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It's 2012 now! Now that 2011 is finally over, lets all focus on this new year!
I wish all my friends, family and everybody else a lovely 2012. May this new year be fulfilling and nice to all of us.
In this new year, I hope to learn more stuff, meet more people and become a better person like my 동방신기 오빠. Hopefully in 2012, they'll comeback as 5! No more heartaches and tears of sorrow.
Have a lovely 2012!
Hello people!
It's 26th December 2011, Christmas is officially over. Besides that, the main point is that it's TVXQ'S 8TH ANNIVERSARY. So here is my letter to them and Cassiopeia.
My dearest TVXQ,
8 precious years have passed since your debut. Throughout these 8years, many memories were made. Many tears were shred. Many hearts got broken. Many of us still holding onto the faith.
Cassiopeia might not be the same like last time. Ever since 2009, we face difficulties. Life suddenly became so hard, reality slapped us. But we didn't give up, not even once. Because of the conflict, many of us got torn apart and chose sides. But only because I'm Cassiopeia, I love both.
Through the 8years, life has been though. You must be feeling tired recently. By seeing pictures and watching videos, many might not have notice but we, Cassiopeia, did. The tears behind those smiles, the sorrow behind those laughters, the.fragile you behind that strong front. It's okay to break down and cry, it's okay to ask for help. Cassiopeia will never leave you.
I might have been part of Cassiopeia. But it felt like forever. Cassiopeia feels like home, a place where I belong. TVXQ are my rolemodels. I admire you from afar and love you with all my heart. Because of you, I've learnt to never give up. We came this far and we'll not going to let anything separate us.
'Cassiopeia is TVXQ' - Shim Changmin (via twitter)
TVXQ is Cassiopeia. We're a family, a family that I love so much. Your smiles are so beautiful, your voices are like angels, you yourself is a gift from god. Because of TVXQ, there is the me from today.
26th December 2003, when Cassiopeia and TVXQ met for the first time. It was the start of a beautiful yet rough lovestory. The love Cassiopeia have for TVXQ is so beautiful, so pure. We still stand tall as people try to tear us apart. But because TVXQ and Cassiopeia are glued together, because this is where we belong, we'll find our way back.
'Cassiopeia exist because they love all five members, not indiviual.' -Changmin (via twitter)
'We are still members of TVXQ.' - JaeJoong (via twitter)
#8yearswithtvxq. Today belongs to Kim JaeJoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu and Shim Changmin. Because only when they're five, they are then the correct.,complete TVXQ.
I love you. Whether you're on-stage or off-stage. Because of you, I'll never give up.
'As you do so, our faith will become stronger.' -JaeJoong (via twitter)
Always Keep The Faith. I believe in TVXQ, so for once, believe in us too.
I love you.
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That's the end for it. Blogging through phone is hard. Hope to post the long, full version of my letter soon.
Christmas is not fun. Seems like JaeJoong spent it alone.
Have a lovely day!
Byebye! #8yearswithtvxq
It's 25th December, marking it Christmas! Hello stalkers!
Attended midnight chruch for Christmas. It was.. Alright, i guess.
Anyway, since it's Christmas, do take some time to reflect what you have been doing in 2011. Think of ways to improve and change bad habits!
Though I have no Christmas spirit right now, I hope all of you have a lovely Christmas! Save me cookies! <--- Its a joke. ㅋㅋ
Tomorrow is TVXQ's 8th Anniversary. Happy Anniversary eve, Cassiopeia & TVXQ!
Okay. Bye.
HELLO PEOPLE.
CASSIOPEIA MODE KICKED IN BADLY. I CAN'T BELIEVE I SAW YUNHO AND CHANGMIN YESTERDAY. LIKE SERIOUSLY, OHGOSH. IT FELT LIKE A DREAM. I WAS PART OF THE BEAUTIFUL RED OCEAN. OHMYGOSH.
3rd December 2011 :
Went to the airport with Raine and Marianni. Was there since 9AM, tiring. Really. Had breakfast at Macdonalds and then at 10.30-10.45, went to find a place to sit. At 2.15-ish, THEY CAME OUT LOOKING FLAWLESS. LIKE OHMYGOSH. Though I won't saw they are very tall to me but THEY WERE FLAWLESS. THEY WERE LIKE GLOWING. SERIOUSLY. Both of them waved and then left the airport in a black mercs.
4th December 2011:
Went to sleep at like 1am and woke up at 3.30am. Met Raine at 4am and then left for the stadium. Met Lauren and joined Pen A queue. Wasn't official but it became official later. Was upset about the queueing system since some people cut into our queue. But whatever, since Im in the first 30 people in the queue. Did I mention that when they arrive at the stadium, i was walking back to my queue from the toilet and happened to see their car. I admit, I didn't know it was them. Silly thing happened, I tripped RIGHT BESIDE OF THEIR CAR. Fail max.
