HAHAHAHAHHAHA !

Rushed back on from Jurong Point , got home at 12KST . Rush to the laptop and tweeted to JaeJoong , YooChun and Junsu . XD Hehehehe ~ Poor things ! D:

They should totally meet and drink Soju together ! -talking shit right now- . They are like .. ALONE ? At least , I think so . YooChun seems to be with a group of people and JaeJoong is at home with someone . Its a guy by the way .

Didn't see Junsu tweet . D: He must be sleeping ! XD Santa likes good kids right ? XDD HAHAHAHHAHA .

Anyway , gonna celebrate Christmas in the afternoon with my family . But before that , I'll have to go meet Marrianni at CCK . :D

Ohh and , YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT I DID JUST NOW AT 12PM SINGAPORE TIME ! XDD I called about 5 of my closet friends and greeted them 'MICKY CHRISTMAS' . XDDD KEKEKKEKE .

Their reactions are all like 'Huh ? HAHAHHA ! I SEE ! MERRY CHRISTMAS !' . And went all giggly . HAHAHAH ! I join in being giggly ! XDD Aida's reaction is the (Y) BEST !

Me : HEELLLOO ? AIDA ?
Aida : You called ? What for ?
Me : MICKY CHRISTMAS !
Aida : Thats all ?
Me : What ? ITS CHRISTMAS ! CHRISTMAS !
Aida : HAHAHA ! Okay ...
Me : CHRISTMAS ! ITS CHRISTMAS !
Aida : You want my greetings ? .... Nevermind .
Me : O.O? CHRISTMAS ! MICKY CHRISTMAS !
Aida : Yeaa ~ ;D
Me : Okayy ~ See you when school reopens !
Aida : Okay . Bye

HAHAHAHAH . Weird . XDDD

Anyway , MICKY CHRISTMAS !

♥Micky Christmas Eve

2010-12-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Just a very short post before I go to sleep ~ :D

I found out there are people stalking my blog . LMAO . TAHA !
Sorry , gone crazy . Need to seriously sleep soon before I die ! LOL ! Its Christmas Eve ~ Yayy ~ Its not snowing here ~ XDDD
Jealous ? HAHHAH ! Joking ~

Anyway , its Christmas Eve . :D Everyone have a MICKY CHRISTMAS ! Take care of yourself and don't catch a cold ! :D

SANTA CLAUS IS COMING ~ TO TOWN ~ -shot-

Dear Santa , I've been a very good girl this year . (At least , I think so .) So What do i get for Christmas ? XD

Love , Me .

LOL ! Crazy bitch talking rubbish all of a sudden ~ Ohh well . TAHA ~

Shall go my grandma house later to see see than go home . XD Go see if I have any letters or whatever shit . Since I KNOW CLONEY SEND ME SOMETHING ! I wonder who my Secret Santa is ! D:

Oh , whatever ~ Shall change my twitter name on 26December 12.00AM KST . :D Shall change it to 'CassieJoeyy' . I think ~ See first bahs . Anyway , I shall go to sleep now . Night people ~

Love ♥,

ME !

Cassiopeia with mix feelings .

2010-12-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

Let me be gay here . LOL . Can't help it . Getting too emotional these days . D: Haish . Oh and :

WARNING : BITCHY-NESS WILL FILLED THIS WHOLE POST CAUSE I'M FEELING SO GODDAMN PISS . THUS , I'M GOING TO BITCH ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING ON IN MY MIND .

Anyway , was reading a few TVXQ-related articles . And than read about SMEnt-related articles just now . And now I'LL FEELING SO GODDAMN FUCKED UP PISS . I'M GONNA BASH LIKE SHIT .

FUCK YOU , SMENT . JYJ wants to go back to HoMin . But you know whats the only thing stopping them from doing that ? YOU . YOU FUCKING SHIT . YOU MUST BE SO GAY THAT YOU ARE BLIND . Seriously , WHY CAN YOU JUST DIE ?! SMENT ? SLAVE MASTER ENT RIGHT ? I KNOW LAH . CHEBAI . ALL YOUR FAULT LAH . WHAT SHITTY WATER DIET . KAO , WHAT YOUR PROBLEM SIYAH . NABEI . GO SUCK YOUR GAY PARTNER BALLS LAH . CHEBAI . GO DIE !

Reading TVXQ-related things makes me want to bawl my eyes out even if its happy stuff . Than , go watch TVXQ's HOMIN ATHENA OST MV . Make me want to cry even more . WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG YOU PEOPLE ? CLAIMING THAT YOU ARE A CASSIOPEIA . FUCK HELL , I DON'T THINK SO . WHAT KIND OF CASSIOPEIA WILL GO LIKE 'NO , I SUPPORT HOMIN ONLY .' OR 'NO , JYJ IS THE BEST .' ? HUH ? WHAT ? TELL ME LAH .

YOU CASSIOPEIA , DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH . IF YOU ARE A CASSIOPEIA YOU SHOULD KNOW TO SUPPORT BOTH SIDE . BE IT HOMIN OR JYJ . CAUSE TVXQ IS FOREVER 5 . IF YOU CAN'T ACCEPT THAT FACT , THAN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE . THAT THE TITLE 'CASSIOPEIA' DOWN FROM YOURSELF . YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO THE RED OCEAN . CHEBAI , GO DIE LAH . NABEI .

Seeing their tweets makes me want to cry also . Fucking shit , SMENT . CAN'T YOU JUST DIE AND LET THEM BE TOGETHER ?! WHAT DO YOU WANT US TO DO ?! GO DOWN ONTO OUR KNEES AND BEG YOU ? IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT , SAID SO . I'LL DO IT . I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR MY 5 LOVELIES . TELL ME . YOU WANT MY LIFE , YOU TAKE IT . I DON'T CARE , AS LONG AS I GET TO SEE THEM ON STAGE AS 5 , I'M HAPPY . TELL ME , YOU FUCKING ASS .

Bloody fuckers . It have been like 2 years since I really see them smiling happily . Sment , do you seriously need to go until this stage ? To make Cassiopeia cry and heart break . And then , slowly die from this pain ? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT ?

I've been doing nothing but listening to TVXQ's song . Staring at their photos , thinking about them , watching their videos , stalking their tweets , crying over them , rotting to death because of them (Cause I hardly move from the bed.) . Thinking that .. Why did I become a Cassiopeia so late ? They are SUCH a awesome band . Why didn't I notice it before ? Maybe its because I'm so dumb and stupid that I don't realize this . WHY AM I SO DUMB AND STUPID ?! SO BLIND TO NOT REALIZE ?!

I regretted A LOT . And i mean SERIOUSLY A LOT , when I didn't went for JYJ's showcase . Tsk , my exams were nearing . So yea , BUT STILL . WHY DIDN'T I ?! ITS NOT LIKE I'LL PASS ANYWAY . I should have just spent hundred over for the one that is giving me the will to continue believing . I DON'T CARE ANYMORE . COME NEXT YEAR , AND I'LL GO . I DON'T CARE ABOUT EXAMS OR WHATEVER SHIT . TVXQ played a VERY important part in my life and I REALLY TRULY LOVE THEM .

I know I'm selfish , but i don't want them to get married . I don't want to share them with women that really 'claim' them . I DON'T WANT THIS . I just want them to be like .. last time . A happy family , smiling happily . I seriously wonder why will i be able to see those smiles again . To see those tears they shed because of Joy and not pain . I hate you Sment .

If i could have one wish this Christmas , it would be 'I wished that TVXQ is happy and is not under SMEnt .' This lawsuit cause me to have mix emotions . Making me very confuse . At times , I really don't know if I should be happy , angry or sad . Homin is doing their best to keep the name 'TVXQ' alive . Of course , I'm happy . But at the same time , I'm also sad that only Homin is doing that . I'm very confuse but seriously , what can i do ?

This lawsuit caused me to have a emotion breakdown . I cry every on and than because of them . I'll burst into tears out of a sudden . Whatever I do , I'll somehow think of them and feel like crying . Of course , I'm not blaming it on them . But I just can't help but be so emotional over it . TVXQ is part of my life now . If i ever lose them , I think I might just go suicide , Cut myself and than jump off a building . Either that or I'll just sink into depression for a very very long time . Either way , its still no good .

I just want them back . Is it really that hard ? If they really have to live through this life with sorrows and all this shit .. I'll wish that they aren't idols at all . So that they can live a normal life without fangirls screaming over them . So that they don't have to live this life with sorrows and pain . I just want to see them on stage as 5 . To smile happily and continue this long journey with us , Cassiopeia . It might not be a a smooth one , but i swear to my soul .. I'll always be with them .

I'm proud to be a Cassiopeia . And I'm not going to let them down . I'll do everything they taught about life . I'll be honest , promising and continue believing . I'll keep the faith forever till the end of my life . Scratch that , I'll continue keeping the faith even if i die .

I'm a Cassiopeia , and I'm proud to be one . OneTVXQ , OneRedOcean.

Always Keep The Faith ♥

Letter from my heart to DBSK

2010-12-09T16:18:00.000+08:00

Dear DONGBANGSHINKI ,

I love you . Yes , i know its just fangirl love . But trust me , i really mean it when i said it . I'm proud to be a fan of you . 5 talented guys that caught my attention with your voice . I won't lie , but looks do matter also . And guess what , you have them .

To me , you guys are the only human being that is nearing perfection . Since they said that no one is perfect , you are nearing perfection . Your voice clams me down . Its like ... You're god . I believe in the words you said and promises you make . I've never loved a group so much that I'll cry each and every time i listen to your songs , watch your videos and look at your pictures .

I'm proud to be a Cassiopeia . It have already been around 2 years or more since i love you guys . To tell the truth , I don't remember when I become a Cassiopeia . But for what i know , even if its just a week . It feels like forever . You caught my attention , made me fell in love . Thank you . Thank you for the wonderful music you gave us . Thank you for all the wonderful moments you brought to us . I prayed to God , for him to bless you , for him to protect you .

I swear to my soul , I'll protect you till the end of my life . Please come back as 5 . I really miss you . I want to see you guys together on stage again . I don't want it to be 2 stages 1 TVXQ , i want it to be 1 Stage 1 TVXQ . I believe in 5 , i believe in you . Come back , please . I'm willing to give you my life . Just come back as 5 and let us love you . I love you even if you're not together . But I want you to be 5 , that bond between you guys makes me cry .

I don't know why but everything I think about SM not letting you guy keep in contact , i cry . You don't have a idea of how much you mean to me . You're part of my life and I cannot lose you . You're the one that taught me about faith , you taught me how to wait even if its a long one , you taught me how to love , you taught me how to forgive and forget . You taught me everything about life that other's didn't care about . I love you guys , deeply and strongly .

I don't care what others said about you , you are the sunlight of my life , you're the only group that gives me a motive to continue loving . Come back , please . I miss seeing the 5 of you smile and laugh with each other . I miss hearing you sing live together . I miss seeing my 5 most beloved Gods be together .

I prayed to God that i could protect you . If you're hurt - emotionally- don't bear them all one by one . Nobody will blame you , it's okay to be who you are . I'm waiting for you to come back . Stop torturing yourself with this lawsuit , please stop torturing us with it too . We love you and want you back . Even if you're not with SMEnt , i believe that Cassiopeia will still stand by you . Lovin'You is something we are living to do . We will always be there for you . Come back .

Always keep the faith . I love you .

2010-12-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

Wa pian eh , broke liao lorh . Christmas coming need buy so many god damn presents . Bliss lah . CB .

-,- Need buy Awake album for Sebrina . Some other album for Marrianni . LMAO , i don't have Awake album myself . Tsk . Shall buy one for myself .

What ? Since nobody buying Christmas present give me , i buy give myself lah . Tsk . Gonna buy DGNA - Awake , DBSK - HUG and others . Bliss , broke . afiahjnailjnfmiakjgne !

Hmpf , buying myself presents . Great ehs . My cousins buy the thing give me also i don't use one ! Tsk , buy myself lorh . Tsk .

Stupid Christmas , stupid presents . D< Buy presents give people , in the end kenna use . -.- Freak my life . Stupid me ! D< Stupid life . Stupid promises ! D< DIEEE ! HMPF . afuiahufahnuyhnyuHSHfyuahnvbghvuayhvuna

I have a list of things i want , but does anyone cares ? NO . I buy myself . I USE MY OWN GOD DAMN MONEY AND BUY . D<
Tsk .

2010-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

Well , ain't this awesome . I'm cried again .
And its because of DBSK . I swear if Joy see me now , she will freak out so badly .
I miss them alot . SME , give them back to me . Please give them back to me .

I'm a Cassiopeia , and i'm proud to be one . Yesh , i'm loyal to them ! :D

2010-11-23T17:52:00.000+08:00

Yohs . Frigging bad mood . D<
Heard it from some news that North Korea is now aiming SEOUL .
SEOUL
WTH . Seriously , why is north korea doing this ?
Anyone want to tell me ? Seriously , SHIT'EM ! D<
Cried my fucking eyes out because of it .
According to another news , 600 died . Not sure if its including the 2 soldiers .
CB lah . D<
North Korean , You have already taken so many innocent lives .
What the hell do you still want ? !
SHIT YOU . D< Hmpf .

Anyway , did i tell you that i have auditions 2 weeks from now ? :X
Have to do intense vocal training . Well , fuck it . I don't give a damn anymore ! D<
Decided to do Taylor Swift - White horse .
Or maybe one of the Juliet songs .
Stressed out , upset , depressed . OMG . I feel like dying right now !
;_; Have to go 'cut' the song part that i want . OMG . So hard . T_T
Shall try it over and over again .
If not , i have to ask Dya to help me . OMG .

Ohh yar , i sign up for Korean Language class ! :D Going with Joy ~
My last lesson end on Christmas Eve ? O.O Ouhkay .
Still pissed . $#*(!$(!*$!_ $#*$&)!@#(!@ SHIT YOU !

Ohh , i'm a Mod for SM.The Ballad international Forum . Awesome ! XD
Haish , hope that nothing happens .
#prayforkorea #koreapeace

Can't wait to get my JYJ New limited edition album .

Everyday i shock ~ Everynight i shock ~
Ouhkay , i'm listening to Shock . -,- Don't complain !
Their songs is nice . I just don't fancy them . I'm NOT a b2uty .
Neither am i a Shawol , ELF , Hottest or whatever .

I'm a Cassiopeia ! Maybe a KISSME and DGNA Fangirl . What else ~ Nothing .

Watching Futigive:Plan B . Its funny . Retarded drama . Bi is so GOD DAMN HANDSOME ! :X
I'm serious ! Thunder storm here ! ><" And i'm alone at home ! KYAH ! LOL .
Maybe i'll take a short nap later since its raining ~ Good weather to sleep in .
But but , NK firing at Seoul . Waolau , headache .

Even though , i don't like SNSD . Not a anti . I AM NOT A ANTI ! D<
I don't want anything to happen to them . I'm born to love not hate .
But if i hate someone . Than , oh well . That person should better be dead . :X JK JK !

~Oh yeah ~ Oh yeah ~ Oh yeah ~ Yeah ~ Yeah ~ MBLAQ ! LeeJoon's abs are yummy ! XDD
Though the song kind of reminds me of porn . :X I MEAN ! They went ' I'm feeling good' . And 'Oh yeah yeah yeah' . LIKE WTH . I'M SERIOUS !!

Then , Lee Joon showed his abs . DIE FROM MASSIVE NOSE BLEED ! XDDD

Okayy , shall stop now ~ :C

Bye bye !

Ariel's Birthday Story !:D

2010-10-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

DON'T STEAL! OR I'll cut you! RAWRRR!
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The sound of you, breathing. It simply drives me crazy. Your groans, moans and scream makes me want you even more. The whispers that escaped from your lips...

I need you, i want you. I want to plant a soft kiss on those lonely looking lips.I want to hold you in my arms and never let go. I want you to be mine. The look in your eyes, i watched you play with the strang of hair. Your chuckles and smile, makes me go crazy. Its you that i need. I need you in me, i want us to become one.

I listen to your groans. Yes, i'm crazy. For you that is. I want to feel you in me, hard. Yes, i want it hard. I want you, i want to feel your lips on mine. I want to feel your hands on me. I want to feel you inside me. I want you to filled me with your lust....

I need you and I want you....

-AkimotoRin~ :DD N

HAPPYBIRTHDAY,ARIEL!

Kinda short and crappy since i did it in my phone! AHAHAH!
Credit me if you want to take it.
Credits; Joeyy/Rin@Yamakina.blogspot.com
Author;Joeyy/AkimotoRin

Happy birthday Ariel! :DD Taemin and Dongho loves youu~ SO DO I! :DDD

2010-10-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

OHHMMYYYFUCKKK~
Today got History Final term exams. Still, okayy lahh~ Got a few question don't know. The rest~ (Y) YAYYY BABEEE!
AHAHAH!
Trying to spamm my blog like crazy? LOL! LOL! Don't askk~ TSKKKKKK.
Anywayy, found my new word obsession~!!!
EDUCATION! Why? Ohh you know GazettE?
Their song SugarPain, during live (i watch 1 only! AHAHA!) Reita 'scream' the EDUCATION word.
Sooo, yeaa~ TADAA! OMFGGG! That live is hot de !!!
Ruki was being horny. Tsktsk. Whyy? Cause he is like rubbing his hand on his crotch. -.-
AHH~ I'm such a hentai ! AHAHAH!
I read YAOI just now! :D HOT! HOTTT!
GO READ AIBU ! OMFGGGG!
Okkay, okayy. Going crazy here! AHAHAHAH! Now, not the time for this lahh! AIYOHH!
Tomorrow, i got Science paper~ :D
Study liao! Later will do little bit more revision and i'm ready ! :D
Not confident lahh~ But can pass! I THINK! AHAHAH!

Anywayy,
ITS ARIEL'S BIRTHDAYY! YAYY! BABE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIEL! I'LL POST YOUR STORY IN THE NEXT POST! :DDD

And Syncronize,
OMFG! I MISS YOUUU SOO MUCHHH!

Anywayy, signing off.
THE AWESOME ONE

2010-09-26T12:22:00.000+08:00

I changed my blogskin~ Awesome isn't it? Hahah!
Its totally smexy! I mean like COME ON! Its Reita-Sama!
Ouhkayy, I'm crazy but i'm calling Reita as Reita-sama! Hahah! Awesome-ness!
Tsk~ I'm awesome, you're JEALOUS! HAH! xD /shot&dies

Anywayyy, went to the library yesterday with Aida~ :D To study, amazing isn't it? Hahah!
I went to the library to S.T.U.D.Y. Like seriously study! I finish the whole book(Volume1&2) of Physics! Half-way through Biology~
I haven't started on Maths!
Tskk~ And exams starts next week! Next Thursday is my Chinese&English paper 1. Friday is paper 2. I REALLY need to pass paper 1!

I was suppose to go to vivo with Maknae, Joycelyn, Germaine and Sherlene(?). To study in vivo. But since i think that vivo is too noisy, i decided to go to the library with Aida instead.

But, that woman (Aida) instead of studying , she seems to be writing compo about her life. Tsk, emo bitch.

Listened to 'Filth in the beauty' like more than 5 times per day! Hahah! AWESOME-NESS! XDD I LOVE THE HEADBANGING PART! /dies
Even though it makes my head hurts like hell, but i still love it! xD

Really want GazettE to have a concert in S'pore. But, i don't think they will since S'pore is so small, and that the Kpop population is much more popular than Jrock & Jpop. Sucker. Jrock is REAL FUCKING MUSIC! Not saying that Kpop isn't. I LOVE Kpop also!

Anywayy, gonna go study later~ I mean soon. Than, go popular to buy a VERY VERY important book! :D In order not to fail Chinese, i've gone crazy! /proud
So bored~ Tsk.

Oh! And, follow me on TWITTER! @JoeyyYaoi_ism
The awesome-ness,
Signing out! XD

2010-09-24T19:43:00.000+08:00

I'm bored, pissed and depress. So, i'm here blogging. Cheybai, not happy don't read lah kays.

Fuck lah, stupid people. Tell me, why should i believe in fucking friends when none of these things exist? Okay, maybe they do. Fake friends then, since all they do is tell lies and betray you. Fuckers. I'm not believing in things like that anymore, okay. Other than Mandy.

KissMes Unnies and Maknae is a different case. Don't get them into the fucking story, bitch.

Whats the use of having Seniors? All they do is threaten to beat you and rubbish like that. Fuckers, oh and you think that all Juniors are scared of seniors? THINK AGAIN, why should Juniors be scared of YOU?

I'm showing you respect by not insulting you infront of your face, don't push me to my fucking limits okay. Cause once you have something against me, i swear i won't be friendly anymore.

Friends that complain about you to the seniors, getting you into trouble, talking about you behind your backs. They are call friends? If they are, then i don't want any.

Well, fuck my life. Whats the point of this fucked up life when everything about it is fucked up? Might as well just die.

Fuck my life, cheeybai.

Listening to; The Sound of Bee- If
Mood; FUCKED UP HORRIBLE

2010-09-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Today was FUCKED.UP. Yea, totally fucked up. WHY?
1. We failed the auditions. (Y)
2. Someone came late.
3. DIDN'T REMEMBER AND FUCKING PRACTICE HER DANCE.
4. Lynn went wrong place.
5. Shermaine stepped on me. T-T OUCH
6. IT IS JUST FUCKED UP OKAY! FUCKED UP!

If 5apphire don't get into Semi-finals, we are disbanding. Whats the point of being together anyway. /roll eyes

Ahh, fuck. I remember that i owe Teacher HOMEWORKS. PILES OF HOMEWORK.
1. HOLIDAY HOMEWORK! I left Maths in school. -.- (Y)
2. 1 week of homework.
3. TESTS AND EXAMS. (FUCKMYLIFE)
4. Its a LIE~ (About something! /wink)

Anywayyy, but to whatever is going on~ XD TSUUUU.
Ohh yar, DON'T STALK ME ON TWITTER AND FB !
Ah, forgot. -.- OKAY! REMEMBER!

IDOLS! Lets talk about them.
You know how much i FUCKING HATE it when fangirls said this:
'I love him so much, this is not fangirl love. IT IS NOT! It deep down from my heart.' And stuff like that. Plain STUPID. In short they are telling you this:
'ITS TRUE LOVE.'
DUMD, thats all i can said.

Sure, i always said 'I love them so much!' But so? Fangirl-ing only~ They don't know me and they won't be with me forever anyway. Who is going to be with me? Myself. So, I LOVE MYSELF THE MOST! HAH!

Even if its a idol, just being a idol. DBSK, i'm like in love with them since i was P4. Which is like... 4 years? or maybe 5 years ago. I don't go obsessed with them though unlike SHINee, U-KISS and all.
I change obsession really fast, but DBSK never drop from my list. Always being first. Easier, i'm crazy for them. ^^

Oh~ Kpop Night! SNSD, BigBang, FTI, ZE:A, INFINTE, DGNA & SHINee ! 7 bands 1 concert! But, SNSD... /look around Eww, Tiffany. I don't like her and Jessica.
Sorry SONES~ But its me. I'm kinda like a 'ANTI-SNSD'. Or well maybe just 'ANTI-TIFFANY&JESSICA'. SORRY, But LIVE WITH IT. ;P

Byesss~ XD

2010-09-19T21:50:00.001+08:00

I want everyone to get this straight before you try to come and distruded me. Learn something first, everyone has a fucking limit. And so do i. I can be fun but i'm not nice to mess with either.

So read up, and read carefully. I won't post bloody bullshit about my fucked up life since i guess everyone's life is like all fucked and same. So, yea. Main point. Seriously, enough of this crapshit.

Being friends with me, know me first.
-I'm good at controling my temper.
-But when i loss control, my temper is horrible. (But i won't show you everything. Nice enough, bitch?)
-I'm not scared to shout at you in public.
-I love to have fun and love to bring joy, but don't piss me off.
-Whenever i said something about health and rubbish shit, i'm honest about it.
-Show me your fucked up bitchy attitude, then i'll be the same to you.
-Listen to the tone of my voice when i said 'bitch'.
-Just because your 'emotional' doesn't mean i'm not. (Oh, you have know idea.)
-Don't over stress me and put me under perssure, i'll fall sick.
-When i'm sick, i'm not a nice person.
-Don't make me cry out of a sudden, its a frigging bad sign. (Like in class, and then, sitting sitting. BOOM! Cries)
-I hate shouting at people, so don't force me.
-I'm over-protective? To close friends, not bitches.
-I might not look serious, but i do everything with all i have.
-I will not use sick and no money as an excuse unless i'm really sick.
-You don't know my weakness. So, sure. Continue using idols. (Blah blah, i rape Taemin arhs! And all this fucking rubbish WILL NOT work on me.)
-When i set a time to meet, late for more than 5 minutes. Sorry, you're in my 'soon-to-be-bitchy' list.
-I hate having skin contact, tapping on shoulders are not included.
-I can shared but not too much.
-Add me on FB? Sure, don't invite me on stupid games.
-When i turn quiet, don't talk about nonsense stuffs.
-Don't act as if you own everyone and everywhere.

Just a few things i guess, some i didn't list it down but whatever. If i'm on HOLIDAYS yet i think of you, you mean A LOT to me. And the only 2 are, MANDY LEE and AIDA both from my class. Besties. And of course, my HUGME family and well, SHINee and DBSK. They just pop out from somewhere. LOL. Crappyshit again. /sigh.

2010-07-29T18:04:00.001+08:00

SUPER SHORT FANFIC !

"Lets break up."His voice was hard, he didn't even feel guilty. Staring at me directly into my eyes, it makes me remember the past. The first time, you confessed. You did the same thing expect that your stare that time was much more gentle. You know that your eyes can melt me, no matter how much i turned ice.

You probably got a lady, probably got sick of me. But, even if tears are rushing to me. I'll let you go. Find your happiness, i'll give up on mine. I'll do my best to forget you so you can live better. So that you'll be happy with me.

"Did you just say you wanted to break up?"I ask as i choke on my tears. He continued to stare at me without replying my question. "I'm sorry" Without a second word, he left me standing there all by myself. The love you tossed away, take it. Don't even leave a trace behind and take it all. You didn't bother to said sorry. Don't even say you're sorry when we both know that you're not.

Your lips that told me that you were going to leave. Why does it break my heart so much? I need to stop you, the words don't go out. And you're already moving far apart. You will forget me, and i will really hate you. Even though, you know everything. You knew that i'll hate you but you just didn't give a damn.

You're the reason i live. The only person i wanted. You, it was me who only looked at you. I stayed loyal to you, never breaking a promise i made. But, your promise to me. Broken. Shuttered my heart into a million pieces.

Why? Why are you leaving? Why are you tossing me away? If its going to be like this, if you were going to be like this, why did you love me in the first place? You were never true to me. Your lies that i simply believed in. Naive. Yes, the only word i can said right now. I can't believe that i'm crying over this. I knew this day would come but why now?

Do you happen to remember that day? The day when we first met. I still remember it and forever will. The promise you made to me, to only care for me, to only protect me. To only love me. I believed your lies, i really did.

I had to cry myself to sleep. Knowing the fact that, you will no longer be here to wipe tears away for me. Tears tickling down my cheeks. It'll be the last time i cry. Did you really love me? Even if you did, thats the past isn't it? I'll forget you so you can live better without me.

Life without you, i'll continue moving on. I'll be strong. You taught me how. I'll smile without fears, love without tears. You don't belong to me anymore, you belong to her. So, i'll move on with life. Without you by my side. Its hard to said goodbye, but that my only choice.