Went in at about 7 and the event started. They played Before U Go MV and like... WHY? ME NO SHIP YUNRA. First performance was I think How Can I if im not wrong. Nearly cried but didn't since the guards clockblock me. Seriously?! Changmin's singlish is ADORKABLE. He was 'No problem lah!' and say that the 'Chilli crab was siok!' . He also say 'Alamak, so many fans' ADORABLE. SERIOUSLY. Yunho is just OHMYGOSH. HE CROSSED HIS LEGS. HEHEHE. They showed us fanvids and I cried. Raine cried, too. Surprise, surprise. They performed 3 old songs from OT5 period. Mirotic's fanchant was great, 대 TO THE 박! They performed Before U Go, I DIED. THE WAY THEY DO THE SLOW MOTION TOUCHING/RUBBING THEMSELVES. OHMYFUCKINGOVARIES. Halfway through the event, i felt cold. Raine was beside me and I told her and held her hand since she was so effing warm. According to her, she happened to look up and saw Yunho looking at us and smiling slightly. I HOPE HE DOESN'T THINK OF HER AS LESBIANS. Raine was saying how maybe he was thinking of JaeJoong and I agreed. The event ended at 9pm. It felt so short. THEY WERE SO FLAWLESS, I CRIED. I bought their merchandise as a Christmas present FROM ME TO ME. I hope they'll come back next second half of the year.
5th December 2011:
Nothing happened. I went to the airport but they went through CIP. I nearly cried, okay!
That's pretty much all i can remember. Ciao for now.
I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT. THERE WAS SO MANY YUNJAE AND OT5 BOARDS. AWESOMENESS OKAY. OHGOSH. YUNHO'S SMILE IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. CHANGMIN IS A DORK. I SWEAR. OHMYGOD. WITHDRAWAL IS HEAVY NOW.
Bye!
HI TO PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY READS MY BLOG!
24-26November are like... The best days of my fangirl life so far. SERIOUSLY. OHMYGODSUN. FANACCOUNT! SHORT ONE. I THINK. LOL.
24November - Arrival
Stayed over at Joy's house. Went to the airport. That stupid chicken didnt give me fanservice. At least maknae did! Was being stupid at ts airport with Sebrina. She was pedoing over small kids and I was like wriggling around. And... Teen Top saw us. Okay.. Fail. OTL. Ricky made a heartshape.
25November- Sundown Fanmeet
Didn't manage to get autograph passes. Sad. Damn effing sad. But its okay. Vivid was awesome. Really. I love how they are so friendly and casual. All of them highfived me! Shin scared me though, suddenly grab my hand, shake and smilesmile. Like... Woaaaaah.... Zhang YunJing is pretty, very pretty. Teentop came last. LJOE... OMFG. SO FLAWLESS, I DIDNT KNOW TO DO. OMFG. SO FLAWLESS, YOU KNOW. Teentop actually arent very tall... BUT STILL.. SO FLAWLESS. They all walk so fast... I cried after they left. Stupid chicken made me panic attack so badly.
26November- Sundown Festival
Damn tiring. Went to queue, they weather is like.... It was being a complete bitch. It was so effing hot and it was raining! Basically it was SUN-RAIN-SUN-RAIN-SUN-RAIN-SUN-HEAVY RAIN-SUN- RAIN-SUN-HEAVY RAIN-RAIN-SUN. I got darker. Like a lot a lot more darker. My 6TOT shirt was wet from the rain, so I changed it! To a domo shirt that Sebrina help me buy. Raine have one,too. ViVid performed first. I was... Crazy. Plain crazy. Jumping and grabbing Raine while spazzing and screaming. Vivid is just WOAH. SO SEXY. TOO SEXY. I sweat like wodkwpsklskdowmx. Second to perform was Zhang Yun Jing. Was just commenting about how she is more seme then Raine and how she is so pretty. THEN, TEEN FUCKING TOP PERFORMED. LIKE YES. OHMYGODSUN. YES. FIRST WAS SUPA LUV. SCREAMING AND GOING CRAZY. LJOE IS SO FLAWLESS. OHMYGODSUN. THEN THEY PERFORM BRUSHING. OWNDPWOXKWOMDX LJOE IS FLAWLESS. THIRD SONG WAS ANGEL. I DONT KNOW WHICH SONG BUT LJOE SAW MY BOARD AND MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME. I LOOK SO CUI. OTL. HE SAW MY BOARD. ACCORDING GO RAINE, HE SAW MY BOARD. READ MY BOARD AND SMILED. HE FUCKING SMILED AT MY BOARD. OHMYGODSUN. I BET HE SAW THE CHICKEN KEYCHAIN. LOL. HE KEEP LOOKING AT MY DIRECTION. OHMYGODSUN. DYING. OTL OTL. SEBRINA APPARENTLY HAS A PHOTO OF HIM LOOKING AT MY DIRECTION. OTL. Some people behind keep hitting me with their lightstick. BISH, ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU ARE ALL SO STUPIDLY SHORT, OKAY? L O L. JUDGING FOR LIFE. LAST SONG WAS NO MORE PERFUME ON YOU. RAINE WENT CRAZY. NOT MY FAULT, EVEN THOUGH SHE CLAIMS THAT IT IS... ENCORE SONG WAS CLAP. THE TEEN TOP BAKSU PART WAS DAE TO THE BAK. D A E B A K. BUT WHY NOBODY SAY BAKSU BAKSU?! THATS LIKE THE HOTTEST PART. THEY ENDED THEIR PERFORMANCE. I was doing stupid stuff for the rest... I have no idea why. ENDING, THEY ALL CAME OUT. INCLUDING TEEN TOP. SOME ASSES BLOCKED LJOE FROM MY VIEW. HE WAS TRYING TO LOOK AT MY BOARD. GOSH. I SWEAR. HE WAS TRYING TO LOOK AT MY BOARD. YAH. LJOE OPPA, REMEMBER MY BOARD KAY. NEXT TIME EVENT COME AGAIN, I WILL USE IT.