"Goodbye."

SHORT RIGHT?!
><"

2010-07-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

Can't breath, i need you. Your scent it drives me crazy. Where are you? Can't you see the sign i have been trying to give you? My love for you, please don't leave me.

As time passes by, my love grew. But, for you it seems like you're blind. Unable to see these signs. I'll hold my breathe to see you, just this time. Unable to continue loving you, just this once. Notice my sign. I tried my best to break this glass cabbinets. They trap me with water and tied it up with a chain. I'm hopeless and dying lifeless. Tears build up in my eyes, i want to cry.

Humans are scary, jealousy takes over them so easily. But why me? I was chosen as their fifth target. I look around helplessly in search for a exit but all i can see is floating dead bodies. I'm scared yet sad at the same time. Why can't you see the sign? I bang on the glass as hard as i can to just break it. But it doesn't seem to have any affect on it.

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Just for her, i need to save her. After all these time, i finally realised that i have been blind to not notice the sign. Her lover for me and mine for her. I can't lose her now, i lost too much. I don't want to suffer anymore. I need to get her back. A tiny voice whisper into my ear. "This is your only chance. Grab it before its too late." A vision of a woman appeared.

I was determin to save her, i know that she have been crying every night and that isn't fine. I fought my way through. A tall dark guy stand infront of my and kick me. I fell onto the ground but stood up when i heard another soft voice. "If you give up, its over."These voices seems to be encouraging me. Helping me to stand. I stood up and pick up a metal pole. No body messes with me, take my love one away and gets away with it. I fought as hard as i can. I knew that it wasn't going to end just yet, i knew that these battle is just going to end up with dead bodies of me and her. But if there's a will there will always be a hope.

"Please, save me." Her voice rang through my head. It pierce through my heart as if its a knife. Tearing my heart into half, shuttering it into a million pieces. I notice her sign, its time to show her my reply. I will not give up so easily, love is painful but i'll continue loving.

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I'm scared that this is the end, so please save me. I can't breath. My heart tightens, my head hurts but i'll continue living. I have a lot of things to said, so look at me before its too late. I confessed many times using the same sign, you can't see it but is it alright? I lost everything and this time, i have to let you go too? The love sign i gave you, have you tried to understand it? I want you by my side, for this last moment.

Shurggling in the waters, i need to find a way. Shivering lips and my heart, it won't last long so please come soon. I'm scared that the end is here, save me. Only you can do it.

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I stumble into the door and faced the guy sitting on the chair. Looking around, i saw her. Tears filled my eyes and i grab the shapr metal pole. Surrounding us, was glass cabbinets of 4 dead girls. "To be blind and not see her love sign. Only to notice it so late, you wouldn't have a chance. "He said as he stood up. He walked around me while he talks. "These 4 girls, were capture and brought here. And like her, they all loved their guys a love sign. Being blind and stupid, they didn't notice. And died."He laugh and touch the glass. "Useless women, naive."He continue. I clench my fist, without hesitating i stab through his heart.

My eyes widen when i realise what i just did. I kill someone. Tears began to rolled down my cheeks. Her body floats in there, but started kicking. "Its your last chance."Another voice said. Maybe it was just me, but all the dead girls seems to be shurggling in the water, kicking their legs as they hit the glass forcfully. "Don't let her suffer like how we did. They didn't notice our sign and let us die."A soft voice said.

I stare at her almost lifeless body, kicking and shurggling. I grab the chair and smash it against the glass, but it just wouldn't break. She look up and saw my face. Tears fell from her eyes before she mouthed 'Saranghae'. She closed her eyes and let the water carry her weight. The other girls, their body did the same. "Its too late."Her sweet soft voice said. "Thank you, saranghae." I don't want this to be the end, using all my strenght, i threw the chair against the window causing it the break into pieces. Her body fell onto the ground as i held her in my arms.

Times files tic toc and goes by tic toc, how can i be so blind to never notice her love sign. I cried and ignored the pain from the sharp glasses that pierce through my skin. Mayday, the only love sign.

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I don't wish for this to be the last, i'm scared. Look at me and tell me you did see my sign. I don't wish to die just yet. Your memories within me, i'll hold my breath and endure all pain, the suffering i'm going through. You know that i'll fall and crumble without you, look at me. Can't breath, my heart is tightening. I look up to see your face, even if its this last time. Now, its just good bye.

Thank you for coming here. You saw my love sign. Can't breath, its Mayday. Head hurts, its Mayday. This day, let it be the only love sign. Please, move on without me. Please remember the love sign. I can't bear to see you cried. Remember my love sign, forgive my sinfullness. May you continue hearing my love sign, sign.

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Shall blog about myself soon. Hahah!
Seems to be spamming my blog with one-shots !
LOLOLOLOLOLOL!

Shall try the UFO thingy one day !! Lalal~

2010-07-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

Annyeong !

Todayy, was awfully weird. I don't know why. It just is !
Well, tomorrow we need to to a play. And i shall be the computer freak. Hahah, nabeela choose it.

Listen to SHINee's new song. So niceee~ I wannt the albummm. But, they never reply me !
Call them give me account number also never . Sighhh.
Sian lahhh.
Maybe send sms better. =_=" Hahahahh,

Tomorrow got swimming lesson. Siannnn. Ohh,. guess what !
I finish sewing ! WOW ! First time doing it ! (x Damn hard. Poke myself alot !
Twitter got this person @shineekjonghyun . Don't know is real or fake one lehh~
Sound like fake. Cause, Jonghyun don't know english right? ><

haishh, whatever.
Stress out. Shall continue writing one-shot stories. ><
Got a disgusting idea. Not rated ! Its CLEAN ! HAHAH !

Anywayy, shall post more at night!

2010-07-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'mm give this story to Ariel! :D Okkay, i'll change something.
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I watch him move swiftly across the room with his flawless dance steps. Every step he make, the sound of his heavy breathing, makes my heart beat so fast that its hard to breathe. I know that i don't have a chance with him, but i'm in love with him. Now, i'm blaming myself for being so stupid. I'm stupid enough to fall in love with him. He's a idol known world-wide, while i'm just a normal high schooler that goes to the same school as him.

I like the way he smile, the way he laugh and the way he talk. He might be a idol but he's also a loner. I want to get close to him, but i know that i have no rights to do so. His fangirls are all round the place. They hated me, they are jealous of me for being SHINee's BlingBling JongHyun's sister. I didn't choose to be, if i had a choice i don't want to be. People try to get close to me because of him.

I was in the music room with him, his movements are flawless. He was praticing Ring Ding Dong as they had a performance tomorrow at Music Core. I grab a water bottle from beside me. "Hey ! Min !"I called out. He finish his dance and was panting heavily. He turn to me as i threw the water bottle to him. He catch it without a problem. "Thanks."He panted. Yes, thats right. I was in love with SHINee's maknae. Lee TaeMin. I know the chances for me getting to know him better and the chances of me becoming closer to him is higher than the other fangirls. But, at the same time, i know it wrong.

I don't want to cause a scandal for him. I don't wish for SHINee to disband. He wipe sweat off his face as he walk towards me and sat down beside me. I know that there are fangirls outside the room trying to get in. But, guess what. Only TaeMin, the other SHINee members and me are allow to come in. Why? Well, SME somewhat rented the whole place and i knew their password to it besides JongHyun is my brother, remember?

"Oh, i heard that your comeback will be on the 23th of July on Music Bank."I said trying to start a conversation. He nodded and smile. "Yea, it is. "He said and played with his hair. I giggle at him. "Your hair grew long too."I said as i took a quick glance at the clock. 5.30pm. The others should be here by now. Just then, i heard a click. The door open and the other SHINee members poured in.

"Oppa !"I smile and rush to JongHyun and gave him a hug. "Hey there, baby girl."He said and hug me back. "Hows things?"I ask and i glance at all their faces. But, i end up bursting into laughter when i saw Key oppa's hair. "Nice hair."I giggle. he frowned and hide the side using his hand. "TaeMin have been praticing really hard. Now, its your turn."I chuckled.

The only person that knew that i like TaeMin was my brother. He promised to keep it a sceret. Oppa look at me and gave me a small smile with the 'i-know-you-like-him-so-stop-it' look. I grin and went to sit by my bag. They left their bags beside me and went to pratice. They started to sing songs from their new album,Lucifer. With their new hairstyles and songs. I pray for them that their comeback will be a hit !

When things were able to get interesting, i got a phone call from one of my member of syncronize. "Ariel~ You're gonna be late if you don't come for pratice now !"Yumi said over the phone. "Neh, i'm coming now."I said and hang up. I stood up and grab my bag. "Oppa, i'm leaving for pratice."I smile. He did the fighting pose and i replied back with the same thing. I left the room and close the door behind me. I started to walk towards the school gate, when i was about to reach there. It hit me. I forgot to take my drum sticks and music sheets !

I sighed at my stupidness and walk back to the pratice room. When i got there, i was about to open the door when i heard oppa and TaeMin talking.

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"TaeMin-ahh."JongHyun said. TaeMin look at his hyung and tilt his head slightly to the left. "Do you know that InMi likes you?"He ask. TaeMin gasp. "Chinca?"He ask. JongHyung nodded. "But, hyung. You know that i already have a girlfriend."TaeMin groan as he mess up his hair. "I know, but seeing Ariel living in the dark and letting her love you blindly? I can't do that. She is my sister, you know that."JongHyung replied.

TaeMin nodded. "I know. But, i have to tell you the truth. I never like her. "

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"I know. But, i have to tell you the truth. I never like her." My heart crashed into pieces. My world shuttered. I know that he wouldn't love me. I knew that from the beginning. And still, i was stupid enough to believe that he will love me one day. I was stupid enough to fall in love with him when i know that he will never be mine. Tears build up in my eyes as i continue to listen to their conversation.

I wanted to cry and skip band pratice. I want to hide from the world that only causes pain. Why is it so hard to be in love with someone? I'm always the idiot. I'm always the one that is falling in love with the wrong person. Out of everyone in the whole world, i had to fall in love with him.

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"In fact, i hate her. "TaeMin sighed. JongHyung's eyes turn in cold. "Hate her? Why?"He asked. "I.. i don't know. I just don't like her. Its like, she is trying too hard to let me notice her even though she knows that i already did notice her."TaeMin explained. "You better not let her hear this."JongHyung hissed in a dangerous voice.

"You don't know how much she is in love with you. She is totally crazy about you."JongHyun sighed and he remember the times when Ariel would run into his room and jump onto his bed asking him about TaeMin. Ast those time, JongHyun can only smile.

---

Tears started to roll down my dried pale cheeks, i quickly wipe them away since i heard footsteps. "Ariel?" A familiar voice said from behind. I turn around and my eyes meet with Key oppa's. "Ah, i forgot to take my things."I smile and went in. "Epk~ Sorry, i forgot my music sheets and sticks."I bow and took my things and left with tears falling from my eyes.

The thing i never wanted to hear, he said it all out. I always thought that, life is full of meaning because he's around. But now, nothing means anything to me anymore. Life is just like a shell, once the thing living inside move out, its empty. My heart is beating but without a meaning. I walk towards the band room and open the door. Without bothering to greet the others like i always do, i started to hit the drums till my hands started to bleed quite badly.

But, i didn't stop. I continue to hit the drums even though our leader, Nami, told me to stop. I shook my head and held the tears back. I continue to hit the drums until i black out completely. I fell onto the ground as my hands started to bleed even more. Life is meaningless. But i have to remember, TaeMin might not like me, instead he hates me. But i still have to continue living for my oppa. The one and only person that love me.

My heart is still empty. What should i do?

---

Key walk into the pratice room and saw TaeMin and JongHyun staring at the door. Onew and Minho went to get drinks. "Whats up? Oh yea, i saw Ariel just now. Seems like she was crying."Key said as he look back at the door. JongHyun gasp and glared at TaeMin while TaeMin look down on the ground. The aura that JongHyun was giving was scary, a dark aura that give off the 'i can kill you' feeling.

Onew and Minho walk into the room and sense the aura. Onew nudge Key who was standing beside him, asking him whats going on in a soft voice. Key shruggle his shoulders as a replied. Before JongHyun can do anything, or before anyone of them can do anything. JongHyun's phone rang. Playing U-KISS's talk to me. Its not because JongHyun is a fan of them. Everyone's ring tone is the same expect for his sister's. JongHyun quickly pick up the phone.

"Yeoboseyo?" He said. "JongHyun oppa?" That voice didn't belong to Ariel. Instead it belong to Nami, the leader of Syncronize. "Ah, Nami. Whats wrong? Where's Ariel?"He said as he starts to panic. "Oppa, Oppa. Come to Seoul Hospital now ! Inmi's life is in danger, she needs you right now !"Nami shout over the phone as she pant heavily. "Neh ! Neh! Oppa, please hurry ! "Yumi scream over the phone and continue to pant.

The girls were running towards the hospital while Ariel got rush there by a fellow passer-by who happen to walk into their band room. JongHyun gasp over the phone "I'll be there right now ."He said and hang up without a second word. Before the members could ask about it. JongHyun grab his bag and jacket and started to run out of the room. Key followed behind him without a word as he treat Ariel like his own sister.

Onew and Minho follow behind them, leaving Taemin inside the room alone. After a while. Taemin finally woke up from his thoughts. He grab his bag and jacket and quickly chase after them.

---

When they got to Seoul hospital, JongHyun quickly spot the syncronize members and rush towards them. "Where's my sister?"He ask in a panicking voice. Yui pointed at the operation room with her head down, looking on the ground. Tears build up in their eyes while JongHyun slam his body against the chair. He lean forward and buried his face in his hands as tears rolled down his cheeks. "Please, let her be fine."He whisper in a soft voice.

Key walk towards him and gave him a brotherly hug. "She'll be okay. "Key said as he look up at the ceiling to prevent his tears from falling. Jonghyun might seem to be the guy that is emotional strong but you're wrong. TaeMin sigh as he sat on the ground and buried his face in his hands. Minho sat beside him and place a hand on his shoulder. Onew sat down on the chair nearest to the operation room.

After a few long hours, the light turn off. The doctor step out of the operation room. Jonghyun was the first to run to him. "How is my sister?"He ask. The doctor gave him a small smile. "She's fine." Jonghyun smile and waited from the bed to be rolled out of the room. He hold her hand tightly and followed the nurse into her ward. Taemin watch her get push into the ward. His heart was aching. But his mind was telling him something else. "Do i love her?"He ask himself softly as he clench his shirt.

---

After a while, Ariel woke up. The doctor that operated on her came into the room with a sad look. "Can i speak to Ariel-sshi's family member?"He ask. Jonghyun followed him to his office. "I'm sorry to said but, you're sister cannot continue drumming anymore. She cannot do anything that involves rough, heavy and hard hand movements. Her hands cannot take it." Jonghyun gasp and stare at the doctor with disbelieve eyes. "You're saying that she cannot drum?!"He ask. The doctor nodded. "It'll be good if you can tell her now."The doctor said. Jonghyun left the office quitely as he walk back to the ward.

He went into the room and saw Ariel laughing with her friends while Key was trying to get her to eat her food. The others were standing at a corner looking at them.

|Taemin's pov|

My heart aches to see her in this state. I know i have done wrong. Its me that cause her all the pain. I don't know if i'm in love with her. My heart is telling me that i am but my mind is telling me that i'm not. I'm really confused. I look at her laughing and smiling happily as if she wasn't in pain. My heart is beating really fast. What should i do?

I clench my fists tightly as i stare at the wall. I know Minho hyung notice it. "Whats wrong?"He ask. "Am i in love?"I ask. Am i too straight forward? Minho hyung smile "That is a question only you can answer." People always tell me to listen to my heart not my mind. But will it lead me to the right decision?

After all these while, i did said that i hate her. But was it because i was trying to deny the fact that i'm in love with her? I guess i am. Jonghyun hyung walk into the room. "Ariel,"He said. "The doctor said you can't drum any longer." She gasp and started to sob. I move without thinking. I went to her and hug her. I brought her into my arms. "Shh, don't cry. "I whisper as i buried my face in her hair.

"What do you mean she can't drum anymore?"Nami shout. Jonghyun hyung lower his head and sigh. "Its okay, Ariel. Oppa will be your hands than."I said without noticing. Inmi stop crying and gasp at me. The others did the same thing. Then, it hit me. I really am in love with her. "What did you said, Taemin?"Jonghyun hyung ask. "I- i..." i didn't know how to replied.

I sigh. "i admit. Saying that i hate her was to deny that i'm really madly in love with her." I lower my head. Jonghyun hyung chuckled. "Really? Well, you have my premission to date her." "Mine too"Key hyung was being a extra but thats fine. I smile and look at Ariel. She was frowning. "Whats wrong?"I ask. She shook her head. "Nothing."She replied.

So, i guess i'm in love. With the wrong but right girl.

|End pov|

---

A happy ending indeed. Ariel was happy, everyone was.

|5 years later|

At the age of 22 -Taemin- and 18 -Ariel-, Taemin asked Ariel to married him. And she agree. Even though, Shawols are scary but they are nothing compare to their love. "Oppa, you will love me right?"Ariel ask as she stare at the night sky. Taemin nodded and tilt her head to face him. "Forever and ever."He smile and kiss her deeply.

They might be married but only for 2 months. Which means, they are still living with Ariel's brother, Jonghyun.

Being in love but not knowing it, it horrible. But being in love and not wanting to believe it is worst. Taemin made the right choice. He choose to fall in love with Inmi, he followed his heart.

"Oppa, promise me. Never leave me."Ariel whisper into his ear and lay him down on the bed. "Forever and ever."Taemin whisper back and flip her over, being him onto of her. Their night together.. Lets not talk about it.
________________

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It belongs to be ! Do not take it out without premission!
CREDIT ME IF YOU TAKING IT OUT.
DON'T MAKE ME CALL YOU BITCH, FEMALEDOGGGG!!

2010-07-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

Piss off, well. just now.
Can't believe that a person that told me this
'You're my true best friend' doesn't care about my feelings. Just because she have another bff in the same cca.
She ignored my feelings. WTF. What the fucking hell am i? A toy? Play and throw away one?
Arghh, only cares for her. Well, to be honest. I really don't know what does true friends means right now. I really don't have any. Well, i'm pretty sure that Mandy is a true friend.
I'll confirm that later. ><

Anyway, its Taemin oppa's birthday ! Yes, Taemin of SHINee ! Well, everyone here should know already. I mean in 1 hour and 42 minutes time its going to be over. LOL !
I bake cookies because of his birthday also ! Thought, this time its kinda failed. =_=" Well, its better than not baking right? LOL !

Celebrated my birthday 2 days before Taemin's. Why? Cause it was MY birthday which was 2 days before his ! XD Went to Kbox and holland to eat ice-cream ! Yayyy! Sang until 3AM. Reach home at 3.30AM. Without bathing and everything, went to sleep.
Hahah! I know. Dirty. But you try waking up at somewhere near 7-8+ and sleeping at 3.30AM ! Woke up at 11+ the next day.

Watch Maknae Rebellion ! SHINee is damn cute in there ! They were there for a few Ep. Heheh, they wanted Taemin to join them. But luckily, he didn't ! Hahah ! Love Maknae Rebellion ! It shows that U-KISS's baby, Dongho. Is a strong man ! Hahah! Being plain random !

Shorry J is so cute ! And cool ! Hahah ! Getting late. Better go sleep soon !
Going to pay for the albums soon ! I mean, SHINee's new album that i pre-order. Yayy! But, currently. I'm not sure if i really want it.
Well, whatever. if i don't want it. Sell it. XD Must profit to it also ! XDD Just joking ! Come on ! I'm SHINee crazy right now .

And, i don't know why ! Still writing my incomplete one-shot. Better finish it before i go to sleep !!
Okayy, hwaiting !

2010-07-15T16:14:00.000+08:00

Sze-Ping birthday today ! Qiqi and Shintaro also. Yayy. LOL !
On twitter right now with my beloved 700th tweet!! XD
Spam to fast? XD
Alexander so cute, twitter does weird weird things.
You all got listen to SHINee's new songs? Teaser only lahh.

I want buy their Album ! Arghhhh. Released on 19th July ! Next MONDAY!!!
Then 23th july is their comeback on MuBank. Darn.
Cannot watch. I got band pratice.

Sometimes, very irritated with it cause. I have plans wayyy before i join Syncronize. But after that, i cannot join in with anything !
WTF?! Tomorrow friday, my birthday. I also cannot celebrate. WTF. Cannot celebrate my sweet 13 !
Then, next week. SHINee comeback on MuBank. Also the same ! Cannot watch !
Thennnn, EOY need perform. EOY so many people. Somemore, my health not very good these days. Shouldn't crowd with people.

Soo, i plan to quit soon. But see first lahh, if i pass my today math test i will continue band. If not i will have to quit.
Cause, band + Stuides + Idols + Work + alot more= Stress lead to suicide !
Arghhh, really stress. Somemore have to wake up early go school. Then, must take on Vice-Chair duties. Waolao.
You try working so much see won't die not?!

Thenn, still got swimming lessons. Need go find tutor liao. Or not, die arhhhs. Better go find a tutor for Math and Science. MT.. Read more bahhs horhs? =X

Aiyoohhh, wonder how AnAn can be so smart. Should go express siyahhhh!!
Anywayyy, selling my Jrock CDs and Posters ! In need of cash! And room no more space. =_="
Cannot sell u-kiss one. Sorry. =X

Better go find tutor bahhs. Tata~

2010-07-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

Feels that i'm spamming twitter too much. As in SERIOUSLY too much!
I had like 1 tweet in march or may i think. And now, i have like 630++
LOL ! Spamming it like crazy.
Isn't it great? Other than spamming twitter, i'm spamming my god-damnn useless blog also.
Facebook also spam. Sighhh, need to start to study hard instead of spamming those things. Sighhh, need help!
LOL ! Gotta go sleep soon, watever? LOL ! I'm being plain crazy and stupid. Okayyy,,
English- Xander, Kevin, Eli
Chinese- Dongho

What else? XD
JKJK.
Gonna find tutors soon. Anyone ? Wanna help me?
Todayy, we had swimming lesson. I turn darker. Fuck hell. But,, it was fun. But found out that Mandy and the others were teasing me.
About Kiseop. Sheeehhhsss, how nice of them. =_="

Okayy, gonna go back spamming twitter for one last time before going to sleep. Heheh,

2010-07-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

I'm boredd~ Listening to CLAP by TeenTop. AGAIN !
Sighhh, boring life. Tsk tsk. Siannn, now what arhhs? Heartbeat-2PM.

OOps, just sneeze. Sorry. Don't know why, but i feel that my blog. Die already. Cheyyy, CB.

Ohhh wow. I got 17 followers on twitter ! Yayy for me ! Wonder why they even wan to follow me.
I spam twitter like siao. =X Hahah. Nothing do. Go there spam. Loving hot blonde dudes ! Like Kiseop ! Hahah. L.Joe damn cute lahh cann~

Lalalahh.
I don't know the link between school, airplane and clapping.
Seriously !

Clap the MV come out liao. But problem is arhhs, they inside one school. Then Lizzy (After School). IDK who. come out, walk here and there. Boys looking for her i think.
Then, suddenly at the airplane there. Siao siao one.

But,, i'm a happy bitch. Whyyy? Causee, i saw CAP's abs. XDD Hentai jiji! XDDD Whatever ! They are filled with AWESOME-NESS! No such word, i know. Nab came up with it. Hahah.

Blonde Kiseop! Blonde Kevin, Eli, SooHyun. Reita -always blonde- and L.Joe ! Yayy! Ohh, HongKi, HeeChul ! KyahhhhH!!!
HOT BLONDE DUDES! -squeal-

Soo, tired. Going to zzz soon. Tomorrow need go school then swimming lesson. Stupid teacher. CB.

Yea,, i'm off now. JAA~
Annyeong !

2010-07-12T15:56:00.000+08:00

Annyeong !
I'm backk again. Almost everyday alos blogging.
Must blog like siao first ! Or not,
sep and oct i won't blog liao. Caussee, EOY exams coming ! How can righht?
Then, its my -almost- 2 month holidayyy! Yippee~!

LOL !

Today go school, cannot find my PE shorts.
End up wearing Purple FBT there. Siannn, next week need run extra.
I die also don't run ! Hmpf! See Mr.Ben can do what !
I don't go school ! Tskk. Run like siao cha bo like that !
Run 8 rounds. Thenn, go this competition thingy arhhs,
Me VS PK VS Gay.
Wahhh!

I go a.. 60Meter head start. Scaryy !!
Run like siao like that. PK so fast siyahh! Like crazy like that. Run lorhh.
Then, i won him! YAYY! By a bit. XDDD But,, he cannot get over the fact ehhh! :C
Headache, vomit. All that feeling all have. Wahh. Really can die erhs!

CB! I didn't watch World Cup Finals ! AHHH! KILL ME!!! But,, Spain won ! YAYYY!!!! SPAIN! SPAIN! SPAIN! Anywayy,

LW, LB and some other people wore my new PINK spec. Look gay siyahhh! XDDD

Yesterdayy, I watch Inki Gayo. TeenTop debut ! YAYYY!! CLAP! L.Joe is blonde ! So, my bias lahh~ You know,, My heart cannot take HOT blonde dudes! It'll die !

XDDD

Nice is nice lahh~ But their dance little bit drama siyyahh. Sadist ! =X Heheh, blonde dude! XDDDD

Anywayyyyyyy,
BEAST on EON5 yesterday at 6pm. Replay one lahh~ Watch before liao. O.O Thenn, 2AM on SSS. I want U=KISS!!!!

2AM fans not very nice lehh. After 2AM left, they also go liao. Thats what i heard lahh. Their screams not very loud also arhhs. Compare to U-Kiss one. Its nothing.
U-Kiss one, you don't know that they are even talking ! LOL !

Siannn, better go find something else do arhhs.

2010-07-10T11:49:00.000+08:00

Cannot stand it when someone steads with me but don't know me well enough.
Piss me off so much, i really want to break up.

Last year,
1 guy- Break because, i thinkk i'm too young to be in a BGR. Well, fuck that now !

2 guy- Break cause, well. PSLE is coming for fucking hell. Andd, i don't know my feelings well enough yet.

3rd guy- Break cause,, well. I changed alot soo yeaa, break cause couldn't flirt with others. xD Hell no, i'm not a player.

4th guy- break cause, idk. He wanted to break. So, we dump each other. LOL !

current guy- wanna break cause, he's FUCKING HELL pissing me off. He doesn't know me well. He flirts with tons of girls but always fail. He thinks that i like him when i don't like him. Well, there more. But i'll post it up next time.

Fucking hell. Bitches. Son of a bitch.

Anywayy, gonna meet AF to pass her the things for HyunMin Bday project. Around 2.30pm bahhs. Thenn, 3.30-4.30 go home. xD

LOL ! Let me post somethings that i look in a guy. If ya,, wanna be my stead. -roll eyes-

1. Personality.
2.Know me enough.
3. Talents.
4. Protectiness.
5. Appeareance. -Hell, does who said it doesn't matter. Are all fuck up liars.
6. Not annoying and will not piss me off.
7. Can bring colours to me life.
8. Will not make me bored with their questions and blahblahblah. You get what i mean don't you?
9. Studies. Heyy, so that. if i have troubles i can find ya..
10. Not a horny bitch. Talk to me about porn and stuff like that. You're fucked up.
11. Interest in music. Kpop, Jpop, Jrock. or English/ Chinese.
12. Love me enough?
13. Flirt/ player. -Out of my list. Fuck off bitch.,
14. Strong enough to handle being in a relationship with me. -Both mental and physical.
15. Sports talent.
16. Will chat with me. -Gosh, boys normally won't do that.
17. Good at making people laugh.