NEXT WEEK! YAY! 4DECEMBER. TVXQ!FANPARTY. Cannot wait to meet my Cassie Family ~ Cant wait to see Yunho and Changmin! Yunho gained weight,OTL. SO CUTE CAN. Not very obvious though. Heheheh. Shall go make my fanboard soon ^^ if possible, ask them sign. JIA YOU!
Byebye!
Hi stalkers!
Its 23rd November which marks my husband birthday! Lee Byunghun of Teentop turns 19today. 18internationally. Happy Birthday, babyboy!
Anyway, I want to cry so badly but i have got no tears. Seriously. Ohgod. I don't even know why I want to cry, its not like anything bad happened. Other than the news of JaeJoong might be enlisting...
I'm looking at the bright side! He goes to army, he'll come back as a better and more mature person. I believe he will overcome everything. Afterall, he isn't Kim Youngwoong JaeJoong for nothing. Even though I'm gonna miss him like crazy. Really, really crazy. Imagine 2 years without seeing him performing live. 2years without having him producing a new single or album. Ah, life is sad. I'll miss JaeJoong a lot if he really is going. Heard a rumor that Yunho will be enlisting also but at the end of the year. Rumors, they're all rumors right now.
Yoochun might not have to serve the army. Something about grade7. Another 2 more tests before knowing whether he needs to go. Can't DB5K just enlist together, come out together, comeback stage together? Gosh. Most likely feeling down because of this.
3more days to Sundown! Teentop's arrival is tomorrow 23:59, but they'll most likely come out at 12.30AM. Staying over at Joy's house with Sebrina for a heart to heart talk! We're all having boys problem. Excluding me.
My LEDboard hasn't arrived yet. Aaaahhh,i feel so nervous.
TVXQ!Fanparty in a week! Have to post the message on the fanpage soon. I want to see Yunho so badly.
Its 1.49AM, goodnight!
Or good morning.. ! Bye!
Hello stalkers.
SUNDOWN IN ANOTHER 5DAYS. SEEING TEENTOP IN 4DAYS. BUT MY LEDBOARD NOT HERE YET. FMLFML. OHMYGOD. HOW. OMFG. Staying over at Joy's house after Teentop arrival. Meeting Sebrina & Joy soon!
1 week after Sundown is Fanparty. omfg. IM GONNA DIE. I CANT WAIT. OMFG. GONNA SEE YUNHO AND CHANGMIN. OHMYGOSH. OWDLWPNCKWOIDKKWMDLXLOWKE CANT WAIT. TEEHEE! Then there is this contest for meet and greet. I dont know what to do! ): ottokae!
I like gays. As in Yunjae. THEY ARE REAL, YOU CANNOT DENY IT. Shippers have sharp eyes and great minds. Bleh.
Okay, byebye
HI STALKERS. I don't know why you still read my blog, its so dead! I'm here to rant about fake OT5 cassies & stans. Here to rant out everything I'm feeling depress about. If you're not a Cassiopeia, you'll find it hard to understand. Go talk to a Cassie before reading.
Firstly, fake ot5 Cassies. WHY YOU CALL YOURSELF CASSIOPEIA? Don't claim yourself as a OT5Cassie when you think JYJ as no rights to use Cassiopeia as their fanclub name. JYJ is part of TVXQ. EVERYONE KNOWS THAT. JAEJOONG SAY IT HIMSELF. AND BITCH, DON'T YOU DARE GO AGAINST HIS WORDS. From what I read, Changmin thought of the name because it has 5 stars. 5 STARS, OKAY. What are you fags trying to do to the beautiful red ocean that exist for them? Please get the fuck out of the fandom. Simply saying that you want them back as 5 but doing the total opposite, you're crazy. CASSIOPEIA EXIST FOR ALL 5 MEMBERS. NOT 2, NOT 3. If you're a stan, stfu.