Yea,, thats about all for now i think. And, no. I'm not finish yet.

NOTES;

-players, you break girls heart. I'll break yours.
-Flirts, you flirt. Go ahead. You wouldn't mind me flirting then.
-Horny bitches, talk to me about those things. I will send you to geyland or i'll call the police. I will not hesitate.

Clear enough? LOL.

Things to take note of me, before going onto BGR.

1. I'm cold blooded and heartless when it comes to boys.
2. Know that, i'm not easy. And that i will not cry even if you break with me.
3. My attitude can change overnight. It depends on you.
4. If i'm being cold to you, be careful.
5. Piss me off, then lets break.
6. Make me bored? I won't talk to you but flirt/ talk to others.
7. I'm not as free as you boys think that i am. I'm a fucking busy person.
8. I'm not gentle and girly.
9. I can tell you that ILY, it depends on you.
10. If i tell you ILY (Not I Love You. Its different.) it just means that, i'm not being serious and is just playing around.
11. I DO NOT care about your feelings, cause most boys don't care about mine.
12. If i really do like/ love you. You will see the different.
13. Never ignore my message when i do send you one, other than being in class with a fucked up teacher, you better reply.
14. If i wanna break up. You better break up.
15. I get bored easily of a guy and will change of heart real fast. It depends on you to bring colours.
16. Depend on me for everything, FUCK OFF. Go to your mummy.
17. I can respect you if you respect me.
18. If i didn't reply your message, then wait. I'm busy.
19. Don't call me without my permission. I pay for my own pre-paid okay.
20. I'm never free on weekends, i got work bitch. unlike you people.

Thats more. But maybe next time.
If you sing Man Man Ha Ni. Hahh, you are easy.
Everytime, boys always ask. "What am i to you." I reply with nice messages. For the first 4. I do mean it. But the current one.
Here's my true answer: "Nothing but a toy."

Yes, i'm heartless. Boys are players/ flirts/ heart-breakers. Always making girls cry. So now, its my turn.

Don't worry, U-KISS.
You're always in my heart.
ESP Kiseop, Xander and Kevin.
Kevin- its like he's my long lost brother.! XDD
Xander- Love his twits. Its funny, cute, meaningful. He's kind also.
Kiseop- Come on, He's the one that makes me giggle for no good reason !
SooHyun- Loving his voice. Nice, hot body !
Dongho- Cute, innocent maknae !
KiBum- Harsh Blood O! NICEEE!
Eli- That best rapper. Other than, TOP, GD, Yunho, YooChun and others. XDD

Byes,

2010-07-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

Aww, sucker.
I pratice the god-damn wrong thing for 2 hour straight ! Damn fucking hell !
Was praticing Don't Say Lazy- K-ON. Came back then realise it was wrong.
Its like,, bloody fuck no crash ! It hi-hat ! CB ! So tu lan siyahh.

Went to Tiong with Mandy to so-call celebrate my birthday that is in 7 day time ! Woots !

Thenn, that Aida said. 'Ah~ EZ-link no money. Don want go.' WTF?! Yesterday, still ask. Tomorrow want go a not. WTF. CB siyahh.

ANywayy, went to tiong and saw 4 seniors. LOL ! Went to comic connetion. I bought a lot of things!

1. U-KISS name tag.
-Its pink ~ Hahaha! It was on display. But its gone now ! XD

2. U-KISS RULER !
-I know, i'm crazy. But heyy, since i don't have a ruler. I'll buy one ! Its U-KISS !

3. U-KISS phone strap.
-HAHAHA! I'm crazy. But whatever. Its not really nice though. Should have bought KISEOP phonestrap. Sighh~ Nevermind.

4. Baby Ti-ger.
-Its for HyunMin's birthday. Its suppose to be a gift ! XD No money donated siyahh. How? -get shot-
Seriously. I only have like $0.10 left in my whole wallet cause Yui forgot to bring money for jamming. T_T

5. Pink headphones. ONTO ones !
-Damn cheap ! Its like.. $5 only? But quality sucks. It came off. WTF?!

Hahah, bought a lot of stuff. But it was fun. Spent $50 today. Shhess, Mandy owes me $4.90 ! Yui, i'm not sure. xD I think $7? Hahah! I'm AMT RIN !XDDDD

Siann, hengg, i never buy anything else or not, band jamming really cannot pay. Still owe $3 to the lady at the store. WTF?! Sheess, this sucks.

Crazily needs money right now ! So,, i'mma sell my GazettE and AliceNine stuff away. Sadd, i know. But i have no choice !

9/10 people said they will never eat McDonald's again after seeing the truth about their food ->

http://McDsRevealed.com

cant believe people seriously eat this..

2010-07-07T18:29:00.000+08:00

Lalala~ Bored.

Went to Plaza Sing with Aida today ! Bought a new things.
That can go crazy for !

1. My drum sticks !
-Its BLUE !Sparkle ~ Cause like 17.30$. Quite cheat~. xD

2. U-Kiss's Lee Kiseop NameTag.
-Its like $5. But, who cares. I'm Kiseop crazy !

3. EZ-link sticker. U-KISS ONE !
-$1. Hahah! Kiseop look SO GOOD in all of them ! Arghhh! Wanted to buy everything !

4. A Micky Mouse Soft Toy.
-$1. Surprising ehhs? Its bigger than a A4 Size paper ! Should i give it to HyunMin?
But its cute ! I want it ! =X Won it at the gaming thing ! AHAHA!
Was laughing like hell with Aida !

Went to eat some Malay food with Ah Da~ (Aida). Got piss off with the chicken. So, didn't eat finish. Ahahahah!

Thenn, when go buy sticks the time. We like retards like that ! Henng, Mandy not there ! =X

Hahah! Few more days, and i'll be officially 13 ! Yayyy ! God bless me !

XANDER! ILY ! Just feel like saying it to Xander, Alexander Lee (U-Kiss). Hahah, suddenly one.

Tomorrow, need pay teacher $5+. Don't know for what ehhs. Sighh~ Tomorrow got english again !

Must remember bring tie to school on friday! Then, go band pratice. ^^ Yayy~ Seeing Syncronize for the first time !

But,, i reading the scores very slowly. Cannot remember properly ! Aiyohhh.

KISEOP BABY! SEOPPIE OPPA ! ILY! You're married to me ! =X Hahahah. Yeap, HE'S MINE ! Lovin'You~ Muacks ! -Squeal- So hyper when comes to Kiseop! Ahhhh~

2010-07-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

Arghh. I SERIOUSLY WANT TO DIE.

I go school, kenna backstab. Go home same thing.
Online also. FUCK LAH. I really want to cry, you know?

Everyday, you backstab me. You make people hate me. But what do you know?
People tend to love me more and more each time you backstab me.
LOL. You make my uncle hate. Well, continue. I don't give a GOD-DAMN FUCKING HELL CARE ABOUT IT.
FUCK YOU.

Bitch. Whore. Slut.

Bitch, Go ahead. Make people hate me. I don care anymore.

I emo, you people hate me. I be nice. You people take advantage. WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK YOU WAN?!

Now, my Ahmah also hate me. uncle, aunties dun really like me. Aiyahh, dun take me as family lah.
Bitch. GO TO HELL. FUCK YOU. Mess up my happy family.
CB. Go to hell. What the bloody hell is wrong with you. Go die lah. Not my fault you said me.

Fuck hell.

I wanna cry. Seriously want to give my soul to Satan. Bloody hell, i don't believe in family anymore. Thanks alot BITCH. God. Someone just kill me.

FUCK UP. Even Kiseop won't make me smile this time.

2010-07-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

Lalala~ Gonna make some changes to my blog.
Yeaaa~ XD

Gonna do a cover for 'As Long As You Love Me'.
Fell in love with this song cause of U-Kiss. XD

Wanna learn photography also. Blame Kiseop. XDDD Kinda crazy alreadyy ~

Gonna buy gifts, drum sticks on wed. Gonna drag Aida with me. MUST BUY. Lalala~
Tomorrow, school start again. Sighhh. Sian dao~

EHHHH!! Tomorrow got PE. Then, MT. Sian lahh~ Then, got english also. Waolao. I owe teacher homework. Not yet do. No printer ! HOW?! HOW?! AHHHHH!!!!!
Waolao, this week why must have EL and LIT. Fuck up siyahhh.

Siannnn.
Ohh~ Shit. Got ART on wed. Must go do the.. Art thingy. Ermmm, nvm. Waolao, need go buy alot of things. No money already siyahhh. CB.

-Emos-

Aiyohhh, sian lahh. Lazy go school. Sucker siyah, school.

2010-07-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

Today is YoonLeader Birthday ! DooJoon birthday ! Yaayy~ Addicted to Love Ya- SS501. Too bad HyungJoon quit liao.
Ermm, correct one not arhhs? Both same same. Very hard remember sio.

Went tiong just now with Umma~ Bought a lot of things !

Umma bought me a U-kiss clock ! AHAHA! So happy ! Gonna buy the U-kiss folder next time !

Then, i buy new school bag. My old one, reallt spoil until very cia lat. Buy pens and pencil.

All pink colour ! AHAHA! Bag is pink. Got pink one just buy. Little be siao already. Aiyahh~ Forget ask my liao bu i what blood one.

Sometime like A sometime like B sometime like O. Henng arhhs, wait. I think sometime like AB also. Siyahh lahhh~ Later my blood type is X. AHAHA! Jk~ Not funny luhhs. Hmpf~

Gonna bake cookies later. DK for what. Then, gonna eat my cake ! Shall post picutre later. Give the pic to DooJoon ! His bday cake ! AHAHA! Bought new books also ! Yeaa~ I love them !

Buuuttt, cannot find drum sticks. Aiyohh~ Must go the plaza sing then got. Sighh. Later very ex sia ! Oh~ I buy new school shoe also !Old one spoilt liao. Everywhere got hole one ! XDD But nice to wear.

The Yani lahh~ Got throw away my full of hole school shoe. Need go buy new one. Pfff, horrible hor?

Need to start saving like siao. So, next time U-Kiss come can buy vvip. Hahah~ Save more so can go Korea with Mandy ! Then, save EVEN more ! So can buy Iphone. HAHA! Got a lot of thing i want lahh~ So must save very hard.

Lalala~ Twitter so sian. Nothing do siyahh these day.

Aishh~ Whateva.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOONLEADER, DOOJOON !

Okayy~ Nothing liao bahhs.

Listening; Pink Masquerade -SuG
Doing; Ermm, nothing?
Having; headache T_T

2010-07-03T16:12:00.000+08:00

Today is,, My brother Zhi Yu and my former 'friend', Wan Ting. birthday.
LOL! Tomorrow is DuJun birthday ~

Anywayy, Happy birthday friend and bro!

And to those that having same brithday. Okayy lahh, i don't think you will be THAT lame to read me nobbiie blog.
XD Watevaaa~ Happy birthday.

This year, blog alot horhs? Good right? But nobody read one. Siannnn~ Whateva lahhh.
I editted 73 photos. U-Kiss + D-NA. HAHAH! Edit until head pain siyahh~ Got eye bag! T_T

I give Cookies to my evil senior and,, My brother yesterday.

Gonna make more more more next month.

National Day.
10 for Zhi Yu
10; Mandy
10;Randy
10;Felix
10;Aida
8;Luan Bing
10; Mr Lai
10; Mr Tan

Erm.. Still have not arhhs?

Ohh yaa,
10; Xin Hui
10; Serene
10; For principle?

The rest for me ! XD
Will make extras in case in case. XDDD Need buy alot of thing. Must buy more butter. More egg. And more flour. T_T

Will make about 200 cookies ! Fighting ! Fighting ! YES! FIGHTING !

Hmm, maybe buy icing write U-KISS on it. And 사랑해,기섭오빠. Maybe Maybe. See first bahh.

Ohhh yeahh, i got my pay yesterday ! YAYY! But 300 only. Siannnn~ Can do what? Must make more money. So can go Korea and Japan ! XD AHAHAH! Need meet Sayeara to pass her the check.

Siann, but she never sms me lehhh... Anywayy, gonna post 1 FULL chapter of Married Match Maker on either 15, 16 or 17 July. -Nods nods- LOL !

Chosen girls will be out on.. erm.. Idk~ I happy then said lahh okay? XD
_Get shot-

Anywayy, better go to something else other than blogging editting and fb-ing. and twitting. ALalala~

Bye !

사랑해,기섭오빠. ♥ Lalala~ Always in my heart

2010-07-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~ Maknae Dongho's bday is over and he is officially 16. (Korea; 17).
Today another person bday. Alot hor? xD

Leeteuk's birthday. YES ! Super Junior's leader ! Leeteuk !
And its also his birthday that i got sick, burned and remember that i didn't do homework ! HAHAHA ! xDDD

Happy Birthday Dude~ I ain't gonna said those mushy mushy stuff like what the other ELF said.
Sometime about rain, angels and him. I think. =_=" Hehe ~ Well, Happy Birthday !
I don't have enough extra cookies for him! Oops ! XDD
SOrry ~ Kinda crazy today.

Another 2 more days, its my bro. Zhi Yu bday ! LOL !
Must go do homework. But, i lazy do lehh. So hard to do.

Wahh~ Tomorrow lessons all so boring. Let's see arhhs..

Physic. SUCKKKSSS !
ART. SUCKKKKSSS EVEN MORE !
MT. Erm... Talk to Mandy ! XDD
EL. NOOOOOO !!!! WHY MR BEN?! THAT harras me teacher T_T
Save meeeeee.... T_T

Sighh~ Tomorrow. Need bring physic file. I think. Still got what? Oh ohh~ I forget.
Henng i got write down ! XD I not stupid okayy~ XDD

15 more days than, my birthday liao~
Weeehhhh~ Aiyahh, but no body remember one. T_T I remember their one. Give them thing.
They don't remember my one. FUCK YOU LAHH BITCHES !

Hmpf.

Tired.. See doctor just now. more than 5 time liao. I think Dr. Tan sick of my face liao. HAHA! Even my ah mah more healthy than me siyah ! Waolao !

But, hennng arhhs. U-Kiss here the time. I not sick. Or not i cry give you see erhs!
XDD Drama siyahh~

I no CCA. Must go join liao. But Join what leh? Choir? ELDDS(Drama)? IDK ! HELP ARHHS!

Nevermind, I go do homework. Wish me luck.
So many word cannot find. Aiyohhhh~ Damn it lahhh~ Just my fcking luck. Pffff....

2010-06-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

Lalal~ Still not yet change out of UNIFORM! XDD I love my uniform!
1 month never wear. Skirt short liao woorrhs, teacher gonna scold! XDD
Heck care lahhH~ XDDD

Today Home Econs, me and serene at there talk about Chef's Kiss. What Kevin, Kiseop, DOngho.. Something something.. XDDD IDK wat. Forgot liaoo.

Thenn, thenn, We bake COOKIES! YAYYY! My one, still can lahh. Left 2 only. XDD HENNGG ARHHS! Never give Dainel and jai wei. Dk if name spell correct bo lahh~ XDD HAHAH!

I just found out arhhs, the leader of SS501 leavin the ground. Kim HyungJoon. Correct? Messy liao lahh mee~ XDDDD -get shot- Today in school, just talk about him siyah! XD Crazy rite?!

Then, DONGHO'S BDAY! WOOHHH!! Sweet 16! NC16 movie can watch ready. -Pfff~- Who cares about NC16 rated siyahh! I can go watch ehs! They all tot me 16 mahh! XDD I look old T_T

LOL! Today, Math class siannn daoooo~ Got new cher. I WAN MR CHIONG BACK! ARGHHHHH!!! FCK UP YOU MRS LAI! CB! Then that New cher, Mr Wu? I thinkk?? Who knowss.. HAHA!

He.. Kind lahh. I think. Leant me and Aida his text book. HAHAH! EX siyah thatt text book!$16+ Lehh! Use half year only! CB! HMPFFF!!

Nothing doo~ Going to watch finish My Lucky Star. AGAIN. Then, watch You're Beautiful. HAHAH!

Okayyyss~

2010-06-28T18:31:00.000+08:00

Wahaha! IDK how many people read my GOD-DAMN BLOODY blog~
Buutt~ Watevaa~ XDD I know, i know. I ain't SHINee de people. Or what idol!
But arhhs, My blog arhhs. 3 YEARS OLD ALREADYY! -Thank you THank you!- XDDD
AHAHA!! I siao liaoo!! XXDD

My blog share same Bday withh thhee.. the... MIKA and KARAM of Dae Gak Nam Ah(D-NA).
Paiseh arhhs, if spell wrong!~ Paiseh! Paiseh! Excuse moi lahh~

And the.. IDK who lahh.. But i think is MinHyuk and SeoHyun? I thinkk.. IDK who lahh~ Don't ask me okayyy~! XDD

I really very sian arhhs, watch 8 time the drama watch again. But skip skip many ep. HAHAHA!!! Todayy, got PE.

Do 8 runs of running.. Then, 25 push up and 25 sit up. Wahh~ Push up, siann lahh~!! IDK how do siyahh!

I knoww~ Stupid lahh mee! XDDD Do the 'girl version' one. Knees on ground and move up and down? HAHAH!! I think lahh.

Cher no looking so tikam tikam count lorhhs. I do like 7 only. Count 15. HAHAH!! Yeaa yeaa~ I cheat!

Todayy,, i sleep like... around 3-5 hours? Just now! XDDD Do the thing do until ZZZZ. Nothing do so blog arhhs! HAHA! Still got what arhhs...

TMR got ENG! SHIT LAHHH!!! I anyhow do homework! Tmr also got Home Econs. IDK HOW COOK. This time BAKE?! WTF?!?! WHYYYY!!!

Cannot do sewing mehh? At least can see the boys become lao ah pe lao ahmah! XDD! DK how do mahhH! XDD

Ohh ya, Please trend #MikaramBirthday on Twitter! IDK what time, just to do lahh! XDD!
Tmr need trend #happydonghoday . Don't ask me. Ask the admins about it. Cauusse, i just siao siao folloow!

Collect moi costume liao, but look like wrong lehh.. IDK lah~ I also not doing the character anymore! XDD Will sell away! XDD -Get shot-

Ohh, wish my Blog Happy Birthday Okay??? XDD Its call '/}BINGINGLEE' XDD i got a name for it! WAOLAO! XDDD
Siao rdyy! HAHAHA!!

2010-06-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

LOL! LOL! 2 more days! 2 more days! And then, my blog will turn 3 years old! Woohooo! XD
3 more days to Dongho's Bday! YAYYY!! And then,, he will be erhhhss.... 16! Wahh kaooo~
Almost write 13! XDDD Dongho 3 years older than me! Wahhh~ Watevaaaa~ XDDD
MY LONG LONG WISH LIST! Let see got si mi in there arhhhs~

-Iphone
-U-kiss Iphone case.
-U-kiss albums. -Lazy buyy. Somemore. Bo money siaa-
-Stalk them
-KISEOP -get shot. And dies-
-Pass final year exams! -end of year.. Ermm~-
-Pass NAFA
-AhhBen don't bully me
-LingWei stop being a ASSHOLE! DAMN!
-IDK.. But.. BE VICE-CHAIRMAN! XDD -Take ahhbro place!-
-Talk to Kevin and Xander! In ENGLISH! XD -lets leave Eli out!-
-Earn more $$$ to spent! HAHAH!
-Master drums!
-Get FIRST for STGCC and EOY.
-Able to play well for STGCC(?). Cause its my FIRST live!
-See D-NA
-Meet MBLAQ
-U-KISS CONCERT!

For now,, i thinkk only got these bahhs~ XDD Quite alot horhs? I dunn thinkk that fat man in red.. What is he call again arhhs? -get shot- =X
Anywayy,, This yearr, i shall be good girl! So get many many things! XDD JKJK!

Ohh~ I wan FBTs also! Black, dark blue, white, grey and maybb, red or pink! XDD I siao liaoo arhhs! XDD HAHAH!

Todayy, work.. still out luhhs.. Got one woman buy the thing until 113.80$$$ Wahhkaoo~ RICH SIYAHHH!!!
I so poor T_T HAHA! Whole day yawning! Wann sleep liaoo~ Unless that kor of mine, call me and li siao me. Aiyohhh~

Got new story also! Calll.. Call. Si mi arhhs.. Ermm.. Ohh ohh~ Call 'Married Match Maker'. HAHA!! And arhhs, U-KISS is mine! XDD Everything will start from Kiseop! XDD
KISEOP BIAS! HAHAHAH!!

Really crazyy reeadddyyy~ Sighhh! Tomorrow still need work. Then, 2 more days. School open liaoo.
Shit siyahh! I homework not yet do finish! They all lahh! Dun tell me got si mi homework! Only got do math! CB!

Siannn~ Tomorrow last day work. Then, 2 week off! YAYYY!! Idk for what luhhhs. HAHA! Anywayy~ Mee wann goooooo write forewords liaoo~ Ciao!

I watch Fang yang de xing xing ytd! But no watch finish lahh~ Cause watch 8 times ready! COME ONE LAHH! PLEASE! XD!

YTD, i meet BEAST face to face... But, i never scream at all. Even though, HyunSeung eyes are pretty! And were staring at me. i end up staring back at him and look away. Stare at him. He look like okayy lahh. IDK how said. But i look at him =_=" Ouhkkkayy.. Watcha looking at dude?

HAHAH! GiKwang's eyeliner nice siyahh! OMG! XDD! Anwayy,, Ciao yo! Ciao!

-KISEOP! <333 XDD

2010-06-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

LOL! I'm back from BEAST fanmeet. Wahh~ Almost DIED there !
The fans all push push. Dun how for what! Waolao! I cannot breathe at all!
Then, also got people give me the 'tsk'. Wahh! Fck up lahh! Take bag also cannot meh?! CB!

So any tall people. Cannot take pic. All blur blur one. All the 'guards' all block us! KNS! Only see them face to face.!

First is, Yoseob. He damn cute can?! That baby smile of his! Ahaha! He said 'Thank you'. And i reply him 'Hi!'. I know WTF?! No link at all! But still ahaha!!
Then he said 'Hello!' Or was it 'Hi'. His voice quite hight and deep luhhs. The accent very weird!

Then is, DuJun. Ouhkayy lahhs.. Very boring. All he did was. Smile. Then, sian sian. Bo liao~ Nothing do. Smile back lorhhs. xDD Leader~ Damn shuai! xDD Beside him is DongWoon.

DongWoon one. I cut short. Cause, i also dun know what happenn!! xDDD I think is like, after DuJun sign. Move on mahhs~ The people push me. I didn't see Dongwoon's face. But i heard him said 'Thank you'. I think.. =_="" HAHAH!

Then, is HyunSeung! Ahhh~! This one NICE ARHHS! He today damn pretty! I like the hair and make-up! His eyes so pretty! LOL! After the people push me, i didn't see DongWoon's cute face. I stare at HyunSeung. Eye contact more than 5 seconds! XDDD NICE EHHSS! Then, push me again! KNS! I enjoying that moment siyahhh! So its like...
'Stare.' 'Stare.' 'Stare'.
Then, later. They push me. Arghh! 'Why push me!' I look away from HyunSeung's eyes/ stare and move on to GiKwang. Long right! NICE ARHHS! I'm such a lucky bitch to have eye contact with him for more thana 5 seconds! XDD I ain't a bitch. BTW!

Then, GiKwang. He said 'Hello.' So reply him 'Hi'. His eyeliner very nice ehhs! Damn nice! Dark dark one! Then, he sign and like flying CD like that. pass to JunHyung. XDD He smile at me. Got eye contact for about 2-3 seconds! HAHAH!

Last one is, JunHyung. This guy nothing said lahh~ Sighh~ He didn't even bother looking up! Waolao! All he did was stare at the CDs. Sign and move on. But his hair nice! AHHH!!HAHAHA!

I siao liao~ Not really lahh~ I see them, i not excited at all! Whole day there, talk about U-Kiss. Talk about Kiseop. HAHAHAHA!! After the fanmeet. Me and Lynn jie walk to MRT.

While talk bad about them. Said JunHyung very what lahh~ No fanservice. LOL! LOL!
But said ehhs, Didn't see DongWoon's face! XDD Whateva~

Today also very disappointed! The BEAST FC admins aren't doing a good job! Very messy! Got people everywhere! Hengg arhhs, U-Kiss one still can. BEAST one really fck up!

Then arhhs, even worst. BEAST late for 1/2 hour! Idol big shot arhs? Come late give ppl wait! Where got like that one! U-Kiss can come on time. Why BEAST cannot? Just because there more popular? Cause got 30 vans stalk them? SIAO!

I really wan turn Anti-beast. But after having eye contact with HyunSeung, Cannot lahH~ But i never betray Kiseop wor! He still my love <33

-Jaaaa~ Kiseop's wifey.

2010-06-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

Was watching I like you MV. Damn funny can. Waolao! Whats with their hair siyah!?
Eli looks like a freakin' hentai. Aiyohhh!! Ever pictture and video i see arhhs. He look like hentai. Alamak!
I'm in love with 'Without you'. Reminds me of Kiseop. Just Kiseop!
Without you~ Lalalala~ -Idk si mi lyrics- Paiseh!
Nevermind luhhs~ Kiseop~ <3 I'm a mad Kiseop fan! XDDD Siao liao siao liao!

My life is incomplete
Without you, boy

I think of you every minute, every day

Without you, I really miss you

Without you, you're the only one I love
Can't live without you

Without you I'm lost, boo, I miss you, I miss you

Now I know, you're my everything
Oh, oh, oh, oh
I really miss you

Familiar? XD Confirm lahh! Without you-U-kiss lyrics mahh! XDD
Expect i change to girl to boy. XDD Come on lahh! I not les boo! xDD

And the boy i talking about.. PPL, YOU DK DE HUA! REALLY CANNOT LAHH!
No read my blogg arhhhhssss! Naughty naughtyyy!! =X -get shot-

The boy= Kiseop. xDD Told ya~ I'm crazyy~ XDD

Though, i'm still really worried about u-kiss impression on S'pore KissMes. Waolao ehs! So violent siyahh! HENNNG ARHHS! I not at the airport. Or not i thikn i die liao worrr. =XX

But also sad lahh, Cannot help Admins protect them. Ahmah kenna scratch siyahh! CB! Poor ahmahh!

Hope they will come back to S'pore again. Cause.. REALLY ARHS! I didn't see to see them properly. So behind. How to see?! You tell me lahh! -get shot-

I wanna cry everytime i think about the airport thing. Sia lahh. Think that Kiseop got hurt. Xander, Kevin and Soohyun. POOR THING! T-T I really cry for the pass few days ehhs! My heart break liao lahh! -go pick up the pieces-

Nobody here to help pick up.. -Sighhhh- x_x My admins got hurt. T-T Ahmah got hurt T-T

I very bo liao~ End up havin my mother feed me! XDDD Like right now!
One of the members from DNA bday same bday with my blog! My blog turning 3 years old liao! One day before Dongho's bday! XDD

Aishh.. Maknae and someone talking. IDK they talk si mi. Come back blog xDD Waiting for Kiseop to have twitter. I'm gonna spam his twitter! XDDD -get shot-

Today.. Sales is around 61.70$. Woohooo! I work alone so much! XDDD But but~ U-Kiss and BEAST all come S'pore.. NO GO ZOO ONE! Spore so .. ermm. nice... -You see everyday.. won't be nice liao lor-

The rabbit SOOOO HUGE! Got about 20-50 cm ehhs! XDD!