Second, Stans. So many stans bashing on JYJ/Homin. You people are so lowlife. I believe that DB5K WILL BE BACK. AND WHEN THEY DO, I'LL FUCKING SHOVE INTO YOUR FACE. If you are a Homin stan, DO NOT BE SO THICKSKIN AND CALL YOURSELF A CASSIOPEIA. Stans, you have no idea how much Cassiopeias have to go through to keep the faith. And by bashing on Homin/JYJ, you're just making life even harder. JYJ stans should know how depress JaeJoong is. JUST LOOK AT HIM, HE IS COMPLETELY BROKEN. I wonder how he feels knowing that JYJ stans are bashing on his other half, his brothers. Homin stans can go ahead and deny that Yunho looks so... Currently do not have the right word. Yunho is the leader for DB5K, all 5 and not just Changmin alone. Remember the first Balloon performance after the lawsuit started? YOU BETTER REMEMBER. SEE THOSE EYES? THEY AREN'T SHINING LIKE LAST TIME. How will he feel knowing that you bash on JYJ? You fags think about yourselves, who thinks for them? Those any of you think about their feelings when you bash? You wanna be a stan, go ahead. LEAVE THE BOYS & MY FANDOM ALONE. SUPPORT THEM AND STFU. NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR YOUR COMPLAINTS.
Third, DB5K. FUCKYOU. OMFG. CAN I KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO YOUR HEAD OR SOMETHING? YOU LOVE EACH OTHER, YOU KNOW IT, WE KNOW IT. STOP FORCING A STRONG FRONT WHEN YOU'RE DYING INSIDE. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TELL CASSIOPEIA HOW YOU FEEL & WHAT YOU WANT. WE ARE A FAMILY AFTERALL, RIGHT? WE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. ALL 800,000+++ OF US. JUNG YUNHO, JUST CRY ALREADY. IT'S FUCKING KILLING ME TO SEE YOU SO FUCKEDUP. SHIM CHANGMIN, YOU'RE A REALLY STRONG PERSON. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT. PLEASE, JUST TELL US. YUNHO & CHANGMIN, STOP BEING IMMUNE TO OT5 CASSIES. IT MAKES US FEEL AS IF IT'S REALLY OVER WHEN NOTHING STARTED. KIM JAEJOONG, CHEER UP. I KNOW YOU LOVE YUNHO&CHANGMIN. WE ALL KNOW. YUNHO IS YOUR OTHERHALF, AFTERALL. IT KILLS TO SEE YOU SO.. BROKEN. PARK YOOCHUN, you seem crazy as usual... I REALLY WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR TEARS. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR SOBS. I JUST HAVE THIS STRONG FEELING ABOUT YOU CRYING TO SLEEP EVERYNIGHT. KIM JUNSU. OMFG. YOU'RE NOT THE SAME ANYMORE. I MISS HEARING THAT CHEERFUL DORKY EUNKYANGKYANG LAUGHTER. I MISS SEEING THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE. I JUST HOPE THAT ALL OF YOU WILL STOP ACTING AND SHOW YOURSELF NOW. QUIT LYING TO YOURSELF. IF IT'S THE COMPANY BEING A BITCH (Yes,SM is a bitch) QUIT. I HOPE YUNHO & CHANGMIN WILL GET THEIR ASS OUT OF THERE. I BELIEVE IN 5 AND I WILL DO WHATEVER I CAN TO BRING OUT THOSE SMILES THAT I MISS. DB5K TAUGHT ME TO BE HUMBLE, TAUGHT ME FRIENDSHIP, HARDSHIP & EVERYTHING ELSE. NO OTHER GROUP CAN DO ACCAPELLA AS PERFECT AS YOU. YOU'RE EVERYTHING I BELIEVE IN.
Fourth, I've been crying a lot these days and it's all because of DB5K. I miss DB5K so much, you have no idea. Cassiopeia is my very first fandom. I have no intention of leaving it. I really want to have this heart-to-heart conversation with Yunho & Changmin. Seeing them smile now, it's almost convincing enough to make me believe that they are happy. Bish, I couldn't listen to Balloons without tearing up. I hate how SMent is a such a bitch. I will not support SM, only Yunho&Changmin.
I've been lying to myself, trying to convince myself that nothing is wrong. What a lie. I can rant on and on but nevermind.
Always Keep The Faith, Cassiopeias!
Stans, fuck off.