Tomorrow is BEAST fanmeet. I going but.. I don't feel excited lehhs. Somehow lahh, i give up on BEAST already. -roll eyes- Idk why.. But got no member that i ke siao over one.

U-kiss. I siao over Kiseop. xDD Anywayy, i go spam other place liao lahh~ Bo thing said. xDD

2010-06-22T09:04:00.000+08:00

Okayy~ Finally manage to get a GOOD sleep.
Past 2 days didn't sleep much. Cause of U-KISS.

Friday /20.06.2010

IMM. MEET AND GREET.

Went there then go mac eat while waiting for the others to come.
Then line up. Go in at around 11+ i think. Wait until siann liao take out laptop use.
Go see all the siao siao thing. Like Yaoi. xD (Thinking of Kemaru)
4+ They come! YAYYY!!! I SAW KISEOP!
But arhhs, the people beside and behind me push here push there.
Push until piss off liaoo.
So walk away. Back pain like hell! Manage to take some blury blury pictures.
But not really zoom in lahh~
Cause my lousy phone. LOUSY! Arghh...

But at least i get to see my Blonde Kiseop! <3 xDD JK!
Seriously hot arhhs! Ahhh~! SooHyun! Why so close to him?! YOU KNOW HE'S MINE!!
-Get shot & died-

I got the file! Weeehh~ KISEOP! I'm might be crazy but not crazy until go stalk them luhhs.
Like those go the radio 100.3 mediacrop there and the hotel thingy. AIYOH!
After Fanmeet, we so SSS. (Sheng Siong Show) All i can hear was screaming.
The guy beside me must think i'm crazy. Cause for screaming like (We went in at around 7+? I think) 3 hours straight.
Was like 'KISEOP!!' xD I siao liaoo~ Ahaha! Now, talk also got problem. Aiyohh ehhs...
I got a free ballon! A white colour one! But it when POP. T-T Wateva luhhs.
U-Kiss unfair siyahh~ Go to the place where all the Kissme are. The little bit one kena ignored. T-T
Come earlier also no use. Cheyy, why like that siyahh! xD -get shot again-
But at least, i saw Kiseop smiling and waving towards the direction i sitting at! KYAHHH~!! HAPYY! xDDD
Wonder if Ahmah got take pic not. I DON'T CARE ARHHS! I want his pictures!
my one all blur blur one. Aiyohh ehhs~

...

ST.JAMES POWER STATION. SHOWCASE / 21.06.2010

Went there at like 8+ I think? Wahhh, almost 100 vvip liao! I got number 97. XD LaiSim got 100! HAHA!!
Maknae got 98. Diona get 99! Weird hors? WanQian idk luhhs...
We go there. I got a perfect view one lehhs! Then people come block me. The hand so long. T-T But i see can see lahh~ Maybe should learn AhMah friend. Wear high heels!
I took one short video for idk what song. Forget liao. xD Siann lahh me. Gong gong one.
I LOVE THE SHOWCASE! But still, very sad ehhs. KISEOP ALWAYS GO THE OTHER SIDE! HMPF!
Then, SooHyun and DongHo every time block him. Hwaaaa! How can like that one!
Then, SooHyun! HOW DARE YOU TOUCH MY KISEOP! xD -get shot- xDD
Kiseop and SooHyun do so many thing. What...
Hug lahh, touch chest lahh(OMGD), Fake fake kiss lahh~ ect ect.
KiBum and him share water i think. xD HOT SIYAHH~ I saw KiBum pass waterbottle to him. IDK~
Was looking at something else i think. xD
Unluckky sio, handphone no battery. CCB SIYAHHH!!!
Go to the club there. Haha! Underage! xDD Dongho also! xDD SO CUTE!
Sing birthday song give DongHo and Alexander. The Ukissmesg admins. One of them is Cordy. Went up stage give gifts and cake. The one taking cake is Cordy.
Then that greece (Or grace? Should be grace arhhs? IDK lahhh) Easier. OhMyHo. Went up and play game with them.
She hug ALL of them! First one is DongHo lahh~ She touch Kiseop also! T-T I hate youuu....
They teach the Talk to me. Then, finish the showcase with Man Man Ha Ni.
THey got special stage. Sing what english song.
I thought they said End of the world. My eyes go like O__________________O
But is End of the ROAD. HAHA! Ear got little bit spoilt liao arhhs. xD
'You belong to me.
And I belong to you.' OMGD! Scream like siao! Kiseop's voice very soft arhhs. Like Mika (D-NA) siyahhh. He sing cannot hear anything. But whatever. Still LOVE HIM! xD
Deleted all of Reita's pictures. From my phone. SHHH!! Don't tell him! LOL! JK!
DongHo... Not very tall arhhs? The girls that all not tall one arhhs... =_=""
Siann nothing do. Sit there more then 5 hours for the showcase.
Go vivo walk walk. Saw this; BOOK OF ELI.
And then saw; The BEAST. Eyes become 0________________________________0?!?!?!??!
Hope they will come back Singapore again!
But after THAT inncident. Idk ehhs...

After Showcase. Alot of people zao very fast. Go 'stalk' them. I not one of them lahh~ I take MRT go home sleep. =_=zzzzz
They going to the Mediacrop there. Listen to 100.3. SMS in. More like SPAM sms lahh~ xDD Who cares. I LOVE TO SPAM! xD SHHH!!!
But arhhs, no very lucky lahh~ But wateva~ As long they read can liao. XD
They went back hotel. Got people push SooHyun siyahh! FCK THEM LAHHHH!!!!!! WHY DO THAT?!
He hurt his back ehhs! Poor thing! Call my gang go beat those KissMe arhhs! JK! I won't do that!
SooHyun's back idk what happen but i think kena hurt bahhs? Then. Even more horrible. The Maknae, DongHo, have to CRAWL to the lift?! WTF?!
(Taken from twitter) IDK if its true but.. HORRIBLE SIYAHHH!!!! WHY LIKE THAT!
But, by the time they go hotel. I sleep liao looh. Cannot stand my senior. Upload pictures so long.
Germaine BEST lahh! Tag me at Kiseop's pictures! xD NICE! I LIKE! ILY,GERMAINE! YOU MY NEW BFF!
Heard from maknae, My maknae. They go AMK. DK for what. Kiseop took their picture! I scream over the phone when she tell me! xD
But she also screaming. IDK what she said lahh~
KiBum waved. SooHyun read the paper she wrote 'Alexander. Stop peeking @ Kevin'? I think or was it 'Why are you peeking @ Kevin?!' IDK~
All i know was that. I sleep liaoo~ xD

Okayy.... Thats about all bah? If got more i post again. But now. Should be don't have.
I needa go work liao~ BYE BYE~!
(KISEOP's MINE)

2010-06-18T14:47:00.000+08:00

Wakaka~ I cannot stand myself siyahh! That stupid Ring Ding Dong MV! AIYOHHHHH!!!
Keep staying in my GODDAMN bloody small brain! -Big head small brain? XDD-
TaeMin wearing white with 'bowlcut' -Spelling typo error!!!- hairstlye. Simply ADORKABLE! XDDD
Drinking that white colour thingy. Milk bahhs? IDK~ Whatever it is. Makes him look so much cuter!
Look so innocent siyahh! Even Dongho don't look innocent. XDD -Get bricked- Kevin does look innocent. Alexander also. WAH! DONGHO LOST TO THEMMMM~!!! -Get shot. Dies-

New bias for SHINee. Lee TaeMin~ Of course. After Key! LOLSSS!! XDD! Bling Bling fell into 3rd place~ Onew currently last. =_=" Someone gonna kill meee~ Minho fourth. Key also 1st! YEAA!!

Overall, dun know at where lahh~ Since.. Top few either is Jrock,Jpop or DBSK. >.< Pffff.... XDDD -dies-
I know i know! Ring Ding Dong very old liao. But can't help but stare at TaeMin's adorkable face! I think... -Get shot- X_X He CAN DANCE! DAMNNN!! I lose to him siyahh! Ehh.. Wait. I don't dance! XD -Get shot again-

Ehehe~ Got shot so many time never die! I'm a undead~! Woohhooo! -Get killed- XDDD Aiyohhh~
Just 2 more dayyysss! 2 more dayyys~

....
-ALERT- NOT SUITABLE FOR BOYS. AND MAYBE GIRLS ALSO! AIYAH! DON'T READ HERE CAN LIAO LAHHH.

I miss my period T-T I know weird! But true! XDDDD

....

Lala~ Bought a ring with Lee Kiseop crave on it! Crazy Kiseop fan! HAHA! Forgot about Reita! SORRY HUBBYYY!! XDD -Get shot- JKJK!!! LOL LOL! So random arhhs? XDDD
Hwaiting to go back to school. Mayb fight with that bloody asshole again bahhs~ !

-Dead butterfly.

2010-06-08T22:43:00.001+08:00

HOHOHO!!
I cut my fringe. Sadd arhhs. I cut into bangs. xD
Look freaking retarded right now. So sadd!! That guy dunno cut hair siyahh!
Anyyhow cut one siyahhh.

My VERY VERY clean hair become oily. He touchtouchtouch. So sad.
Keep touching touching. Wahh! I just now almost wanna kill him! Arghhh.

Next time, i'm going far far away cut. Horrible place!! Hmpf!

I got my BEAST album+ticket! YAYYY!! Listening to it right now!
Bad girl-currently playing~ Woots!
Gonna go buy clothes and dress like YoSeob! Since my hair reminds me of him! xDD AHAHA!
So hyper todayy~ Dunno why ehhs..

My holiday complete! YESS!! Gonna see U-Kiss! Then BEAST! What else can i ask for?
BIG BANG! DBSK! HEY!SAY!JUMP! GAZETTE! ALICE NINE! xDD AHAHA!!
So happyyy!

2010-06-07T11:03:00.000+08:00

Gonna pay for the FC tee shirt through bank transfer.
Call my mother transfer money, i pay her. No choice arhhs.
Go work on that day. SHIT SIAAA!!

Anywayyy, very very very very happy! I'm gonna go Jurong East later to get the BEAST album.
Maybe around late afternoon. xD Same time i call my mother help me do thing. Buwahaha! XPP

CHEYY... Cheat my feelings siyahhh! Today no work. Sad ehhs. I want to workk!! Have no money so need to work. Also need to go cut hair. Wanna cut side fringe.
Weehh~ xDDD

Ate curry for breakfast. I'm hungry again... LOL!! So long never go back to SGcafe liao. Lazy go ehhs. Nevermind llahh~ Don't go back arhhs.
Who cares anywayy? xDD

WEEHHH! I'M GONNA SEE UKISS!!! -Jump around- HAPPYY! Gonna meet BEAST alsoo!! YAYYY! MY HOLIDAY IS GONNA BE COMPLETE!

I dun mind going to school and let Ahhh Ben bully liaoo~ I GET TO SEE BEASTT! Die-hard crazy BEAST-tic. xDD new wordd! YEAA!!xDD

Ukiss-tic! xPP I'm going crazy now!! Better go clam down. later come back crazy again lahh!
-Kiseop-tic<3

2010-06-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

Ahhh!! 14 more days! WOOTS! Time to go see UKISS! Time to see MY BlondeHoneyBabeHottie!

Guess who! Guess who! xDD So lame arhhs me>,< WAKAKAKA!! ITS KISEOP! YESS! KISEOP!
Even though, SooHyun is also blonde.. But.. Aishh~ Nvm.
But arhhs, My ICHIBAN honeyblondebabehottie is REITA! He is blonde~ HAHASSS! LOVES LOVES!!

Getting random here. Aishhh... Anywayy, collected my UKISS ticket and things liaoo~ YAYYY!!! GONNA SEE THEM!

And then... -Counts- i think 19 days? To BEAST! Manage to buy one from a girl for$35. Anyone selling? I need 1 or 2 more~ For Lynn jie and my brother. Aiyahh!

Why my brother must be a BEAST fan. Like gay liddat. =X Joking niaa~ Lols. Should like Ukiss also mahh~ Anywayy, I'm gonna buy TONS of album of UKISS and BEAST. Maybe FT island, DBSK and super junior also.

Ehh~ I dun really know Ft island futher more like them, but i wanna buyy~ Dunno whyy ehhs. OH! OHH!! And SHINee! How can forget about the HoneySweetEmo-lookingbutisn'temoboy KEY! AHHH!! xDD

Now watching; No Limit. YUNHO INSIDE!! Play soccer! YES! YES! YESSSS!!! TOO HOT LIAOO! But then arhhs,,, Whaatt happen to his honey abs? Like flat liao ehhhs.. In Mirotic like O,O WOOWW! HOTT!

Now is like =_=" Okayy... Joon's abs are better. Not mentioning KiKwang's! LOLS! Aiyehhh~ Yunho my bias. JaeJoong also. JunSu also. Aiyahh, all of them also my bias.
ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH! xDD So random liao~ AHAHAA!! So siannn~

AHH!H Anyone selling BEAST autograph album and ticket?? PLEASE CONTACT ME!!
joeyloveaaron@hotmail.com
or//
8402 9442. PLEASE AND THANK YOU! I'm a DIE-HARD fangirl. Brain got little bit... siao arhhs.. -Knock heads- xPP Really siao liaoo. HOW?! HAHAHAHA!!

AIYAHHH!!! Where my FREAKING stamps go?! Waiit... I never buy.. =X But all the shops don't have ehhs.. SO HARD SIYAHH! I WANNA SEND IT!! -Jump around-

I want meet BEAST. TT_TT I'm like some pyhsco fangirl that come out of mental hopsital liddat. LOLS! xDD

-KISEOP-TIC xDD

2010-06-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

Wahaha~ I'm being so lame these days! Keep posting on my blog. xD
BUWAHAH!! I finally remember my Twitter password! YESS!! -Happy dance-
OMGD! Alexander (Ukiss) doesn't look his age. His 22(23 in korean. But nvm). But he look like Kevin and KiBum age. T-T
SO FRIGGING CUTE! KiBum i thought he 19. But he not. AIYAH! All these age make me so confuse siyah!
AHEM. Kibum, 20 but 21 in korean. Kevin, 19 but 20 in korea. ... NVM. I confuse liao. =X Shitty stuff. Arghhh...
OMGD. This june holiday i broke liao wor. I think must back out at some things liao. Sighh. Spend to much.
T-T but all on UKISS. AIYAHHH~ Why GazettE don't come!
Heard that SNSD coming. Hope is Rumor. Poor Taeyeon. She in S'pore the fanboys like stalking her. Screaming her name.
HAHAS! Maybe come in bigger shades dun wear like idol and maybe dun let the fans know lah!
Anyway, i remember my twitter password!! YAYY!! But Kiseop don't have twitter. T-T WHYYY!!!

AHHH!! MY NAIL BREAK. NOOOO!!! -Cries- CANNOT LIKE THATT!! I KEEP SO LONG ONE!! AHHHH!!!! NOOOO!! MY NAIL!! T-T

Aiyah. Cheyy, nail nia. -Pff What am i saying?!- Waiting for Ukiss concert. Lalala~~

2010-06-01T09:39:00.001+08:00

Okayyy! All i can said is that I LOVE DBSK. Seriously madly in love with DBSK. Kinda know about DBSK since like... more than 3 years. And i'm still madly in love with them.
Really hope that they get back together soon! Cause i just saw a solo album/single by Junsu. T-T
Not together. But NO WORRIES! Like they always said. KEEP THE FAITH! So i will! I believe that DBSK will be back together again!
And DAMN YAA!! SME!! Giving the boys such a FREAKING hard time! Starting to hate SME more and moe. Aishh...
LOLS. Happy to hear that they are in Japan. My favourite country>,< Cause they have Reita there! Nyahaha!!
Now listening to DBSK songs. AHHH!! ! I MISS THEM SO MUCH! Last time, heard that they going to disband. I cried.
HWAAA... Did they disband? I really want DBSK back together! YunJae. YooSu. ChangMin!
DBSK never complete if one is missing! But now is 3 missing! AHHHH!!! END OF WORLD! -Diess-
T-T

Anywayy,,,

I love JaeJoong's voice A LOT. If i every have trouble sleeping, listening to his song i fell a sleep. Lullaby~ -Spelling mistake? x_x-
All their voices all... ARGHH!! LOVE THEMMM!!!

Ohh yeaa,
Andy kor; Ehh~ Kor. Cheer up! Your gf might have broke up with you. But you still have me! C; Don't give up. Like what DBSK always said. 'KEEP THE FAITH' Or something like that. x_x. Or is it Always keep the faith? Or was it Have faith in us? Nevermind~
Cheer up and NEVER GIVE UP!

Excited~ SO VERY VERY EXCITED!! 19 more dayss!! KYAHHH!! UKISS!!! -Scream and run around- Get to see UKISS. Get to see Kiseop<3 YAYYY!!! I LOVE KISEOP! x_x
-looks around- Hope someone not reading this.

Currently listening to; Love in the ice.
mood; Hyper xD
BYES~!! -Squeal and run madly-

2010-05-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

I decided! I'm gonna said EVERYTHING out here!
Don't care if its gonna offend anyone cause I DON'T CARE!
Hehe~ Wanna play with a O blood type girl that isn't nice. Such a terrible choice.
Primary school friends no that messing with me isn't a good thing.
Cause i was a emo soon turn into a goth from what my friend said. And i will do anything that you think i wouldn't.
After i went to secondary school. I thought i could start a new. And i did.
From that emo gothic girl that was name vampire or devil by some friends i was a friendly, hyper, crazy.
A girl that always have a smile on her face. Open minded. Doesn't take things to heart. I thought that everything was over.
No more miserable life. Just happiness, peace and fun. I tried to be nice to people and keep all my thoughts and feelings to myself.
Just to make others around me happy. But guess what, you people took it for granted. THANKS A LOT! LOSSERS!
Since you took it for granted, i wouldn't be me anymore than. And the new me didn't even last for 6 FREAKING MONTHS. IT DIDN'T. WOW. LOLS.
But since you people took it for granted. Then i shall show you my true self. A person you wouldn't like to get along with.
I know that i have been unresponsible for this few months. Just because of cosplay. Costumes, wigs and shoes. So?
I have my life you know. And besides its my life. I don't care whoever group i'm in. As long as i have a life, i decide what i want to do.
You can try to stop me. But i'll warn you firs.t Its never gonna work. I'm not like some people that are girly and easy to make friends with.
I hate shopping. Try talking to me when i'm piss. Then, good luck to you. I won't be the same girl anymore. I have change 360 degree. I'm back to the old me.
The anti social me. Happy? I hope you are.
I'm frigging piss okay.
Before talking others to reflect on themselves. Why don't you reflect on yourself. I thought that i could depend on you since you are older than me.
I thought of you as my older sister. But i guess i was wrong taking you as my older sister. Then again, why did i ever take you as a sister. I made a wrong choice. How stupid of me. LOLS.
Well, guess what. I don't care what you think of me. Cause i don't live for you. I live for MYSELF and its for MYSELF ONLY.
I don't care if i have idols. Cause, they will never be part of my family. Neither will they be part of me. Thats why i only live for me and its ME ONLY.
And just in case you don't know how to read i'll spell it for you.
I. L.I.V.E F.O.R M.Y.S.E.L.F O.N.L.Y. But if you are still stupid and don't know what that mean. Go back to primary school. No wait. GO BACK TO K1. They are like smarter than you for GOD SACK.
IDOITS. Continue to mess with my life.
I DONT CARE. ANYMORE.
Happy? pff. Lossers.
FCK OFF! No wait.
CONTINUE MESSING WITH MY LIFE THEN!

2010-05-31T08:16:00.000+08:00

Waolao siyah! What the bloody hell is this?!
Always i kenna everything. Like my fault like that! ChiBai lahh siyah!
Everything i wrong. Just bcause position higher than me only like that. BIATCH.
Die lah! bleeh.Everything i wrong. Things don't work out fine. *(@&#$(@#$&(# said me.
Everything my fault. Short of cash. My fault. Like that lahh. FCK UP LAH!
Some other biatches get attention. WHy? RICH MAH! THINK THEY GOD MAH!
Got ppl help em help. Wahh. Never think for others. Ehh ehh. I study ehhs. Not working leh.
FCK YOU LAH!

Act only. Act only! Act so kind. CHIBAI ONE SIYAH! FCK YOU LAH!
Just want to have a PEACE and NOT EMO life. Cannot meh?! Why must come and make my life like FCK UP MESSY AND EMO?!
I very long never emo liao wor. Want me emo is it? Can. GO DIE LAH BIATCH! Try and take over my life again.
You see what happen. I not a 'O' blood type you want to mess with okay. Biatch!
Fcker! Go sck your father *ick lah! Chibai.

Fck off lah siyah! Don't care you read not lah. Scared you meh?
If you want fight come lahh! Big size only. So old liao still one fight with me wor.
Call police not can liao lor. xD Biatch.
Fck off lahh~

2010-05-29T15:56:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for 3rd June to come. Got 6Honesty-Classof2009- Gathering!
Not much people going but... Nevermind lah.
Tell me postpone. FCK LAH! Very hard to do all this one leh!

4thJune;
-Go pay for my UKISS concert ticket. Super excited! Nyahaha!!
Wish that i have new phone. LOLS. But whatever lahh~
Super Junior coming! But not going. Must buy touch phone then can see them.

20thJune;
-Kuroshitsuji photoshoot. Not going. ><
Sad arhhs. Everything clash on this date SIYAH!
-Aida booking
Cannot go also. SHIT! But nevermind. Sigh. Lyk i said.
Everything clash on this date!
-UKISS Fan meet
Missing everything to meet UKISS. HAHA! Think will get killed by Aida and Deidre and others after holiday over>,<
My poor life! Hahah!!

21thJune;
-UKISS showcase
1 hour only ehhs... But better then serene. Would be able to see them.
BUWAHAH! Serene gonna kill me when i go back to school. Hahaaaa!!
Good thing nothing clash on this date. Or not i DIE!! HWAAA!!

24thJune;
-MandyBooking
Nothing on this date. Just go out with mandy. YAYY!!
Wonder go where ehhs. Hmmm.. Will decide with her. Hwaiting for my jeresy!!

31thMay-6thJune;
-Starfest
Not going. T_T I wanna go. I WANNA GO!! HWAAA!!
But got a lot of thing clash together ehhs!! *Cries*

13thJune;
-Streetfest
Mostly likely not going. Sigh. Lazy collect costume.
Buy wig and shoes. >< Hopefully deidre not reading this.
NYAHAHA!!!

AIYAHH....
So many thing do.. This holiday i broke ready.
I think i will stop cosplay for awhile until i get money. $$
Haha! Gonna ask for money from my KIASU father.
LOLS! Tskkk~

Anywayy,
Madly loving MBLAQ, B2ST and UKISS.
ShinDong so cute! Showing of his abs. 0_0 HAHAH!!!
Lee Joon chocolate abs. MELT!! KYAHHHAAAA!!!
Ki Kwang also. Both my favourite members! HOW?!?!
Too bad arhhs, Reita no abs. T-T But.... Nevermind!
Loving him for who is he! MY BIAS!! REITA!
*Hides* Being all random here.

Must JY on my drumming skills. Or not EOY'10 i die.
Don't say lazy so hard lehhh~ Cannot easier one mehh. JKJK. HAHASS!
JY JY!! Must go find teacher again liao. Damn siyahhh.... T-T

NYAZUKO! FIGHTING!! YAYYY!!!
OKay.. Random much. LOLS. Bleehh~

-Nyazuko

2010-05-18T13:21:00.000+08:00

YES! I go a new blogshop!
Vist arhs! Support me kayys! Nyahaha!
http://hellobaby-sunshine.blogspot.com

I join another group! YESS! Can't wait for next yeat CF day 1!!
Get to do AMU-SAMA!! <3
Whoever doing ASK. Is going to get glomp by me. DEADLY! NYAHAHA!!
Can't wait!

2010-05-14T12:08:00.001+08:00

Fuck you lah! Chi bai! Think you who?! My liao bei? or my liao bu? FUCK OFF LAH!
Think like you very big like that. Chi bai. I got my own problem okay?!
Don't like one kind of person.. You got use your brain to think one not? You ownself ready like that.
Bitch sia you! Chi bai. You want me faster faster faster. Chi bai! Faster faster faster. What you doing?! Having sex arhs!
You whore like! Go gelang lah. All the liao ah gong all there one lah. You understand my meh? Fuck you!\
Think i what sia?! Rich arhs? I do thing very slow mah! Cannot meh?! Bitch sia you. You all can find part time.
Parent give you money. Me leh? I don't even exist in my parents world! FCK YOU LAH! Seriously.. Everytime i see your fked up face. I really feel like slapping you!
Then that personality. FK LAH! GO DIE LAH! BITCH! Suaha lah!
Cosplay is not my fucking life. Its just a FUCKING HOBBY! Piss me off even more. I'll be gone from the cosplay world.
Piss me off. I'll inslut your cosplay. Ugly bitch! FUCK YOU!
You biggest in group so? Not biggest in world right?! Got what right to tell me what to do?! BITCH LAH! CHI BAI!
You die is the best lah. People want kidnapper you also cannot lah. So PUI. Fatty! All fats! Like the pig joen. And the dig gou xi.
BITCH LAH! GO SUCK YOUR FATHER COCK LAH! BITCH!

CHI BAI! FUCK YOU LAH! GO FUCK YOURSELF THEN POST ON YOUTUBE LAH! BITCH. THINK YOU WHO? MY MOTHER MEH?
FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE LAH! BITCH. I ALWAYS NEVER LIKE YOU. YOU BITCH!

2010-04-10T14:54:00.000+08:00

Chizuru~ One of my all time favourite song!
AhhH~ GazettE<3 <33
Now a days. Dying of Yaoi hotness. Kinda drag Sze-Ping and Melvin to go see Naruto Yaoi.
Since they like Naruto mahh~!
Ahahaha!!
Now listening to Chizuru.
Not going to the Concert later. Sian one lahhH~~
Ohh yes...

Happy belated Birthday Liting! And YAMAPI!!! *Squeal* Goes~ 3 years of loving him.
The fangirlness come back liao. Ahahaha!!!

Dae Gak Nam Ah the song nice ehhs~
Mikka is <3 LOVE! Mwuahahaha!!!
My korea boyfriend~
Tsk tsk.

2010-02-13T08:50:00.000+08:00

Buwahahaha!! Broke up again.
4th break up. Quite stupid lahs...
Go camp, stead. Come out camp, break. WTF sia! But.. Whatever lah.

Went back to QtPS yesterday. But almost all the teacher all go home liao.
Mr Tan never come down. Sian..
But at least get to see friends. Yan Ting change a lot. Mr Wong still as tall as ever sia.
Jia Hao grow taller liao! Hahass!!
But never take photo. *Goes emo*

Camp so... fun and not fun. Sleep in class very cold sia.
Reita fan girl~!! Woops~!

I miss my fwenndss.... HWaaaaa~!! April never go back, Joel, Wee Hong Yi Tong Afif so many never go back.
EVIL SIA! Pff.... I hate them...
Lols.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!
Well.. BYE BYE~!

Sorrow made you,
Naokii